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I've had chronic pain for a few years now; if someone pokes me at moderate pressure, it feels like I've been punched in a bruised spot for like 5 minutes. Not to mention, my back always hurts.
But now that I smoke, it's alleviated a lot of pain, even when I'm sober. Much better than those shitty low dosage addictive narcotics...
I'm tired, and really sick so I'm going to sleep. I'll describe my "episode" when I wake up.
Thanks for the replies.
I look forward to continuing this conversation.
Peace and Love
Do you have really sore pressure points? Have you ever read about Fibromyalgia?Quote:
Originally Posted by Purple Banana
I know what you are saying about the narcotics, I hate them. It is such a shame the only medicine that works is illegal. :(
EbelEyes, do you find the episodes are triggered when you get too physically hot, or when you're just going to sleep or waking up? or when you wake up in the middle of the night?
Actually, MrDevious, they've never been triggered by things like that.
The last time it was triggered by a vivid tougth about mutilating my arm. Then the energy came on first, which was followed by the fast thougths. My thoughts during these "episodes" are usually self degrading. My thoughts say in my head "Fuck you, you suck, I hope you die" etc. Its like all the hate that I have for myself all explodes at the same time. I shook a little bit, well not really, more like twitch. I was hitting myself and scratching myself. This continues for the next 20 or so minutes, then I cried quietly for about 10 minutes.
And that was the last one I had.
*I hate it when I spell things wrong. damn 5 minute edit time*
I kinda get what you are saying, they give medical marijuana to bi-polar people. I use it medically to slow down my thoughts and releave anxiety. It also helps with depression and such. I can't tell if you are bi-polar, but shit like that happens to me when I feel depressed, it's suppossedly called a mixed episode, but it normally lasts a long time, anyways I think it's good you are smoking.
Ebel is tripping me out.. hard.
it sounds like maybe you have bi-polar. i find it helps me with mine, and when i turn 18 im going to try and get mmj for it.
I don't think I have bi-polar.
But I don't really know.
I'm not even sure whats wrong with me.
Probably a lot of things
the only way to be sure is to talk to a shrink for a while.
but if they ever try to prescribe you anything for it, refuse straight up.
their "cures" dont really work, they just mask the symptoms by completely killing your emotions.
feeling sad is a lot better than not feeling anything at all