Feeling like shit, need to talk to someone.

[LIP]

I have no one to talk to right now, and i feel so bad, it's like everything i've got means nothing, whats the point?

I split up with my long term girlfriend in 2005. It was hard but i pulled myself through it. Then we got talking again last year, and it opened up all the old wounds. I went of the rails, and even though i dont want to admit it i got depresed. I love this woman, more than anything in my life. I'd give up weed for her, i'd die for her.

She felt the same about me, untill it went pear shaped.

And then tonight, i tried to talk to her, just to see if she was alrgiht, how life was treating her, and she just said she couldnt talk and she'd talk to me later.

We've always been civil, we always sent texts to each other for our birthdays and christmas, and this year, i sent her one, and she didnt bother replying..

I dont know what i feel, i just feel lost. I feel like im broken.

Nothing means anything anymore because all i want is her. I'f give everything up for her.

out of the handful of gals i've been with she was the one i wanted.

We pictured us getting married, kids. the lot.

We had it all planned out. My life was going to be perfect.

Im just rambling, im sorry, i just needed to say all this stuff to someone, i just miss her so much. And i know shes not comming back.

I supose im feeling all the depression i had before, x10.

She was the only one for me, im never going to find someone as smart, funny and beautiful as her. She was perfect, in every way. It was like i'd written down what i wanted in a woman and she was it.

I've lost the best thing i've ever had in my life.

LIP Reviewed by LIP on 01-31-2007. Feeling like shit, need to talk to someone. I have no one to talk to right now, and i feel so bad, it's like everything i've got means nothing, whats the point? I split up with my long term girlfriend in 2005. It was hard but i pulled myself through it. Then we got talking again last year, and it opened up all the old wounds. I went of the rails, and even though i dont want to admit it i got depresed. I love this woman, more than anything in my life. I'd give up weed for her, i'd die for her. She felt the same about me, untill it Rating: 5

[budsmoker only]

things will look up, there are plenty of fish in the sea and that just wasnt the one... im sure there is someone that is better than her that is gonna be yours one day... keep your head up bro...

[nikweiser]

i know exactly how you feel bro.
you just gotta think about the positive stuff, i know its hard.. like i said i know exactly how you feel, i pretty much went through the same shit.. only girl i ever loved....
but look at it this way..


if she is in the past, there is a reason she didn't make it to your future.

ill smoke one for you bro

[SkatePopwar]

that suucks so bad im sorry man, i know the feeling.
the only advice i could give you is to wait it out, emotions come & go. itll end eventually, but things could get better and they could get worse, and dont assume theyre gonna get worse.
just be happy, your alot better off then alot of people. think of that guy who was coming home from vacation, and canada thot he was a terrorist so they shipped him off to syria to be tortured. that something to freak out about!
you can smoke weed every day, i cant. i envy you.

peace!
:rastasmoke:

[Nochowderforyou]

Aww, LIP, you poor guy. I wish I could give you a joint right now.

We all have our ups and down days. I suggest you try moving on from this girl. It may take a few years to finally move on, but why torture yourself over something that might not happen? You're just stressing yourself out.

Best way to get over a girl, is maybe meet a new lady. An animal is a great cure for feeling sad. Cats are great for that.

My cat cheers me up when I'm in the worst of moods. It's something about their purr and chilled back personality that does it.

Maybe consider going out for a run, a walk, or a lagar or two with some friends. Just do something to keep your mind off of your problems. Sitting around dwelling about it will just sink you even deeper. Keep your mind busy, then in a few weeks, you'll think about her less and less until she's out of your system.

Like you said though, you don't think "it" will ever happen, so now is a time to move on.

Don't think of giving up though. I mean, you have a stable job that you don't seem to mind. Dealing with deseil marine engines if I remeber right, and that is an awesome career! You have done so much that others just dream about. You have the smarts and the know how.

You'll find that special lady someday, but maybe this girl isn't it. Move on and do your best.

Keep your head up and know we would miss you if you stopped coming around.

[Its a Plant]

If you can't be without her, don't be. Go get her. Unless it's more complicated than that...

Maybe she doesn't want to talk because it hurts too much??

She might be *trying* to move on with her life, ya know. And that's what you have to do. Either be with her or move on. If you stick yourself in between, that's when the heartache ceases to pass.

Chin up, LIP. You'll find a gal. ~

[LIP]

Cheers guys.

I know your right, i've gotta get it out of my system. But everthing i think about leads back to her.

The only way i'll ever be able to forget her is if i die and come back as a turnip.

But fuck me, im so unlucky if i died i'd come back as myself.

Its just... I really dont know, i cant explain how i feel, it's as though i dont care about anything, i feel as though i could stand infront of a train and not even think about the consequences, it's almost as though i've got nothig to loose.

Fuck, i love her. I really, really love her.

If i wasnt such a coward i know what i'd do, but i cant.

Im sorry, i just dont know what to post, i dont know how to describe what im feeling. .

I just feel broken... the pain of breakin my back is nothing compared to this.

I probably wont post again tonight, im just posting aload of bull atm, i need to get my head striaght.

Cheers guys.

[nikweiser]

you just gotta relax and get your mind off of it man. go meet up with some friends and go do something, go on a hike and smoke, go swimming, idk.. get drunk, find something that you can do and forget about her, i know it sounds hard and all, but you gotta just take that in.

keep remembering what i said

if she is in the past, there is a reason she didn't make it to your future.

its true man... its true

[Willard_420]

That sucks LIP. Girls do that to some of us, and I was saying the same thing once about a girl. Us humans can get over love believe it or not. Just relax man, you definetly aren't alone, not in life or in love.

[Nation_1ne]

I have been through similar circumstances and there is no easy way to over come something like this. It's a very lonely situation to be in unfortunately. I found myself on my own a lot, not eating much, and in general being quite messy and careless. I suggest you spend some more time with family, yeah that's right chat to Ma and Pa for once, or even a brother or a sister (if mature). Love is a wonderful but cruel concept, it's great when it works but when it goes wrong it is without a doubt the most painful thing in the world.

Another pointer, never assume that she doesn't care just because she wasn't in touch with you (the text). Remember what you two have been through this is hard for her too I'm sure. One thing seems quite possible though, she is moving on. You should try to do it too. I'm not saying banish her to the back of your mind forever or even forgetting about her altogether, but start dating other people it would be fun I suggest not getting into anything serious yet though.

I hope you feel better soon.