I don't find anything exciting any more. Unless I'm high, everything seems boring. I'm not motivated until I'm high. I wasn't like this before, but I guess it's made me see the truth and what a crap sober world everyone is living in. Is this worrying?
No food tastes good anymore, no movie is worth watching, I can't be bothered doing anything anymore, UNTIL.....I spark up a joint. I take a few hits, and everything comes rushing back. I become hungry like a normal person should, I function like a normal person, only after I toke. I find the real me. That is surreal. I never thought I'd see the day when I'd need a substance to keep me going and keep me sane lol. I know sobrierty is the only wise option in the long run but I can't see myself living there. I don't like it.
I just don't want to go back to that world lol, it's a bit like Bill Hicks' quote. "I'd quit smoking but then I'm scared I'd become one of you".
Anyone else feel like this or is it just me?