i need some fucking help please

listen guys, i need some help, probably a shrink but i cant afford one

I love weed, it makes me appreciate music,food,conversation more and hell it makes me sleep better to, im still in school and i try not to let this shit get out that i smoke weed occasionally but this girl jerica i really like liked me and some stupid bitch that i trusted is like "dont bother hes a pothead" which she has no right saying considers shes an alchoholic, she sucks on cancer sticks, has done lotsa chemical shit and has gotten nocked up god noes how many times, and i noe this cuz i thought we "were" good friends and she told me everytthing. but now jerica is like almost disguted with me it seems cause i smoke weed sometimes and i dont fuckin get it
Like i suffer from severe depression and im anti-social and im in my room mots of the time. im a complete fuckin loser, and i had a small window of oppotunity that just got shut, all light is gone from my dark little fuckin world. but even still i think weed helps be more social and fuckin converse with the world
And to everoyne i noe, even my so called "friends" they seem to think im a bad person and i cant fucking deal with it, i feel like fucking dieing

Well brother let me tell you,I don't know how old you are but you have to think positive about it {FUCK THEM ALL}YOU DON'T NEED THEM..THERE'S PLENTY MORE.

man, you got the rest of your life to worry. just hang in there, life is to short as it is. just watch your back at your age, someone you think is your freind one day will stab you quick the next. real freinds are hard to find.

yeah dude end of 9th grade(im in 10th now) i begun smoking weed i lost every friend i had, made new ones now im lovin it, just give it time man, if its make u more social then thats good go out and find the ppl u wanna be with, dont care what others think i mean i know some ppl i wouldnt usually be friends with but because of my outlook change i know talk to them and are friends with them just dont care about it and smoke weed and be happy :D lets us stoners stick together and stay in our circle well the rest can get the fuck out and never come near our circle

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Like i suffer from severe depression and im anti-social and im in my room mots of the time. im a complete fuckin loser, and i had a small window of oppotunity that just got shut, all light is gone from my dark little fuckin world. but even still i think weed helps be more social and fuckin converse with the world

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I know how you feel... I actually look forward to going to class now because it gets me out of the house... Oh well, means to an end. Nobody around this town I wanna be around anyways.

Best I can tell you is just hang in there, find something to do with your life and your time and get damn good at it :)

Don't take what other people say too personal. You'll see, soon enough she will be smoking weed... tons of hypocrits out there and i've seen my share... As far as friends go if they were your true "friends" that shouldn't phase them to think you're evil or anything. Friends come and go and i'm sure you'll find a new crowd of peopel to hang out with. It all depends on what you do. If and when that chick says "oh he's just a pot head" who ever she's talking to just say something like "oh she's just a crack head" (speed, amp. what ever she does) or just ignore it. Sooner or later she'll grow up unless she has some horrible grudge on you...

Stoner friends are the best ones to have, trust me :D

Man, your way too young to be goin through this shit. Just relax. There are so many great chicks out there that would love to smoke with you I'm sure. And tell that bitch jarica to suck your dick. You don't need that in your life.
Find a stoner girl, forget about everything and have some fun.

QUOTE: Hektik says: "Stoner friends are the best ones to have, trust me."

fuck yeah man

thanks guys

sounds like you need Jesus dude!

What you have to do is try and find the people that smoke pot, they will probably have more in common with you than those that don't smoke. Also, try and find a girl who also enjoys smoking pot, you'll argue less.

You need a good hippie toking lover girlfriend who can show you that you dont need anyone.Im getting rid of some friends i have right now cause there just not worth the words and they have no respect.Changing friends seems irrational but its usually for the better

Don't let stupid people make you feel bad for being who you are. And don't feel like you should change to make them happy.

Just be yourself and fuck all the ones who think less of you for it.

Heres what i have to say on this subject:

First of all, i know what you mean when you say your depressed and shit. I go through that sometimes. I used to get it bad. Id feel like no one liked me and that I have some kind of problem that i can't figure out. Shit i just had 2 of my best friends for the past 2 years steal $80 bucks from me. I was pissed off for a few days then it was over. I realize that im not going to want to hang out with them anymore and told myself that i dont need them. When it used to come to girls, it was worst of all. It killed me why these girls would like me, then they wouldnt wanna be anything more than friends. When you like like a girl, its so easy to make yourself feel bad if she doesnt like you. This is because when you like a girl, your brain releases a bunch of chemicals that make you feel something different for the girl you like and if it seems like you arent going to hook up, well it makes you feel depressed and rejected. What im trying to say is that I had a very hard time coping with some of the stress that i brought on myself. Id feel like i didnt ever wanna meet any other girls, all i wanted was the one girl i liked. Im 20 now and im just starting college in a month. I usually dont talk to a lot of friends and stay home like 5 outta 7 nights of the week. I havent even had a real girlfriend. Its not because theres anything wrong with me. Id say im good looking. Not ugly but not hot enough to have girls come up and talk to me (most of the time). Probably the number one thing that def. gave me a boost of self-esteem was when i read the book double your dating. Sure theres tons of things in there that tell you how to act around girls to make you more attracting, but most of all it gave me tons of confidence. A big part of the book is about you and your self image.

aww shit heres a link to it: http://www.torrentspy.com/search.asp...tails&id=68951

download this and install it will let you open the file:
http://prdownloads.sourceforge.net/b...2.exe?download

Before it has been really hard to just forget about a certain girl you like, trust me i know too well. If you tell yourself something enough times, then you will start to believe it. Btw something that helps me out if Im having a problem with a girl or whatever and im taking it too serious is do this. Ill close my eyes and imagine me standing in my yard or where ever. Then imagine what it would look like at someone elses life. Im sure you what find almost everyone has some kind of stress even if they dont seem like it. Id bet that your stress doesnt show to hardly anyone. Remember you are not the only person dealing with this. Im sure there are a thousand people dealing with the same thing. Also ive found out that trying to only focus on the present helps out. Think about it. The past is the past. What good does it do to dwell on a past memory? What good is looking at the future? you cant see it. For some reason everytime i like a girl, i usually start thinking about us and a long-term relationship. Why? i dont fuckin know. thats just how i am. This would be the main problem cause its from this that i got my stress. So i just try and focus on whats going on now, and it works pretty good. It helps me not like a girl too much. oh and btw about this girl that wont talk to you because she heard you smoked sometimes. are you guys friends, or do you just like her and talk to her. straight up ask her why she is judging you? i know that when I didnt smoke, id think that pot heads were not cool at all. id judge them to be bad people.