Thinkin about killing myself
take some oxycontin for the pain and move to montana...
nobody here has social lives..
nobody can, because there is no opportunity... suicide is a permanent resolution to a temporary prob... but for you the temp prob isnt going away, but things will get better for you id you dont think about how much you think youre a loser because i guaruntee that not everybody else out there thinks you are a loser...\
i get this way sometimes too just thnk about how much everybody else thinks im shit and stuff then i just try not to think about it n just be strong n suffer through it for a few days and then i pull through fine
i understand that you have physical pain as well as mental pain and that is very unfortunate, but ill assure you... you arent the only one, and the girlfriend thing... i really guaruntee you you arent the only one... youll find someone eventually, i dont have one, still a virgin at 17, im just waitin my turn to succeed in life, because everybody has thier turn and things will go good for a while
you will get your turn, its up to you to strengthen your personality and person to fight through this shit we call misery
some people are very lucky and dont have too much misery, but by having this pain in your life you ultimately become a stronger person-- dont just let all that go... see what you can accomplish in your state, then when you do something good say fuck off to everybody else that said you couldnt do it and then you will be, in a sense, a superior person to them... if you are looking for a chance to succeed and get ot of this funk youre in, now is the time...
living through this situation and come out the other end still kicking and not giving up, you will be a better person and with being a better person, comes happiness
never give up... no matter what, because all you are doing is strengthening yourself for the future...
peace.....one day at a time..
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Originally Posted by bedake
solution: buy an xbox 360, buy xbox live, play online all day, video games replace the need for women over time. and make you not depressed.
Or buy world of warcraft, meet chicks, meet friends, get addicted, live life through WoW, my friend met his girlfriend who lives a hundred miles away through world of warcraft
life isnt so bad when you have video games, but if you were born with no hands... i dont know what to say, all i can is i would seriously kill myself if i had no hands but was otherwise completely OK life without gaming or drugs would not be a life for me, masturbation would suck too
What's your gamertag?
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Originally Posted by Smokey McPot
move to one of the caribbean islands and get a job like taking tourists on snorkel trips or somthin. Who cares if you dont make alota money because if i lived down there with a fun job that would be better than living in ohio making more.
heh, man you have no idea how much I've fantasized about just that. well not so much the snorkeling, but living in the carribean in any way. I'd take having just enough money to feed myself and buy a little ganga, to live somewhere like that.
but anyway, while I do appreciate the reply's since this last page, I think everybody missed my post that I'm not going through with this. I've been sober for about 2 weeks before today, trying to get my tolerance down, and today I just had a total nervous breakdown from all the stress weighing too much on me, and at the time I really felt I was totally trapped and everything's hopeless. I know, it's stupid, but I do occasionally just lose it like that. But with no friends to hang out with, no things in my life going my way for once, there's just no release and this shit just builds up in me, and sometimes the mental dam just breaks. but today after I posted the first few posts, I was just a nervous wreck and said fuck-it, quit my abstinence, and have been smoking solid for the past 3 hours. really made me step back, outside the situation and look at it from there.
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You sound like a kool katt, glad you thought about it more. What are you good at, what's your favorite things to do? There's gotta be somethin you can make money off of in this world. Try to travel as much as possible, it's very stress relieving, and also you get to see whats out there that you can work for and have someday. Lifes not easy, and it wasn't meant to be, you gotta work for it man, if college aint your thing try somethin else. Theres strains of ganj out there that are extremely good for pains and depression...I just lost $250 playing poker, but as soon as I hit that skunk/diesel I'm happy as a nun on a period stickin the tampon in. Fuck it! if you have to drive to California to get it, make the trip and buy a couple oz's! Life gets better, I promise. Sucks about the pain, is there a surgury that can fix it? Physical therapyst?
;) Good luck bro, stay coo:smokin:
What kind of music do you like, where do you live, what are some of your favorite things to do? Come on man, us stonerz gotta stick together man, we can't be givin up and shit.
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Originally Posted by beachguy in thongs
I wish everybody could get that song stuck in their head, from Monty Python, "Always look on the bright side of life".
some people dont have
a bright side of life.
and that song sucks.
Thinkin about killing myself
the only answer to suicide, is get out of your Routine you do everyday which makes you feel that way, change your life,
move some where else, or out of home, meet new people, do new things...
drugs arent the answer...yea they make you feel good about yourself for a few hours, but then you get the downside of them. and eventually they will fuck your life up EVEN MORE, plus you will have no money, lose all you got, then u will be a fuck up.
grass can be greener on the other side, you'll never know till you see it ;)
remember that.
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hey mrd, you seem cool, i'd like to help, if you ever feel like it, drop me a line, [email protected]
Thinkin about killing myself
mrdevious, I'm not going to act like I have the answers to your problems. But I do have opinions of drugs and suicide and pain and whatnot - I'll just spill them and.... yeah, see what you think.
Some people are under greater pain than others. Be it physical, mental, emotional, or whatever. But would you rather have everything be fine? Are you sure you'd rather wake up in a nice home, with a great job, lots of money and a beautiful wife? Fuck man, THAT would be a better time to kill yourself, in my opinion.
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Life is not easy. It seems sometimes like most people don't realize how much SKILL it takes to be good at it. It sounds like you're just getting a pretty heavy dose of it (life) at this point = things are hard right now.
Not long from now you'll have grown and learned from this - you'll be better at life because of it.
Here's a trick I figured out the other day after I had just spent an assload of effort observing Samuel L. Jackson's character in Pulp Fiction. If you haven't seen the movie, basically this character is the epitome of self-confidence. But that's almost besides the point, really. What I'm trying to suggest is that you might do like Samuel L. in Pulp Fiction and 'manually' put yourself into a different mindset - give a different perspective a try. You say you're 20 and in college. Same here. The thing I love about college is that you could re-invent yourself on almost a daily basis and no one would give a fuck, even if you act a bit wacky, or even pretentious or something. That's a cold way of putting it... but what I mean is that you're free to be whoever you want to be to the world.
college affords you the chance to escape most, if not all, of the scathing that a life-change like this might elicit from people you're more intimate with - ie. family and 'old buddies.' But there's nothing wrong with bouncing around.
But here's the trick, finally. It's simple but I think surprisingly effective at putting yourself into a different, more confident mindset.
DON'T LET YOUR EYES LEAVE THE HORIZON LINE. Simple. This sounds weird, but don't knock it till you've done it. Don't avoid eye contact, but don't shy away from it either. And whatever you do, resist all urges to look downward or above this line. There's a natural magic about that damned line, man. I don't know what it is... I'm still pretty baked and I just came to this conclusion about an hour ago, but I gave it a try (because I'm a naturally very shy person) on a long walk around a crowded area, and it does something to you.
Again, it might not do anything, but it definitely won't hurt. Give it a try, man. See what you think.
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You're in college so there must be some social services available to you. Talk to your counselor or a trusted professor or a pastor or someone you trust. There are all kinds of free or low cost forms of councilling available. And let's face it, in the case of most folks, killing yourself is just plain cowardly. You think life is tough and it is. No one said it would be easy. But it's a lot tougher for a lot of other people. Look around you as see all the suffering out there. Far worse than what you're going through. I don't know what your family is like but if they are halfway decent, you can talk to them and they will listen and help you.