in november last year, my faimly found out my mum was cheating on my dad, they tried talking it over for the past few months but it did'nt work out because she did'nt stop, so my dad chucked her out the house. So she now lives 5 minuites away from my house but she never come's to see me. The last time i sa her was about a month ago and she just came round to use my dads computer, the last time we talked was about..... well, i cant remember. Anyway, my dad got the devorce papers through ect. while my mum still lives in this cottage going out every night with her b/f getting drunk out of her mind.
But last night (i was completly wrecked, i was drunk/stoned and was very tired) and my dad said he had sent my mum a text saying if she dos'nt reply with-in half an hour he's going to call the DLA to report her for fraud (she had been taking MY carers alounce that's used to pay for my clothes and food ect. and using it on her self, and the fact she dos'nt live with me this counts as fraud, she has also been claming a disability alounce for the past 5 years or so, and the contract in that is if you cant walk 500 yards without a walking stick, which she can (btw, she orijnally got that money about 11 years ago when she got in a car accident which caused damage to her back) anyway, so she never replied so my dad did call the dla on her, they said they were going to get investigators to follow her and watch what she does (you know? watch how she can walk 500 yards with a walking stick) and once they have confirmed it as fraud they are gonna ask for the money back from all those years she has'nt needed a walking stick, and she won't be able to pay it so im taking it shes going to jail.
Anyway, as i said, i cud'nt remember the last time she talked to me, and today my dad told my mum to ring me to talk to me everyday for at least 5 minites because its not fair on me. But i don't want her to call me or talk to me. Also the fact that she had to be FORCED to talk to her own son is even worse. But i can't bare to even look at her, because lets face it, my mum is in all this trouble because she is a big dirty fucking hore and is slowly turning into an alcoholic. Whenever im around her and other peopl are around (if we're in public) i really don't like being seen with my mum because she embarsses me, and im so ashmed and so angry at what shes done that i don't care if i ever see her again, because she completly changed. I feel like i dont know her anymore, and over these past months she's shown to me she dos'nt give a shit about me or my sister, and its just so hard to face facts that THIS is my mum. I've been able to put up with it for quite a while but last night when i was wrecked it was like i only just realised what had happened, and now im having a hard time coping with this, because theres no magic word she can say, she can't change what she has done and this will certainly stick with me for the rest of my life, shes the kind of woman that goes out shoping all the time and gets pissed all the time, she acts like she dos'nt even have a son or a daughter. also during all this thats been going out i found out 19 years ago (JUST before my sister was born) my mum was cheating on my dad, so that of course has made it even worse, because she has been this kind of person the whole time, i had just never realised. I don't know my mum anymore, the person i knew was FAKE, i don't really like talking about this as it is a reminder and i just want to forgot. But i find it easier to express my feelings on the internet in text instead of face to face and talking about it with people i don't really know. But has anyone else been through such a thing? and if so how did you cope with it? because it really is making me lose all hope in life. Sorry for the long read btw, lol.
