Terrible experience..what is going on w/ me?!

Don't really know where I should post this thread. Guess I'll throw it in here...and please, bare with me.

I've been smoking for awhile now. I'm very familiar with it, understand its effects, and love it.

However, I had a horrible social experience yesterday that has left me feeling depressed, embarrassed, and just plain shitty. This'll seem like a strange story, and I don't expect many of you to understand it, but ah well.

So I recently took a little break from smoking. God bless mary jane, but it was simply interfering with so much that was going on, and costing money I didn't have. It had been maybe two weeks since my last toke. I was hanging out with my friend and his brother. Known them forever. Totally fine with them. They had some great herb, so I decided 'why the fuck not?', smoked, and got ridiculously high. It was great, no problems there. The next morning my friend invites one of his other friends over who I don't know. Seems like a decent guy. We smoke maybe four bowls between the four of us.

For whatever reason, maybe depending on the bud, I can get really, really reserved when I smoke. I don't know what the fuck it is. My mind just goes blank and I become socially retarted. I fucking hate when it happens. And I just don't know what the do. We all hung out, high as all hell, for maybe 2 hours. Throughout this time I was so much quieter than I normally am. I'm usually talkative, joking around, laid back, and totally fine.

..I hardly said shit. I felt sick. I couldn't think of anything to say and I just felt like I was taking up space. It was more than evident that I wasn't wanted around. It was one of the most terrible feelings I've ever experienced. I would walk into the room where my 'friend' and his friend were sitting. They'd stop talking and completely ignore me..the second I'd leave they'd start talking again. Just stupid shit like that. They eventually just left...leaving me and his younger brother. After that I just felt like and left. Obviously. I mean, what else is there to do?

So it's clear my 'friend' wants nothing to do with me. I hardly see him anymore anyways. Just putting two and two together.

I don't know what the think of this. Don't know what the think of myself. I feel like I'm the one at fault here almost...I mean, I was acting strange..and I dont even know why. I'm not sure if this is even mj related. ugh...this has been the worst, most random social experience I've ever had. Especially when someone who I've considered a good friend is so much of a fucking dick to completely disregard my presence. I just wish I could understand this...

What's most likely happening there is that they were either talking about you, or talking about something they didn't feel comfortable with you hearing. Can't really say why he just left you though...


Sounds a bit harsh to me. Maybe he's mad because you didn't pitch in that round?

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Originally Posted by Unknownfigure

What's most likely happening there is that they were either talking about you, or talking about something they didn't feel comfortable with you hearing. Can't really say why he just left you though...

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Well, yeah. It doesn't take much to realize that. :\ ...

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Sounds a bit harsh to me. Maybe he's mad because you didn't pitch in that round?

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This is the most serious I've ever been--writing that post. Maybe ever. I wish you could understand. Its cool if you think this whole situation is funny, because you can never understand it. And I don't expect you to.

And no. I helped pay for the bud. I threw down.

Then what you have to do is ask him whats up.



People change, maybe he's not really cool with you anymore. Shit happens like that, that's why true friends are hard to find.

i get that way myself once in a while... socially inept or wat not... usually its when i get so blitzed after a dry spell, i found it hard to talk about something relative to my friends' conversation or current situation so i just find myself sitting there staring at something with complete silence while everyone else is talking and laughing... i hate that feeling.. i think it's like a temporary schizophrenia phase cause by smoking a large amount of dope in a short amount of time after a recent dry spell.. i don't know why your friend acted the way he did though... maybe he felt some negative vibes between you and his friend because of your silent situation.....

Back in the day when my tolerance was so low I could trip balls, the same thing happened to me about half the time when I got really high. It never really caused a problem with friends though, probably because I'm accustomed to be introverted and feel 100% comfortable not socializing. And I think that's what you need to do if you're so high you can't socialize, just throw on some headphones and listen to music, stay out of the way, let the party go on without you. If anybody asks what's up, just say "man, I'm too high right now, I'm just gonna ride it out".

A real friend shouldn't be mad at you or want to ditch you just for that, so long as you're not doing it on a regular basis. From now on just know how to say "no", and stop after you've had enough for a light buzz and enjoy that. I find the mild highs have qualities of their own that make them just as, if not more, enjoyable.

And as UnknownFigure said, you need to ask him what's up if this continues. He's your friend, you should be able to talk to him. If not, he's an asshole and you can find better people.

Thanks all. Appreciate the responses.

This is a real embarrassing situation. I don't even know why I posted this. Nothing like this has ever happened, or at least to this extreme...so it really sucks. I think the part about my friend hurts the most. I've decided to just say fuck it and forget my fucking friend. You just don't do that. So I just gotta go pick up some shit that I left at his place and then that's it. I'm not going to waste my time with people like that. Period.

Your tolerance can fall in just a couple of days.

About 5 years ago I quit smoking regularly for a year and smoked about 5-10 times that year. Well one time I got really stoned when a good friend smoked me out and I got a little paranoid. I kept looking out my windows and he would talk and I wouldn't say much and sometimes I had to nod in agreement even though I didn't pay any attention to what he said. I was zoning out and I told him I was really stoned, too stoned, and I was sorry if I was making an ass out of myself. He totally understood.

If you friend is a friend just tell him what happened and you're sorry for basically getting too high, learn from it, slow your roll, enjoy things in moderation. I have a feeling he will understand because most of us have been there.

Good luck.

I've had this happen to me once....smoked probably 6 bowls of BC juicy fruit (first time I toked for 3 weeks). I was around a bunch of people I never knew, and was too stoned to even give a rat's ass about socializing with them. Well I did, I thought I should of, but I was too stoned to make a move.

â??Will I, succeed, paranoid from the weed and hocus pocus, try to focus but I can't see.â?� - 2Pac

This is a very common occurrence. Happens to many people all the time. :cool: