still lonesome...

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Originally Posted by bobthenuker

I see ignorance along those same lines...someone who doesn't wish to constantly learn and acquire new knowledge. And you're mistaken, I know most of these people quite well, passed the surface, because I've know a few of them since an early age, my perception of them is quite justified...but enough about me.

Arrogance, self-pride, looking down on others...they can be effective tools to better yourself, to become strong....if in moderation of course. You would agree that in life there must be a balance of things. If someone does provide you with good company, then you must see him as a friend and an equal. Yet if someone mocks you for learning, mocks your music, or your life, even if they do not mean it with all their heart...what is the point of putting forth effort to befriend them...if they do not. Why try to please someone to become your friend?

Rather, if they are like this, it is alright I believe to look down at them. For we are not all equal, is the poor man who betters his situation not better than the poor man who doesn't. Likewise, is the man who constantly seeks knowledge not better than he who is ignorant. Is not coveting silly things such as clubbing and car rims, so dead set on your ways, and mocking those that do put forth effort to read and learn not ignorance?? I don't wish to go round and round, because you have a point of view, as do I, so I'll just say to the original poster:

The best remedy for you is empowerment. Don't go beckoning people to be your friends if they don't value you, you will find people that eventually will. Your feeling of weakness can be fixed, if someone antagonizes you look down upon them as just a fool, and rise above them. As naive as it sounds believe you're better. Have pride, strive to achieve something. Whatever gives you this feeling of weakness and depression cut it out from your life, for it's dragging you down. It is better to feel strong and have self-pride, than feel sorry for yourself. Associate yourself only with people you enjoy, if you don't like them or have a bad feeling about them, don't waste your time. And if you can't find a friend currently than be alone, but find something to dedicate your life to. Learn to enjoy being alone.

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I see.. thanks for clarification ;)

Hang with some Rastas or go try and meet girls, give it a go, why not.

I couldn't rep you but DaiHashi, thank you for your post. It really got to me deeply yesterday.

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Originally Posted by thcbongman

I couldn't rep you but DaiHashi, thank you for your post. It really got to me deeply yesterday.

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I gave you some rep instead :D... :thumbsup:

Thank you, you are too kind. It couldn't come at a better time, I got out of a long-term relationship a month ago, then my father passed away more than a week ago so you could imagine how twisted I am emotionally right now, it's sadness/anger/fear all swirled together. But your words has restored strength in myself to start to feel happiness again because I been relying too much on other people for my happiness.

damn hang in there THCbongman, in your twisted emotional state you still seem to be one of the most well adjusted people on this site of loons:thumbsup:

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Originally Posted by NoDrugs4Me

Can't make any friends... of course I haven't really tried because no one I run into has any of the same interests... tired of it.

Don't want to deal with socialites... don't feel like dealing with general ignorance, which even I suffer from, but I can't get over it....

Been reading my Bible more often, but it's still SO hard to be by yourself 24/7... even when around others. My mind is always racing and nothing seems to add up.

After three years of reading this site, I still find myself making stupid mistakes (look under indoor growing for semi-right setup)....

To be 23... I have a horrible outlook on life. You guys are the only ones I have to talk to, and I haven't been talking much on here.

Anyone know what I'm talkin about? Is it just the "poor me" syndrome or could my anxiety and depression be legit?

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Originally Posted by NoDrugs4Me

Anyone know what I'm talkin about? Is it just the "poor me" syndrome or could my anxiety and depression be legit?

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Symptoms of depression:

Weight loss
Insomnia
Paranoia/Anxiety
Lacking interest in activties, and ect
Feeling of helplessness
Loss of appetite
Moody and agitated
Suicidal thoughts or thoughts of harming others

ect...ect

If you are depressed it ain't realy a good idea to be smoking the herb to make yourself feel better as it could create some kind of dependency. It's the same with any substance an individual uses to escape their problems, if they are indeed doing so.

You should take up a hobby or something. Perhaps buy yourself a push bike and go cycling across country. You'll be suprised how theraputic and mind opening it can be.

Best of luck.:thumbsup:

the first step is to realize you are going to die someday. the second step is knowing this world is yours as much as anyone else'. The third step is to use the intelligence I know you've got, because I believe you've got insight that not everyones got, that may be the cause of your depression or lack of motivation. sometimes we take our realizations and apply them in a negative way....

Man lemme tell you, I suck with people...but once you understand you can use your mind to learn anything you want, and even practice...and then use your mind to control your body to work for something (usually helping others is a good way to feel good about urself) then you will b free my friend.....

The best advice I could give you, would be to try to help others in any way you can think of....also praying works man...send the vibrations...everything exists as one...praying works

I've been neglecting my own thread, and I apologize. All of you have spoken honest and kind words. After reading this, I've stepped back and thought about life on a slightly deeper level.

My nephrologist told me yesterday that I only have 50% kidney function left.... been sick since I was 5 and I've been waiting for this day to come. I can't tell you the problem I had because only a couple hundred people have had it and it would narrow out my identity (paranoia kicking in). Yesterday was very dismal.

I literally took a chill pill today (prescribed) and have laid off the herb except for on weekends, and between classes today I listened to the "release therapy" cd by Ludacris. Paraphrasing a lyric: I grew up a f*ckin screw up, got introduced to real life, and then I grew up.

In other words... my mind is how I make it. If I can be cheerful after hearing I need a kidney biopsy and may have to start dialysis... I'm not gonna let SH*T bother me! I've got to learn to trust people more in everyday situations and realize they AREN'T out to use me... and if they are... I'll deal with that when/if it happens.

On a side note, I'll have my associates degree in Business Admin/Marketing (2 seperate degrees) in May and should be done with my three Bachelor's degrees (Bus. Admin, Bus. Marketing, Accounting, and a minor in Economics) in a year and a half!!! :jointsmile:

All health problems aside, I believe things are on the up and up. After all... it's how you see the world that influences how the world sees you, right?

You guys/gals are great! Thank you so much for trying to help me out, and you really have. If you ever need anything, please ask!

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Originally Posted by rebgirl420

Exactly. You don't know how good you have it compared to a lot of other people.

Things could always be MUCH worse. Instead of complaining about your life why don't you go and try to make life better for someone who really is down shit creek without a paddle.

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Don't just pass it off as "poor me" and pretend he's perfectly fine.

Sounds to me like you are just very depressed and if you have been feeling this way for a while it would be wise to see someone. Take it from me, waiting it out is not the way to go as it will only worsen your symptoms. I was diagnosed with depression, OCD and im most likely bipolar. Weed for me helps me to get out of my frequent shitty moods but that will only help for a little while.

Get help, the world sucks but what can you do except try and live as happy as you can. Everything else is just daily bs.