Okay, Here I go...

Well today I was going to give myself a break to clean out for a day or too. I had one of the worst day's that I've had in a long time. I think I lost my mind or something. It seemed as though everything was going wrong. First my phone at the apartment wasn't working right, then The mail box key they gave me wasn't opening up my mailbox,and then too top all that off, My son was being fussy. I'm a single mother, I deal with that all the time but today for some reason it drove me over the edge.I got my mom to take care of him,and I went to sleep. Now through all of this, I didn't toke. I had the urge too, but I didn't do it. Because I had to see just how much I needed the weed to relax me.

Hang on I promise this has a point..

Everything was alright, I'm doing fine. Living in my non-happy stoner world. Watching aqua teen hunger force, wishin i was high.Then my EX calls me up. We're really good friends so we talk every day, he asks how my son is,and we talk about how big of losers we are & how we really need a life.Then he starts talking about his new girl. I'm alright with that. Everything is fine. Everything is dandy. Then he talks about how she is playing this stupid chidish games w/him,and how he is still holding on. Going on and on...so I snap. Get up from my chair, walk out on my porch and smoked a fucking bowl.Oh I am not complaining, At all. I enjoyed every single minute of my high. In fact i'm still high. But I was wondering is there anyone else out there that is just like this?I mean quits for a reason but doesn't stick to it due to things that you should've killed the moment that you begun talking about it, and the moment that you know you shouldn't be feeling this way?

And a lot of my post may seem like I'm bitching a lot. I'm not honestly..There is a reason to every bit of my post.I just wrote a story,and now I should probably go.

But seriously...Anyone else feel like that too?

Yeah i know what you kinda mean. Like everyday when i wake up i wait to toke. I wait usually like 2-4 hours after i get up. Just when i decide to do it. Today i waited like 5 hours tho. i shoulda made the bowl more enjoyable but instead just smoked it fast and blew all the smoke into a shop vac cuz it seemed like fun and we wanted to see if it would make it not smell, kinda worked. But yeah, mines more of until my stomach starts to hurt, or i feel like shit tho.

it didn't sound like you were bitching at all.

no, i'm not like that. usually, if i have some weed and something gets me down, i head straight for the weed. it may prove useful seeing as how had to deal with more than one of those incidences today. if you had of just smoked a bowl after the first incidence, you would have coped with the other incidences in a different manner.

if it's not too bold, you should of hung up on your ex when he started blabbering about his new girl, that just seems inconsiderate to me.

hope that bowl made you feel better...i'll go hit mine for you.

Aw..Thank's for hitting your bowl for me. It makes me feel special. ;)

Yeah I should've smoked it the first bad thing that happened which was at 7 am. But I figured I'd wait it out until at least 10am or 11am in the morning. And by then...Shit was happening so much, that I didn't feel like smoking anything but going to bed.

As for being bold, nah you're not. And you know I thought of that, but I don't really mind hearing about it. I lie to myself a lot. But it helps ease the shit that I feel for him. Makes me open my eyes and see things from a different perspective, and at the same time it makes him see that when I promise something I won't back out. It doesn't matter what the fuck happens. I'm stronger then going and wussing out stuff like that:)And thanks for toking for me, that's really nice of you. I'm feeling good right now!!!!:)

But anyway I'll go now...
:)

i'd ask you what promise you made to make him realize that you wont back out but, i'm afraid thats none of my business.

so, i'll go hit the pipe for you once again.

Damn dont you hate when you post something sorta important, and then someone else posts something longer more important, so you get ignored? Lol sorry im stoned.

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Well today I was going to give myself a break to clean out for a day or too. I had one of the worst day's that I've had in a long time. I think I lost my mind or something. It seemed as though everything was going wrong. First my phone at the apartment wasn't working right, then The mail box key they gave me wasn't opening up my mailbox,and then too top all that off, My son was being fussy. I'm a single mother, I deal with that all the time but today for some reason it drove me over the edge.I got my mom to take care of him,and I went to sleep. Now through all of this, I didn't toke. I had the urge too, but I didn't do it. Because I had to see just how much I needed the weed to relax me.

Hang on I promise this has a point..

Everything was alright, I'm doing fine. Living in my non-happy stoner world. Watching aqua teen hunger force, wishin i was high.Then my EX calls me up. We're really good friends so we talk every day, he asks how my son is,and we talk about how big of losers we are & how we really need a life.Then he starts talking about his new girl. I'm alright with that. Everything is fine. Everything is dandy. Then he talks about how she is playing this stupid chidish games w/him,and how he is still holding on. Going on and on...so I snap. Get up from my chair, walk out on my porch and smoked a fucking bowl.Oh I am not complaining, At all. I enjoyed every single minute of my high. In fact i'm still high. But I was wondering is there anyone else out there that is just like this?I mean quits for a reason but doesn't stick to it due to things that you should've killed the moment that you begun talking about it, and the moment that you know you shouldn't be feeling this way?

And a lot of my post may seem like I'm bitching a lot. I'm not honestly..There is a reason to every bit of my post.I just wrote a story,and now I should probably go.

But seriously...Anyone else feel like that too?

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i can totally relate i would never consider quiting weed but i went through the starting and stoping thing for about a year when i was trying to quit using opiates and i can also relate on the ex thing as well me and my sons mom split up before he was born but are still very close we talk 3-5 times a week on the phone and i go to visit her and my boy [ im in richmond they are in charlotte ] 5- 10 times a yr for a week at a time and we take our vacation togeather so our son can have a normal family vacation with mom and dad and she has had several boy friends that didnt treat her as well as she deserves the last one she had she married and then he wiped out her bank account [ 22'000$] and left her the day after her father died..so yes i have let some problems get the best of me when i was trying to abstain any way i hope you feel better soon and wish you and your little one the best of luck peace jim

i think im a little tooo stonedd to figure out qwhat your talking about, but ATHF kicks ass, yeah

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Damn dont you hate when you post something sorta important, and then someone else posts something longer more important, so you get ignored? Lol sorry im stoned.

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imstoned didnt you quote and respond to this? Or was i just that stoned? cuz i could swear you did.

some days are just not good days to quit- try again until you get it right !

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Damn dont you hate when you post something sorta important, and then someone else posts something longer more important, so you get ignored? Lol sorry im stoned.

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Stoned:::I don't think I replied to it..But I might have...Hmm...I think I was getting ready too but something happened and I got sidetracked or something. I'm sorry...I'll like....reply to it now though...

Yes, I hate it, but if there problem is worse then mine...then you know they need more help then me,and besides...At least im not the only one that bitches,and gets walked on!:)

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i can totally relate i would never consider quiting weed but i went through the starting and stoping thing for about a year when i was trying to quit using opiates and i can also relate on the ex thing as well me and my sons mom split up before he was born but are still very close we talk 3-5 times a week on the phone and i go to visit her and my boy [ im in richmond they are in charlotte ] 5- 10 times a yr for a week at a time and we take our vacation togeather so our son can have a normal family vacation with mom and dad and she has had several boy friends that didnt treat her as well as she deserves the last one she had she married and then he wiped out her bank account [ 22'000$] and left her the day after her father died..so yes i have let some problems get the best of me when i was trying to abstain any way i hope you feel better soon and wish you and your little one the best of luck peace jim

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Wow, That isn't good. It's the same way w/him only he used to be so active in my sons life and everything, he still is.. Just not as much. He was supposed to come see us this weekend but didn't have the money too. However he did have the money to buy and then resell drugs..So, whatever makes him happy right?And Also, his new found girlfriend doesn't want him she is 18 and plays head games with him like a little bitch...But no he still wants her..Oh well he'll get whats comin to him, I believe in Karma.

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i'd ask you what promise you made to make him realize that you wont back out but, i'm afraid thats none of my business.

so, i'll go hit the pipe for you once again.

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Weakness has never been my friend. I've never backed out of any commitment I've mad. The guy's i've been with has alway's been the first to break it off, If my relationship needed improvement, I improved it. And if there was that rare case that I had to back out, WE talked about it first,and if both of us felt the same way it was more or less murtal. He backed out of this relationship first. And when he did I said.."You'll never find anyone...exactly like me, as strong as me, as understanding,and the way I am. And I'll stick by you till the end when she (his girl) and everyone else leaves you I will be the only one left standing. just to show you what/who I am. This is not a statement of wanting you back or begging you back, but It's a mirror that you're always going to be looking in when you're alone and you'll see everything clear as the sky. I promise you that"
It's none of anyones business, but I didn't want to sound like a whiney ex who begs her boyfriend back everyday,and is stupid for staying. I have my reasons..just Like I have my reasons of smoking weed. I don't love him anymore like that, but I do love him as a friend/as my sons father.


well that's about all...I have to say...On this gloomy and rainy day..it's time to go toke up..

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well that's about all...I have to say...On this gloomy and rainy day..it's time to go toke up..

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on that notion...

also, it's always good to take initiative. i admire a person who doesn't have to wait around to be told and just get up and take care of what needs to be done.

I think every woman has had a man in her life that she would do anything for that decided the grass was greener on some other bitch. (who will fuck him up and everyone can see it but him)
I feel for you girlfriend.

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I think every woman has had a man in her life that she would do anything for that decided the grass was greener on some other bitch. (who will fuck him up and everyone can see it but him)
I feel for you girlfriend.

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Exactly!This girl has balls now. I'm serious. The whole time we were dating(Which was a year) She would call him up,and cause problems between us. I'm not a jealous person, So I would say okay fine, go have fun. Can I meet her?Since it was his'best' friend..Oh no I couldn't meet her because she was a bitch,and he didn't want me to see her.So..I was okay with that...He has been friends with her for 3 yrs....everytime the bitch would call he'd get up and go to her.Wenever fault, unless it was about her.She wanted him when he was with me, so he broke up with me..and decided to go after her..And what does she do?She doesn't want him now,he is 23 fuckin years old and is chasing after her every fucking move.It's pitiful....but then again who am I too talk when I'm doing the same exact thing with him?

Drama Drama Drama......Fuck it all.

friend of opposite sex you "can't" meet for some mysterious reason........
DANGER WILL ROBINSON!!

that's always your replacement