Feeling like shit, need to talk to someone.

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Originally Posted by Nochowderforyou

Everyone is feeling down today, aren't they partyguy.

Maybe the flow of good weed has slowed down a bit. I know LIP, and if he had a spliff of some good Uk skunk, he wouldn't be feeling like this. :p

Lets get the whole world stoned, just for one day. :D

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actualy... today... is the first day in a long while that i havent felt depressed... although... to day i have had quite a few Bi-polar pissed off to happy out breaks to day... (mostly because of what my dad is trying to do.,..)

lip hey man havent spoke to ya in a while ive been kinda avoiding an aqaintance on msn but illl start goin back on now hopefully ill catch ya soon bruv, this spliff goin out to you

You sound a lot like myself right now, LIP. Similar thoughts are haunting my mind right now as well. Reading all these thoughts and responses from many different viewpoints though really puts my own emotions in perspective and it helps alot. (Thanks for the collateral advice everyone) For the past couple of days I've been going through quite an uncomfortable break up with my significant other and it hurts like nothing else. I can't even begin to express the angst that I feel right now but it's getting better with journal/blogging/social therapy. (This vary thread is a good start) You’d be surprised how good it feels to get every single thought about her out of your system, If you have an understanding friend with a talent for patience, I definitely recommend talking or even writing, in length, about your experiences, thoughts and feelings. It has helped me quite a bit and I hope it helps you too. Good luck, man. Take some comfort in knowing that your not the only one suffering right now. Misery loves company, eh?

Every cloud has a silver lining... All things happen for a reason,,,find the positive and feed it...

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Originally Posted by LIP

I have no one to talk to right now, and i feel so bad, it's like everything i've got means nothing, whats the point?

I split up with my long term girlfriend in 2005. It was hard but i pulled myself through it. Then we got talking again last year, and it opened up all the old wounds. I went of the rails, and even though i dont want to admit it i got depresed. I love this woman, more than anything in my life. I'd give up weed for her, i'd die for her.

She felt the same about me, untill it went pear shaped.

And then tonight, i tried to talk to her, just to see if she was alrgiht, how life was treating her, and she just said she couldnt talk and she'd talk to me later.

We've always been civil, we always sent texts to each other for our birthdays and christmas, and this year, i sent her one, and she didnt bother replying..

I dont know what i feel, i just feel lost. I feel like im broken.

Nothing means anything anymore because all i want is her. I'f give everything up for her.

out of the handful of gals i've been with she was the one i wanted.

We pictured us getting married, kids. the lot.

We had it all planned out. My life was going to be perfect.

Im just rambling, im sorry, i just needed to say all this stuff to someone, i just miss her so much. And i know shes not comming back.

I supose im feeling all the depression i had before, x10.

She was the only one for me, im never going to find someone as smart, funny and beautiful as her. She was perfect, in every way. It was like i'd written down what i wanted in a woman and she was it.

I've lost the best thing i've ever had in my life.

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look at it this way u dont wanna b tide down cause that wat happends they fuck u up make u depressed and u lose all freedom , i would never get married arghh!! wats the point so u can split up n get divorced and depressed

You guys are right. I've gone two years without her, i supose it's time to move on. I know deep down she's not comming back, it's just yesterday it bought all the feelings back.

My love for her was un-conditional, so i supose i will always think of her, and love her.

But if me and her arnt together, theres no point getting upset over the past. 2 years is a long time, you'd have though i'd have gotton over it by now.

Cheers for the kind words.

I just had tp type it all out instead of thinking about it. Cos i live on me own i have no one to talk to, so this really helped.

I dont think im gunner go looking for a partner just yet though.

dont i tried that b4 u will just feel worse wait till ur head is fixed

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Originally Posted by LIP

You guys are right. I've gone two years without her, i supose it's time to move on. I know deep down she's not comming back, it's just yesterday it bought all the feelings back.

My love for her was un-conditional, so i supose i will always think of her, and love her.

But if me and her arnt together, theres no point getting upset over the past. 2 years is a long time, you'd have though i'd have gotton over it by now.

Cheers for the kind words.

I just had tp type it all out instead of thinking about it. Cos i live on me own i have no one to talk to, so this really helped.

I dont think im gunner go looking for a partner just yet though.

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Yeah man just chill. The ladies come and go. They come the most when you aren't looking for them.

Look if you wanna feel better it will take some discipline. Im not really the one to talk about this but I promise you it does work. Your addicted to her and you are having withdrawals. The human brain is a funny thing but trust me on this. You need to work-out. Lift weights, do pushups, run in place, anything you can for about 15 minutes and you have to BREAK A SWEAT or its not good enough. Do this twice a day. Be sure to do lots of stretching first and the time used for stretching does not count. Stretch alot and often as possible.

What you will find is you will strengthen your mind; as well as your body. You will begin to feel better after the workouts but it will wear off quickly at first. Don't get discouraged. You will also need to turn off all TV radio, etc, except lights and meditate for another 15 minutes, doesn't have to be right after, can be later that day. Sit in the middle of a room and close your eyes. Make sure it is quite. Sit on the floor with your legs crossed and try to clear your mind. Empty your thoughts and invision you are somewhere else, calm relaxed, on a beach with soft waves rolling in, clear water, soft sand.

Drinks lots of water, and eat less carbs. You will feel better I promise this helps. You might take this as a learning to break up experience. Because most of us don't stay with one person our whole lives. If you love her let her go and try to be happy for her. Shes trying to do what is right for her.

Good Luck. Its never easy.

Everyone has some huge things to regret about their past. Depressed people will lament on them constantly but thinking about them just makes things worse. Youll want your old girl more than ever because now she is something you want but cannot have. Seriously move on now because unfulfilled love can swallow men alive.