I realised my existence.

ho boy, something crazy happened last night..after smoking some skunk from a bong (big hit)...(bear in mind that this whole thing lasted for about 2 hours)
It started out when I was thinking how weird it was that humans had sexual organs.
Then I started to realise that humans only exist to have sex, it's like a drug, something that allways intices them, how we spend our whole lives living for that short moment.
I felt that for my whole life I was just a machine, a simple minded puppet, controlled by manipulative emotions. I realised I was controlled by my primitive instincts, designed
to acquire sex. I realised that sex is pointless, it's such a simple process that we live our lives for. Then I began to think that life is pointless, with or without sex.
Life is just a pointless conscious expericence that has no aim, no direction, because there are none.

Then the utter loneliness creept in, not the loneliness you feel when you have no one around you, much worse than that, it's like your whole life you are protected by this bubble that hides you from the real truth of your existence. I truely felt alone in the universe, you realise that everyone and everything you care for is worthless. I don't need to exist, no one does. I finally knew what it felt like to be truely free from physical reality, to experience infinity, and it was unbearable, nothing can descibe it fully, it is incomprehensible unless you experience it first hand. I wanted to have the delusion that life had some direction that it had meaning again, and that's when I returned back to normality.

...alarming experience. Anyone else had something similar to this and can relate to it?

There's people who say "Life's a bitch and then you die." I like to substitute "a bitch" with "fun."

I actually had kind of the opposite experience. I sort of realized that we're here to live, not to adhere to self-applied restrictions (aka rules) that we don't like. There will always be problems, there will always be solutions, and it's best to live for the happy moments rather than losing faith in life.

I think it's up to each individual to determine their direction in life. The best people devote their lives to making other peoples' lives more enjoyable. To say there's no aim or direction in life is a bit short-sighted. You can choose your own direction.

wow man u sure that shit wasnt laced

sounds like way to good of a trip off shitty weed

later

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Originally Posted by Not Enough Herb

wow man u sure that shit wasnt laced

sounds like way to good of a trip off shitty weed

later

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Dude, skunk aint shitty weed.

Over the past month, i've been pretty depressed and i've been thinking thoughts pretty much like yours. The human thinks there HAS to be a purpose for everything. Maybe there just isn't a purpose for everything, maybe it's just there for the sake of being there. On that note, what's the point of even wondering about that stuff. There is so much more to the universe, that the human mind can't process. There is stuff we'll never even comprehend. Just an example, the human mind thinks that there has to be a beginning AND and end. So when we think about the universe never stopping, it completely blows our mind. (at least mine)

from reading tht it made me think. if there is a god. what kind of sick game is he playing. creating everything other than living animals, just to blind us from the truth that everything is pointless, we get stuck in routines and stuff, just to make everyone forget. i dunno what happens when you die. but if all u do is realise all this ^^. all ul be able to do is think about the mistakes in ur life, because everything good was pointless. (and hopefully ul think, damn why didnt i smoke marijuana)

Stop pissing and moaning and enjoy your brief moment in the sun.

Good luck in life. Don't forget to brush your teeth.

I can't stress enough the importance of dental hygiene

Hey you should stop smoking for a while Blah....

well heres what i think for who it may interest: yes, life got no meaning, except the meaning you want it to have. yes, we could all die tomorrow, and there would be no difference in the universe. and the universe is so big, eternal, almost infinite, that we exist for a limited person, we doesnt REALLY exist, only limited persons can tell u do exist or whatever. BUT, who cares? u got the nicest gift u can have: life. theres question u cant answer: like the meaning of life, if theres really a god or no, etc... but see, me i take it simple: we have the chance to live our life, so give it the meaning u want. my meaning is to have fun, to evoluate, become a good person, being good and making ppl happy, what will make myself too. thats all. as simple as this. living it fully, living my dreams, buying later a boat, trippin on tropics seas smokin nice weed, having a nice wife, playing guitar, whatever. thats it, dont get depressed by it, why would you? would it really make a difference if life would have a real meaning? like if there would really be a god that exist and that u could see it? wut would be the difference? life is a thing we cant understand, like why i can talk, think, move. its our spirit, its just like that. so heres what i say: you will find happiness in finding a meaning where there is no!

peace

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well heres what i think for who it may interest: yes, life got no meaning, except the meaning you want it to have. yes, we could all die tomorrow, and there would be no difference in the universe. and the universe is so big, eternal, almost infinite, that we exist for a limited person, we doesnt REALLY exist, only limited persons can tell u do exist or whatever. BUT, who cares? .......

peace

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so true

i know what your talking about to man, everything is pointless, its all programed bullshit an individual isnt truely an individual we are slaves to unwanted natural instinct and behavior. our body acts a certain way and were horny or angry or scared or happy, our consciece minds are nothing compared to raw animal instict.

some of you guys need Jesus in your life.