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I was just seeing someone for a few days and it started getting somewhat serious so I broke it off immediately. I don't know why but I just don't want to be tied down at all at the moment. Of course, I would eat my words if Ms. Right walked by right now
I hate getting involved in a relationship...there's several girls that I hang out with and randomly do things with...much more suitable for me at this point
Ive been lonely pretty much my whole life and it feels shitty. So im going with the relationship option.
Hmmmm... I picked "other." How to explain? Every time Ive been in a serious (and healthy) relationship where I thought she was "The One" I have never been happier. It is clearly the point of Nirvana for me. As much as I love women, having one woman to love supremely in infinite intimacy is indescribably fullfilling... as if when I get to that point the love that I have building inside of me brims over the surface in insurmountable excess, and I am truly at peace in my heart. Women are the only thing that prevents the wild animal inside of me from taking over completely... you have a very primal hold over that part of my cerebrum, and I am ever grateful for it. As of recently I am discovering that this is most likely an instinct I inherited from my Mohawk ancestry, pretty much like alot of my cemented personality traits. The only thing I didnt seem to inherit from them was a love of working thousands of feet up on steel girders with no harness lol.
Having said this, its easy to see why women are my only weakness. I open up to everybody, but only to a certain extent. It takes a special woman to get me to open up completely and make me completely vulnerable to her. The problem with this is that I havent been able to choose somebody that wont take advantage of that, and its burned me on many occassions. I am coming to the realization that a relationship must not be in the cards for me at this juncture, but will hopefully take place later in life. For now, my purpose is to be there for women in anything they might need. So far with the exception of sex.. Ive popped into alot of different womens lives in the months since my break-up, and while most of them wanted sex, I wouldnt do it. They would most definitely catch feelings, and their heart would break when I moved on to wherever I was needed next. Make no mistake, these women all desparately needed me for various reasons, and they deserved it, but... Im not into breaking hearts. If I ever meet a girl that deserves it and I have faith that she would understand my position and that I wont be around forever then I might, but... many girls would be willing to lie to themselves, so.. most likely not. I use this time as a period of "fasting" to really gather a concrete hold on myself without any distractions of intimacy and lust. Those issues can really cloud the issue of LOVE.
I'm hate to be alone, therefore I never am.
Birdbirl brings up a excellent point.Quote:
Originally Posted by birdgirl73
I've never been alone. I went straight from my parents house to my now husbands house. I don't know what it's like not to have to account to someone! But, boy, what an exciting idea!
Don't get me wrong. I've had a good life and I wouldn't change a thing, but if something happened and I was single again, I certainly wouldn't rush into another relationship. I think it would be a relief to only be responsible for my own happiness for awhile. It's hard work to make everyone happy, all at the same time. Sometimes its impossible!
Besides, my husband is a loving, understanding, faithful guy and I know I was lucky to find him. Lightening doesn't strike the same place twice. I'd rather be single than settle! ;)
after a stormy and nearly fatal decade of being half of a couple, i realized that i was one of those. another decade of drifting from relationship to relationship only served to chisel that opinion into stone. i now keep that tablet hanging above my bed, my own personal ten commandments.
I would rather be single than settle again...life is way to short for a dull, boring relationship....when I find someone...it will be great...I am not rushing into anything right now..at all.
I would love to be in a good relationship. But, single is probably better for me, my heart has been broken way to much. I must pick the selfish mother f'ers. I'm still married to the biggest lyer, selfish jerk. SELFISH SELFISH SELFISH!!! Can't even handle our kids, because he rather be bangin' every chick in town, acting like some stupid teenager, partying everynight, he shoud of grown up by now. Hes' almost 40, jeez. Now that I got that off my chest. I perfer SINGLE!!! As long as I can have some company once in awhile!
I dont know I have been alon for so long I forget what been in a relationship (normal relationship) is all about. My life is full of fight and overnight girlfriends. When I find that girl I am sure I will be off doing somthing eles instead of keeping her happy. This aspect of life is troublsom to me, but someone has to do it.