Okay, Here I go...

[ImStonedNILikeIt]

Well today I was going to give myself a break to clean out for a day or too. I had one of the worst day's that I've had in a long time. I think I lost my mind or something. It seemed as though everything was going wrong. First my phone at the apartment wasn't working right, then The mail box key they gave me wasn't opening up my mailbox,and then too top all that off, My son was being fussy. I'm a single mother, I deal with that all the time but today for some reason it drove me over the edge.I got my mom to take care of him,and I went to sleep. Now through all of this, I didn't toke. I had the urge too, but I didn't do it. Because I had to see just how much I needed the weed to relax me.

Hang on I promise this has a point..

Everything was alright, I'm doing fine. Living in my non-happy stoner world. Watching aqua teen hunger force, wishin i was high.Then my EX calls me up. We're really good friends so we talk every day, he asks how my son is,and we talk about how big of losers we are & how we really need a life.Then he starts talking about his new girl. I'm alright with that. Everything is fine. Everything is dandy. Then he talks about how she is playing this stupid chidish games w/him,and how he is still holding on. Going on and on...so I snap. Get up from my chair, walk out on my porch and smoked a fucking bowl.Oh I am not complaining, At all. I enjoyed every single minute of my high. In fact i'm still high. But I was wondering is there anyone else out there that is just like this?I mean quits for a reason but doesn't stick to it due to things that you should've killed the moment that you begun talking about it, and the moment that you know you shouldn't be feeling this way?

And a lot of my post may seem like I'm bitching a lot. I'm not honestly..There is a reason to every bit of my post.I just wrote a story,and now I should probably go.

But seriously...Anyone else feel like that too?

ImStonedNILikeIt Reviewed by ImStonedNILikeIt on 07-14-2005. Okay, Here I go... Well today I was going to give myself a break to clean out for a day or too. I had one of the worst day's that I've had in a long time. I think I lost my mind or something. It seemed as though everything was going wrong. First my phone at the apartment wasn't working right, then The mail box key they gave me wasn't opening up my mailbox,and then too top all that off, My son was being fussy. I'm a single mother, I deal with that all the time but today for some reason it drove me over the edge.I Rating: 5

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

Yeah i know what you kinda mean. Like everyday when i wake up i wait to toke. I wait usually like 2-4 hours after i get up. Just when i decide to do it. Today i waited like 5 hours tho. i shoulda made the bowl more enjoyable but instead just smoked it fast and blew all the smoke into a shop vac cuz it seemed like fun and we wanted to see if it would make it not smell, kinda worked. But yeah, mines more of until my stomach starts to hurt, or i feel like shit tho.

[Ganj]

it didn't sound like you were bitching at all.

no, i'm not like that. usually, if i have some weed and something gets me down, i head straight for the weed. it may prove useful seeing as how had to deal with more than one of those incidences today. if you had of just smoked a bowl after the first incidence, you would have coped with the other incidences in a different manner.

if it's not too bold, you should of hung up on your ex when he started blabbering about his new girl, that just seems inconsiderate to me.

hope that bowl made you feel better...i'll go hit mine for you.

[ImStonedNILikeIt]

Aw..Thank's for hitting your bowl for me. It makes me feel special.

Yeah I should've smoked it the first bad thing that happened which was at 7 am. But I figured I'd wait it out until at least 10am or 11am in the morning. And by then...Shit was happening so much, that I didn't feel like smoking anything but going to bed.

As for being bold, nah you're not. And you know I thought of that, but I don't really mind hearing about it. I lie to myself a lot. But it helps ease the shit that I feel for him. Makes me open my eyes and see things from a different perspective, and at the same time it makes him see that when I promise something I won't back out. It doesn't matter what the fuck happens. I'm stronger then going and wussing out stuff like thatAnd thanks for toking for me, that's really nice of you. I'm feeling good right now!!!!

But anyway I'll go now...

[Ganj]

i'd ask you what promise you made to make him realize that you wont back out but, i'm afraid thats none of my business.

so, i'll go hit the pipe for you once again.

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

Damn dont you hate when you post something sorta important, and then someone else posts something longer more important, so you get ignored? Lol sorry im stoned.

[ezjim]

Well today I was going to give myself a break to clean out for a day or too. I had one of the worst day's that I've had in a long time. I think I lost my mind or something. It seemed as though everything was going wrong. First my phone at the apartment wasn't working right, then The mail box key they gave me wasn't opening up my mailbox,and then too top all that off, My son was being fussy. I'm a single mother, I deal with that all the time but today for some reason it drove me over the edge.I got my mom to take care of him,and I went to sleep. Now through all of this, I didn't toke. I had the urge too, but I didn't do it. Because I had to see just how much I needed the weed to relax me.

Hang on I promise this has a point..

Everything was alright, I'm doing fine. Living in my non-happy stoner world. Watching aqua teen hunger force, wishin i was high.Then my EX calls me up. We're really good friends so we talk every day, he asks how my son is,and we talk about how big of losers we are & how we really need a life.Then he starts talking about his new girl. I'm alright with that. Everything is fine. Everything is dandy. Then he talks about how she is playing this stupid chidish games w/him,and how he is still holding on. Going on and on...so I snap. Get up from my chair, walk out on my porch and smoked a fucking bowl.Oh I am not complaining, At all. I enjoyed every single minute of my high. In fact i'm still high. But I was wondering is there anyone else out there that is just like this?I mean quits for a reason but doesn't stick to it due to things that you should've killed the moment that you begun talking about it, and the moment that you know you shouldn't be feeling this way?

And a lot of my post may seem like I'm bitching a lot. I'm not honestly..There is a reason to every bit of my post.I just wrote a story,and now I should probably go.

But seriously...Anyone else feel like that too?

i can totally relate i would never consider quiting weed but i went through the starting and stoping thing for about a year when i was trying to quit using opiates and i can also relate on the ex thing as well me and my sons mom split up before he was born but are still very close we talk 3-5 times a week on the phone and i go to visit her and my boy [ im in richmond they are in charlotte ] 5- 10 times a yr for a week at a time and we take our vacation togeather so our son can have a normal family vacation with mom and dad and she has had several boy friends that didnt treat her as well as she deserves the last one she had she married and then he wiped out her bank account [ 22'000$] and left her the day after her father died..so yes i have let some problems get the best of me when i was trying to abstain any way i hope you feel better soon and wish you and your little one the best of luck peace jim

[Phresher than it Got]

i think im a little tooo stonedd to figure out qwhat your talking about, but ATHF kicks ass, yeah

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

Damn dont you hate when you post something sorta important, and then someone else posts something longer more important, so you get ignored? Lol sorry im stoned.

imstoned didnt you quote and respond to this? Or was i just that stoned? cuz i could swear you did.

[mmmresin]

some days are just not good days to quit- try again until you get it right !