Originally Posted by narcoticrex
thanks ganjasaurus, a lot of what you say makes sense.
to all the people suggesting therapy....jesus, im not sitting outside her house with binoculars waiting for her to leave so i can steal her pair of panties. am i obsessed with her? probably, but i dare any of you to absolutely give everything you have to someone for 5 years, then just say "oh well, that didnt work...lets try again!" which is why i titled this post "cant get her out of my head".
there is a ton to the story that i left out (obviously) that makes it a little different...for example, she was the one obsessed with me. she needed to be around me every hour of every day, needed my constant reassurance, constantly needed me to tell her i love, and i did all those things. in return, she made me feel good. it feels good to have someone accept you and love you does it not?
i dont think she "was on the fence", i mean i KNOW this chick was head over heels for me. she had problems too, but what im saying is i compounded those problems so much that it became unworkable. and i blame myself for a lot of that! and like ganjasaurus said, you cant just "go back" because its a dirty slate, you can never "just forgive and forget", its always there.
ganjasaurs, as you say with the respect issue, i completely agree there - when i was with her, chicks were always digging me, thats because i was self-confident, and (i think the big secret) i really didnt want to have sex with them...i was with someone. women sense when you dont want them and that makes them want you for some reason. and additionally, the respect for myself was a major reason for the arguments - i basically told her she was out of line and needed to shape up, and instead, after a while she decided to just ship out. which i was fine with, for a little while, until i started to talk to other girls, and realized that (women dont get me wrong, i am NOT a male chauvinist) 98% of women are materialistic, less intelligent than me, uninteresting, or they are crazier than me or into heavier drugs than i am. thats why i miss her so damn much, so was right on my wavelength, that not many people are. ganjasaurus said i may have been too open...i dont agree with that. i would prefer to tell me lover anything and everything over my dog or my best friend. i dont make love to my dog or my best friend.
as far as other girls, ive had some other short relationships since her, and they are just unsatisfying...i found this one girl more attractive than my ex, and i ended up fucking her and being completely turned off, when she said "cum in me daddy!" i was like "we're done here" lol Lo Pan said it best "There have been others, to be sure, but you seem to be one who would know of the difficulties between men and women." : )