Don't really know where I should post this thread. Guess I'll throw it in here...and please, bare with me.

I've been smoking for awhile now. I'm very familiar with it, understand its effects, and love it.

However, I had a horrible social experience yesterday that has left me feeling depressed, embarrassed, and just plain shitty. This'll seem like a strange story, and I don't expect many of you to understand it, but ah well.

So I recently took a little break from smoking. God bless mary jane, but it was simply interfering with so much that was going on, and costing money I didn't have. It had been maybe two weeks since my last toke. I was hanging out with my friend and his brother. Known them forever. Totally fine with them. They had some great herb, so I decided 'why the fuck not?', smoked, and got ridiculously high. It was great, no problems there. The next morning my friend invites one of his other friends over who I don't know. Seems like a decent guy. We smoke maybe four bowls between the four of us.

For whatever reason, maybe depending on the bud, I can get really, really reserved when I smoke. I don't know what the fuck it is. My mind just goes blank and I become socially retarted. I fucking hate when it happens. And I just don't know what the do. We all hung out, high as all hell, for maybe 2 hours. Throughout this time I was so much quieter than I normally am. I'm usually talkative, joking around, laid back, and totally fine.

..I hardly said shit. I felt sick. I couldn't think of anything to say and I just felt like I was taking up space. It was more than evident that I wasn't wanted around. It was one of the most terrible feelings I've ever experienced. I would walk into the room where my 'friend' and his friend were sitting. They'd stop talking and completely ignore me..the second I'd leave they'd start talking again. Just stupid shit like that. They eventually just left...leaving me and his younger brother. After that I just felt like and left. Obviously. I mean, what else is there to do?

So it's clear my 'friend' wants nothing to do with me. I hardly see him anymore anyways. Just putting two and two together.

I don't know what the think of this. Don't know what the think of myself. I feel like I'm the one at fault here almost...I mean, I was acting strange..and I dont even know why. I'm not sure if this is even mj related. ugh...this has been the worst, most random social experience I've ever had. Especially when someone who I've considered a good friend is so much of a fucking dick to completely disregard my presence. I just wish I could understand this...
Sir Bliss Reviewed by Sir Bliss on . Terrible experience..what is going on w/ me?! Don't really know where I should post this thread. Guess I'll throw it in here...and please, bare with me. I've been smoking for awhile now. I'm very familiar with it, understand its effects, and love it. However, I had a horrible social experience yesterday that has left me feeling depressed, embarrassed, and just plain shitty. This'll seem like a strange story, and I don't expect many of you to understand it, but ah well. So I recently took a little break from smoking. God bless Rating: 5