is the depressed feeling normal?

Ive noticed it doesnt happen as much since I started smoking but it still happens.

After I finish reading or watching a movie that moves me in a great way(emotionaly or intellectually)I just have this incredible fear that I'll never experience something that good again. It is really hard to explain. I'll feel incredibly depressed for any given amount of time. Its been days, weeks, and months.

And also I'll obsess about unimportant things. Like yesterday i scrubbed one part of my floor for about five minutes. And I just kept doing it over and over then i I realized what I was doing. Ill obsess about a book series or a game. And usually I'll stay depressed until I find a new thing to obsess about. Despite the post name I KNOW this isn't normal. What should I do about it?

quit tweaking and stick to w33d

hey leaf ,
try smoking some sativa -n- see if things change , indica = couch loc drag ya down buzz . sativa = i've found to be a pick me up kinda buzz .
peace
your cuz
crispi

I don't do anything except weed(only done zanex once)

And ive noticed that the feeling happens LESS when I smoke, it has happened all my life

I could really use some replies

Teenagers feel like this often.

Ive felt it since i was 4-5

I doubt you remember those quite specific feelings from when you were 4. Usually people can't recal anything till the age 6.

Also, 4-5 year olds won't ever face depression. Maybe their playdo dryd up, but mommy will buy you some more.

When I was two years old, I had a birthday part at chucky cheese's. I walked in and thought it was huge. I saw chucky and thought that he looked a little off. I remember walking to a chair at a table and eating a slice of peperonni pizza.

When I was four I had a dream about stepping on a baby dolls head and it popping off. The doll then went to my mom(sitting on the couch with her BF) and it took her head off. After that for about two weeks i was scared to death that she was going to die. I stopped doing anything I just sat on my bed and cried for a while then I'd sleep. I ate less. Before i was 6 it was mostly about dreams I had.

To this day, going to church does it to me. After a serman im scared to death of going to hell. I stop playing my games, and visiting people. I am consumed with fear after it. This has always happened to me after I go to church.

I remember many memories from before I was six, the first paragraph on this post is the first thing I can remember.

Talk to someone about it, wheater its your parents, doctor, guidence counselor ( If in school). You might be suffering from OCD or something like that. Thats what i thouhgt.

And I over analyze things until I become depressed. I'll analyze something until I realize that at the root of it, everything is pointless.

With these sudden drops in happiness after emotional/mental stimulation, and your obsessive need to fixate on a possitive stimulous to feel up, it sounds like you need a seratonin reuptake inhibitor.

On a side note though, and this only works for me as far as I know, I've found that using moderate doses of 10x salvia divinorum keeps my mood more possitive for about 2 days after using it.

I'm in the same situation wayoftheleaf, i just smoke it off.

Im gonna talk to my mom about it. Maybe i should be on some kind of meds. who knows.

I don't have enough weed to smoke as much as id need. Id have to be baked 24/7

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Im gonna talk to my mom about it. Maybe i should be on some kind of meds. who knows.

I don't have enough weed to smoke as much as id need. Id have to be baked 24/7

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Despite what people here will say, weed isn't the answer to all your ailments, it's not your universal crutch, and being dependant on it to solve all your problems is a bad idea. Besides, once your tolerance gets up there it may not do anything for you anymore. I know, it doesn't make me feel emotionally or physically better to the slightest degree anymore.

Well..honestly thats quite irresponible if you've 'felt like that since 4-5' and havn't mentioned it yet.
All in all, I hope you feel better.

I have mentioned it to my mom. But nothing has really happened. She thought it was my social problems at school.

I went to a counsoler when I was sick but it didnt do much good. I didnt understand when i was little and his meeting were always right when DBZ came on and it made me miss it. So i had him thinking that i was the perfect little boy with no issues.

Well then, go to another counsoler and schedule it around your DBZ. :)

Peace

We just havn't bothered to. And we just moved to the area. My healthcare card just got issued so we can go without having to go through an hour of phone calls.

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Despite what people here will say, weed isn't the answer to all your ailments, it's not your universal crutch, and being dependant on it to solve all your problems is a bad idea. Besides, once your tolerance gets up there it may not do anything for you anymore. I know, it doesn't make me feel emotionally or physically better to the slightest degree anymore.

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Thank you, I see so many dumbasses on this site that think smoking a L will solve anything and everything. I mean if i get into a fight with my parents or a friend, ill light up a L and feel better for the time, but what about after your high? You have to face it again.

^Truth.

i agree to

thinking you will never experience anything as good as your last cannabis experience is sad. But what keeps me forward to the next day of life is the fact that im sure many things that are even better than the day before are in the feauture. When you have run out of things to look forward to is when your soul dies and there is nothing left, but thats the good thing about life. you can make it better all you have to do is put forth enough effort to create a better tommorow.

i used to be in that sorta position, i used to do alot of weird shit sometimes that i didnt realize i was doing - (like waking up on a swing in a park next to a church at 6am?!?) i would hear things that werent there and occasionally even seen things that werent there, so i got told by a school counsiller to see some shrink as it was only getting worse, and when i did he asked me a load of shit, and i had to talk to him for bout an hour, then i had to go back again a couple weeks later, when i did, he got me prescribed with some medication, and i went home, after a while of taking the meds, things looked alot better, and i guess they were, until i started hearing the whispering that i had before but louder, - the doctor had told me that all the things i used to see and hear would stop but they hadnt, -they had got worse, i asked the doctor what to do and he offered more drugs, which i took thinking they would help...

now, here i am 4 years down the line, - i am NO better, i hear voices and strange sounds alot, (my friends know i am a bit weird so they understand if i start to spin out) i am extremely paranoid, and i can feel very stressed over something very simple. very often, i have strange outbursts often becoming violent, unhappy, upset whatever, but its never good, theres a guy who i always see, who 'isnt there', my head is all over the place and i have basically gone from being a smart kid, to a social recluse, the only thing that helps me is growing weed, them doctors all made me WORSE, and now it feels like im stuck with three different people inside MY head...

i dunno tho, it may work for you it may not, hopefully you dont get super worried about the same thing happenin to you, all i can say is dont 100% trust or rely on the drugs they give you, compared to weed, its fools gold...

i hear ya man. i feel the same way. i mean with the obsessing thing. it's weird to, i met a girl recently and she said that i showed signs of like autism or something. and i asked her how so, and she said it was because i had an almost encyclopedic knowledge about certain things (the things i obsesss about), wether it be a movie or book or a drug.

Marijuana definitely makes it sorta stop. it helps.

sometimes i'll be completely fine sitting at my pc, and then suddenly a flash of sadness or depression hits me and like i have to take a sharp intake of air, like a gasp. and i feel so sad. and i there could be so many reasons why. and heres something really personal that i haven't even confronted myself about, i sometimes hear voices of people i've met in the past and i have whispered conversations with them, like i'm saying the words i wanted to say when we had previously met. you know? for example if i had an argument with some guy name lenny, i'll hear his voice and then it's like a weird echo of what happened in reality. i dunno.

i'm gonna smoke up and then laugh at myself for being such an emotional bitch.

I recall a couple of weeks ago you had a nosebleed that would not stop- I would suggest Talk therapy- a good psychotherapist , I will say this POT is not your answer, it may make you feel good for a moment but this is a false feeling- pot like alcohol can enhance depression or compulsive disorders- you can listen to the bullshit you read on this site if you wish but I took my first toke of reefer in 1967 -I have smoked off and on and been around a lot of people who do smoke- I have always been amazed at the people who use it for a crutch to mask feelings they have whatever they may be, take care of yourself- I suggest stay away from reefer and get some real help.
best of luck to you

Isn't seeing things and hearing things that arent there - and the things you see being very stable, as in you see the same person - a main symptom of schitzophrenia?

Three factors: You're 15. You're smoking marijuana. You're brain is finally forming into an adults.

All three of these things lead to a very unstable, emotional, and confusing expirience.

Just gotta keeeep moving forward, keeeeep thinking, keeep trying. Eventually you're mind will organize itself into a comfortable, stable pattern, or you'll live for a few more years, get prescribed countless meds, succumb to heavy drug and alcohol addiction, and finally kill yourself while indulging in some sick blood-to-wall art.

On an entirely unrelated note: http://www.crackmuffin.com/html/Truth-About-Calvin.html
hahahaha.
Mars is Amazing!

But that first part you're talking about, the whole addictive personality thing,
I 've expirienced that as well. Just find something that you can work on, that you may not be entirely obsessed about, but something that you know you'd like to become GOOD at. Some hobby.

The obsessions lead to nothing. Or maybe they do. I don't know. Some people end up finding their passion, but for me, that incredible positive reaction, that obsessive desire to learn more, to forget everything and devote your entire day to ONE thing, always die away and is replaced with boredom. It is unhealthy and should be avoided.

i dont know, i guess it could be schitzofrenia,

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I suggest stay away from reefer and get some real help.

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lol i would agree but, after dealing with all that shit it doesnt help, just makes shit worse, i dunno maybe it can help, but it definately didnt for me...

i find when im with alot of people, i feel okay, but VERY paranoid, whereas when im alone, i dont feel paranoid at all, but i see strange things alot more, i hear things very often with or without company, i think i feel happiest in the company of my closest friends, when im not alone and im not with anyone who doesnt like me, i definately would be screwed if it wasnt for a few close friends, they are all very understanding, and know how sane i can be, and can also calm me down or sort me out when i need it, still, i dont like being alone...

WHen I am alone is when I am paranoid. Ill hear whispers that aren't there. But not words? Its like just something carried on the wind I guess is the only way to describe it. Like there are thousands upon thousands of creatures lurking just out of sight. Talking just loud enough that You know they are talking. But you can't understand what they are saying.

They told us not to believe everything you see on TV, but I heard somewhere that the movie "A Beautiful Mind" is one of the best representations of schitzophrenia out there. And he had the same(or near the same, hard to remember, i could be completely off)symptoms as what you described.

And once again I say this to everyone, THIS IS NOT A RECENT THING. IT HAS HAPPENED ALL MY LIFE. I agree teenage horomones and growth could enhance it, but IT IS NOT A NEW THING.

Okay I have some more symptoms I just remembered and stuff.

When I was little, often obsession came with the depression. This still happens.

When I was little I fould focos on something. Like try to make a particular person happy an entire week. And stuff like that. And my life would focus completly on this task. And if i hadn't done good i'd cry myself to sleep. General stuff like that.

sounds like you might have a psychiatric condition unrelated to your cannabis use. might want to have a word with your doctor about it and try out some (gasp) pharmaceuticals or other herbal remedies for it.

And yes your symptoms could be consistent with a number of things, including schizophrenia and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), but who knows for sure? The best way is to see a doctor for a referral to a psychiatrist who could give you a diagnostic work-up.

I know what you are talking about. See a doctor. It could get bad.

i fell u all.. i suffer from manic depression myself it got so bad i had to go to the nut house.. they had me in there for a week all doped up intill they found the right meds. i could'nt sleep i allways felt like something bad was going to happen afraid that i was going to kill somebody it was crazy felling. what i learned in there there just felling they will come and go.. when u have them just say to yourself it will pass. they have me on 30ml of paxil and 100ml of trazedone to help me sleep. i still have them felling every now in then but u just have to relax when they come... hope everybody gets better i know it sucks to fell that way.. i'v been on them meds for 10 years now..

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Originally Posted by wayoftheleaf

Ive noticed it doesnt happen as much since I started smoking but it still happens.

After I finish reading or watching a movie that moves me in a great way(emotionaly or intellectually)I just have this incredible fear that I'll never experience something that good again. It is really hard to explain. I'll feel incredibly depressed for any given amount of time. Its been days, weeks, and months.

And also I'll obsess about unimportant things. Like yesterday i scrubbed one part of my floor for about five minutes. And I just kept doing it over and over then i I realized what I was doing. Ill obsess about a book series or a game. And usually I'll stay depressed until I find a new thing to obsess about. Despite the post name I KNOW this isn't normal. What should I do about it?

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dude i feel you on that one

i got the same shit

it sucks :(