weed is making u feel worse as ur kinda depressed now its making the emotion feel stronger.
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weed is making u feel worse as ur kinda depressed now its making the emotion feel stronger.
hell yea it is, I know this for a fact and thats why I have to stop. I know millions of people go through this, it pisses me off that so many people have to go through so much bullshit during there lives, when we should be enjoying every possible second of it.Im finishing off my last sack, I probably have a gram left that I will smoke tomorrow and then that will be it for me and weed for a while.thanks everybody for the comments,ill keep ya posted on how things go the next few weeks.
Darthstoner, I feel ya man. I read your post and I would like to offer my perspective. This is my understanding from what you write, ( dont forget Im pretty long winded hehe)
It sounds to me that you are stuck in a cycle that is draining you slowly. That feeling of being lost and wandering without purpose is stemming from your need to feel you are accomplishing something, reaching goals and have asolid place in the world. Well, you do have a place. The first thing I would like you to understand is that you are essential. You do have a role and a purpose even though at this point in your life you dont see it clearly.
Part of it all is your age. You are at that crossroads between youth and manhood and that is a place that is often cloudy. Its a huge change. We get that feeling of being forced out of a comforte that is childhood and into a unknown place. Looking at the owrld around it is easy to wish we could have more time to not have to be part of the group that appears to have so many issues to deal with. So, we escape it as long as we can.
Taking the time off between school and the next major undertaking is natural and normal. Time to relax, live life and gain a new perspective, choose some new goals and take those first steps towards reaching them. Smoking weed isnt necessarily the problem and quitting smoking is not the quick fix. But nobody knows better than you if it is time for you to take a break from it.
But, my opinion is that if you consider yourself a "stoner" then things are kinda out of hand. There is a big difference between smoking marijuana and being a stoner. Being a stoner means you are in a constant state of trying to escape the reality that is yours. And this escaping for so long does take its toll on your body, mind, and spirit. No matter what you use to escape, or how long you do it, there comes a time when you have to open your eyes, tired and red as they may be, and see that your reality is here waiting for you. And, it is getting impatient with you ignoring it.
Moving back with your family is a good move if you feel helpless and irectionless if you will recieve the support and motivation from them.
It will give you an opportunity to get back to the basics and rebuild those basics again.
Your need to have new friends and a girlfriend is natural and healthy but dont expect them to be the solution. The answer to orur problems lay within.
You need some confidance. Some strength of spirit and conviction.
Set yourself some goals. Make some immediate goals and once you accomplish them you will gain this. One step at a time work your way nearer to the person and place you wish to be at. Do some "soul searching" find out who you are and get to know him first. Then you will know what you have to offer and gain confidance to take the initiative to seek new friends with common goals and interests. It is unhelathy to try to force yourself into old relationships simply because they once gave you comfort. You have evolved and so have they . You might fit better with them later on, maybe not.
Not all friends are lifelong friends. Not all paths run parallel forever.
Seek your own path and you will find that with a little faith you will encounter all that you need upon it.
There are some simple yet powerful tools to help you find and adhere to your path. Dreaming , meditating, internal dialogue and journaling are some of them. They help you to learn who you are and be comfortable in your skin and to monitor your own progress on your path.
If you like , email me and I can share some insight and guidance on these things and others.
The most important thing for you to do is know, and love yourself. The rest will follow. Without these key things you will repeat your cycle.
Take care man.
peace.
Helllllo.
If you're wondering about your career, (you should be, imo),
http://www.collegeboard.com/csearch/...eers/profiles/
Detailed descriptions of careers, majors, classes and interests that would help with your descision, etc. It covers basically everything, and is very direct. Once you make a descision about your future, you'll most likely feel better, becuase you have a goal and hope.
Good Luck.
Ahem, time for a famous quote that seems to fit you like leather pants, darthstoner:
~ "SHAKE.THINGS.UP.A.BIT! ~
You need to get into a new routine it sounds like. Maybe get a new job, or get a student loan and go to college? Or start your own fight club? It's all about what you want to achieve.
Ammie had a GREAT post and I just loved this part: "life just has a funny way if passin us by, now u can either stand there still while it just moves on or u can grab ahold and ride. its all on u."
Damia* - also LOVED your poem. So true! I keep reading it over and over again.
If I were you, I'd maybe give college a shot. Think about it. You go off and meet ALL KINDS of new people. That's the only way you're going to meet Mrs. darthstoner now isn't it?
Whenever you smoke the last of your stuff, sit down and think about life.
What it means to you?
What you want out of it?
And so on.
I wish you the best my lost friend.
Peace & Love, always ~
if going back home with your parents is an option, do that
maybe take a break from smoking? i had a bad experience with e a week and a half ago, so im ending my experimenting with all that shit. im even taking a break from smoking weed. tomorrow will be my 4th day. sometimes you gotta change shit up to get a different perspective.
You're being pretty bright for a 19-year-old, honestly. Get your life together first, then blaze. If you stay stoned all day every day, you won't ever get your life together. Anything done to excess is bad, including pot. It took me a long time to figure out that smoking pot IN MODERATION is great, but smoking nonstop day after day, month after month, year after year isn't that great at all.
Set goals, and use pot as a reward for accomplishing them, like Towelie did in that one South Park episode. You could even make it like a game: paycheck = 1 joint, acing a test = 1 joint, getting a degree = 20 joints, whatever. If you tie your smoking to the achieving of goals, and actually stick to it, then the better you're doing, the more you can smoke, which provides extra motivation to succeed, a motivation that non-smokers wouldn't have.
brother dont sweat it because one day this shit will all come to pass.
i think my experience with weed has been very pleasant. when i first started smoking i was an emotional wreck after losing a girlfriend, rebounding with another, losing THAT girlfriend, getting kicked out of my parents house, blah blah. i finally had enough and went off into my own territory. i smoked weed day and night and can literately say i've been stoned for a full year... it really was good therapy for me because it let me put the past in the past and live in the present... and there's nothing better than not dwelling on the past.
you got to understand that life is all about posibilities. think about what you'd want your life to be ideally. then think about what steps you can realistically do to get your life where you want it. it might not be easy but then again it might not always be hard. human beings don't like change cause we're creatures of habitat and routine--so maybe a change is just what is needed so that things will become what you want them to be.
don't sweat the small stuff and it's all small stuff.
That's the most brilliant idea i've ever heard! I've just now started to grasp this technique... it's kind of like training yourself like one would train a dog with food. If you give a dog a treat after each trick, he learns to associate the trick with the reward. So in the same respect, this technique is called positive reinforcement and it works much better than negative behavior.Quote:
Originally Posted by jamstigator
If you train yourself in this way, you might find yourself working very hard to complete your goals --if for no other reason , then it permits you to smoke. A true win-win situation:thumbsup:
You're cool.Quote:
Originally Posted by ChronicMike