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Thank you, I see so many dumbasses on this site that think smoking a L will solve anything and everything. I mean if i get into a fight with my parents or a friend, ill light up a L and feel better for the time, but what about after your high? You have to face it again.Quote:
Originally Posted by mrdevious
^Truth.
i agree to
thinking you will never experience anything as good as your last cannabis experience is sad. But what keeps me forward to the next day of life is the fact that im sure many things that are even better than the day before are in the feauture. When you have run out of things to look forward to is when your soul dies and there is nothing left, but thats the good thing about life. you can make it better all you have to do is put forth enough effort to create a better tommorow.
i used to be in that sorta position, i used to do alot of weird shit sometimes that i didnt realize i was doing - (like waking up on a swing in a park next to a church at 6am?!?) i would hear things that werent there and occasionally even seen things that werent there, so i got told by a school counsiller to see some shrink as it was only getting worse, and when i did he asked me a load of shit, and i had to talk to him for bout an hour, then i had to go back again a couple weeks later, when i did, he got me prescribed with some medication, and i went home, after a while of taking the meds, things looked alot better, and i guess they were, until i started hearing the whispering that i had before but louder, - the doctor had told me that all the things i used to see and hear would stop but they hadnt, -they had got worse, i asked the doctor what to do and he offered more drugs, which i took thinking they would help...
now, here i am 4 years down the line, - i am NO better, i hear voices and strange sounds alot, (my friends know i am a bit weird so they understand if i start to spin out) i am extremely paranoid, and i can feel very stressed over something very simple. very often, i have strange outbursts often becoming violent, unhappy, upset whatever, but its never good, theres a guy who i always see, who 'isnt there', my head is all over the place and i have basically gone from being a smart kid, to a social recluse, the only thing that helps me is growing weed, them doctors all made me WORSE, and now it feels like im stuck with three different people inside MY head...
i dunno tho, it may work for you it may not, hopefully you dont get super worried about the same thing happenin to you, all i can say is dont 100% trust or rely on the drugs they give you, compared to weed, its fools gold...
i hear ya man. i feel the same way. i mean with the obsessing thing. it's weird to, i met a girl recently and she said that i showed signs of like autism or something. and i asked her how so, and she said it was because i had an almost encyclopedic knowledge about certain things (the things i obsesss about), wether it be a movie or book or a drug.
Marijuana definitely makes it sorta stop. it helps.
sometimes i'll be completely fine sitting at my pc, and then suddenly a flash of sadness or depression hits me and like i have to take a sharp intake of air, like a gasp. and i feel so sad. and i there could be so many reasons why. and heres something really personal that i haven't even confronted myself about, i sometimes hear voices of people i've met in the past and i have whispered conversations with them, like i'm saying the words i wanted to say when we had previously met. you know? for example if i had an argument with some guy name lenny, i'll hear his voice and then it's like a weird echo of what happened in reality. i dunno.
i'm gonna smoke up and then laugh at myself for being such an emotional bitch.
I recall a couple of weeks ago you had a nosebleed that would not stop- I would suggest Talk therapy- a good psychotherapist , I will say this POT is not your answer, it may make you feel good for a moment but this is a false feeling- pot like alcohol can enhance depression or compulsive disorders- you can listen to the bullshit you read on this site if you wish but I took my first toke of reefer in 1967 -I have smoked off and on and been around a lot of people who do smoke- I have always been amazed at the people who use it for a crutch to mask feelings they have whatever they may be, take care of yourself- I suggest stay away from reefer and get some real help.
best of luck to you
Isn't seeing things and hearing things that arent there - and the things you see being very stable, as in you see the same person - a main symptom of schitzophrenia?
Three factors: You're 15. You're smoking marijuana. You're brain is finally forming into an adults.
All three of these things lead to a very unstable, emotional, and confusing expirience.
Just gotta keeeep moving forward, keeeeep thinking, keeep trying. Eventually you're mind will organize itself into a comfortable, stable pattern, or you'll live for a few more years, get prescribed countless meds, succumb to heavy drug and alcohol addiction, and finally kill yourself while indulging in some sick blood-to-wall art.
On an entirely unrelated note: http://www.crackmuffin.com/html/Truth-About-Calvin.html
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Mars is Amazing!
But that first part you're talking about, the whole addictive personality thing,
I 've expirienced that as well. Just find something that you can work on, that you may not be entirely obsessed about, but something that you know you'd like to become GOOD at. Some hobby.
The obsessions lead to nothing. Or maybe they do. I don't know. Some people end up finding their passion, but for me, that incredible positive reaction, that obsessive desire to learn more, to forget everything and devote your entire day to ONE thing, always die away and is replaced with boredom. It is unhealthy and should be avoided.
i dont know, i guess it could be schitzofrenia,
lol i would agree but, after dealing with all that shit it doesnt help, just makes shit worse, i dunno maybe it can help, but it definately didnt for me...Quote:
I suggest stay away from reefer and get some real help.
i find when im with alot of people, i feel okay, but VERY paranoid, whereas when im alone, i dont feel paranoid at all, but i see strange things alot more, i hear things very often with or without company, i think i feel happiest in the company of my closest friends, when im not alone and im not with anyone who doesnt like me, i definately would be screwed if it wasnt for a few close friends, they are all very understanding, and know how sane i can be, and can also calm me down or sort me out when i need it, still, i dont like being alone...