yeah FO, if you can get away from gang violence, it will be a huge step forward for you.
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yeah FO, if you can get away from gang violence, it will be a huge step forward for you.
to those in disbelief - it's not unheard of by far... plenty of more mind blowing shit happens daily, for instance little kids in africa, being forced to fight in a war...
owl - take it easy man, you say you need pills and you've apparently been drinking pretty heavily. be careful, you have a kid to worry about, don't want to go and do something stupid and get sent to the hospital/kid taken from you or worse... if i was in your mental state right now, i would be taking a good long break from all drugs, i'd definately need to clear my head out and get shit straight in my mind after something like that, and i don't think i could honestly continue on with my life after that, without first getting my mind straight (it'd probably take me awhile too, that's something that doesn't just go away in a day or two). i don't think i could even begin to 'come to terms' with everything, as long as i was under the influence of anything.
slipknot your right man
but right now i feel crazy
im just trying to get thru this hour
if i go sober i will lose it worse
i need to get away from here but i cant
how about you pop in shrek and watch it with your daughter while being thankful she's still alive, until you sober up a bit, then you and her can go out, to do something, go to a movie, grab something to eat, w/e it takes to distract yourself (don't get this confused, you still have to face this at somepoint, don't spend your life running from it, but it's fresh in your mind, it would be understandable if you just wanted to try and 'forget' about it for ahwile, even if you don't forget it... keep your chin up man, ain't nothing down there for us if we decide to mope around and do nothing because of a tragedy.... and if things get you down later on, just look at your daughter and say this to yourself 'i still have her, and as long as i still have her, i'll be ok.' live it, believe in it, don't just say it because someone told you to...Quote:
Originally Posted by friendowl
no shit, it happens to fast, and that kinda slow motion shit takes over, and buy the time you are back at regular speed the guys gone.Quote:
Originally Posted by xblackdogx
then shock sets in.....
I second slip too........
i got the devil on one shoulder
and an angel on the other
and the have started a battle in my head
its because you get hit with a massive dose of adrenalin which gives you mad energy but is also a kinda neuroitc and distorted high, it can help you fight off an attacker or chase down a thief, but sometimes it leaves you a little out of it and you fail to make a normal, rational decision.
there is nothing you could've done, save throwing yourself infront of the bullets. But then your little girl wouldn't have a father and that would be even more sad.
i know it may not be time for this but eventually you're going to have to be really strong and swallow all of the pain and suffering and live your life like you have to. Take pride in the fact that you are a survivor, and thats all that ever matters, you will see your homie again when you die, but for now you'll have to get on with life.
i'll shed a tear and dedicate this bowl in front of me entirely to your friend.
i don't believe in angels, devil or christianity or anything but, your daughter is your angel, are you going to let her be defeated by the devil?Quote:
Originally Posted by friendowl
i know it's hard, trust me i speak from experience... but you're going to make it through this.. i'm one of the most psychologically unstable people out of all of my family, and i also loved my brother more than anyone else in my family (except maybe my other brother) if i could make it through that, you can make it through this...
turn into a rock, love your daughter and let no one or nothing drag you down, let nothing take your daughter away from you...
what a compassionate lord we have.
my heart goes out to you friendowl.
just don't make any rash decisions
until you sleep off your current state.
and shrek is a good movie.
your kid has good taste already.
fortify your house with bars and shit on the windows. change the locks get stronger doors all that shit. security moniters. tis is the shotgun im gonna get you can get a magazine extension to hold 8 rounds. fuckit i dont know what kinda budget you got but id be getting ready to protect my family from another mother fucker like that.
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