dissociation depersonalization disorder

i just started thinking today maybe it is anxiety. i've been having these kinds of problems since 7th grade, but not as bad as it has been recently. I should have mentioned i have this intense phobia of becoming insane.
I had this terrible fucked experience when I was at the mall with my friend today. We were walking and when i looked at the floor it looked like the tiles were moving in frames & when i looked up I got dizzy. Then me, my friend, and my sister went into hot topic, not a good place for having anxiety attacks. I was getting so claustrophobic & i thought i was going to die or something. I tried to calm down but I was getting so dizzy & everything felt unreal again & i thought "not AGAIN". Then when we got out of there it got bad again cause the mall was too OPEN now.
I'm getting so tired of this.

yeah i wouldn't think its completley drug related- cuz i think i totally get what your saying.
Lately I've been kind of freaking out cuz I have been smoking a good amount lately and started in april. I was worried when i became disassociated it was all cuz the weed- and then later when id have mood swings it'd be part of it. I always thought that anxiety type symptoms are normal and just now I realize i don't have to deal with it. It SUCKS. Ever since I was little- and then had traumatic experiences id rather not say or dwell on-i would just kind of drift off and reality is always like a dream to me. With panic attacks u just gotta try to take deep breaths and make yourself do things that will make u feel in tune with reality. I actually get by okay but i just realized i might even have a problem, u just don't want those kinds of things to get too much worse.

but what is normal? there's no such thing as normal.
thinking drives me nuts!:-X
I feel like thinking too much is what can drive one insane- but really what is there u can do?

Oh but also last night i smoked a shit load and i started getting really paranoid about like what i was thinking cuz it felt like i forgot everything and felt like i should have been doing something but wasn't. In a way disassociation is appealing and almost a relief but u dont want to get too lost in those thoughts...dream...w/e.
Hope u can figure it out!

i think i have that disorder, its not really a bad thing but it makes it hard for me to be social. sometimes it feels like life is a dream and can't really remember my past, (like Bob Dylan explained in that documentary about him ages ago).

I have an OCD. I'm obsessively compulsively awesome.

I had it before I started to smoke, but once I started I started having panic attacks. I smoked for a long time, but finally stopped because I was always having panic attacks. That was about 4 years ago and I still feel like I'm stoned everyday. It has never gone away, sometimes it is worse and I have panic attacks because of it. I have been seeing a therapist for a very long time, for various other disorders, but now I am starting treatment for Depersonalization.
I do agree with you, when I tell my stoner friends about it they say, "You are so lucky! That sounds like so much fun!" NO! IT ISN'T. It is often scary and dibilitating. I no longer do any drugs, mainly because I can't without feeling like I am even more out of it and then have a panic attack. I amalso learning to simply deal with it in everyday life so I can go into Wal-Mart without feeling like I am blown out, freaking out, panicing and running out of the store. I have learned to deal with the fact that this is just how my brain sees the world. I might get used to it, but I don't think it will ever change

that makes me feel worse heh :(
i hope it goes away, every day i regret whatever i did to start it

Don't worry about it whenever i smoke the next day i feel like im still high except without the giggiling and red eye etc. It usually happens other days when i haven't smoked in awhile but i kinda ignore it, does it feel like you zone out sometimes for no reason like you aren't really you? If so this has been happening to me when ill think about things like what is life or something really deep or even if im going outside in daylight ill get a zoning out feeling. I think it may be the MJ but i dont smoke it too often maybe 2-3 times a week, if im lucky, just forgt about it keep telling yourself that its really you and you actually exist and you aren't somebody else's dream or your dream like in tha matrix. It will stop or you wont notice it eventually. How often do you smoke and how old are you? It may be because you feel guilty or paranoid even when your sober from doing drugs, i feel this way sometimes but thats what usually causes it for me or like I said earlier when im thinkinh of some thing really deep. Well i hope i helped if it doesn't stop or you want to talk about just PM me.

Depersonalization disorder from weed? I don't think so... it's was DXM if anything. Depersonalization is what IT does.

PS: You're probably thinking about it too much.

i think you guys are parinoid.... and worrying dosen't help anything it just whips you outa shape

I have an OCD. I'm obsessively compulsively awesome.

Lateralus you made my night with that one. hahaha