If I was different, would you like me more?

[Cheeched Chick HiGh]

Lmao, I feel annoying.

Sorry everyone if you think I am -- can't help it...it dwells deep within my personality...

[RESiNATE]

Hey Cheeched...are you looking for some home truths, or are you looking for something else?

It matters not what people think about you, but more about what you think about yourself. If you are at one with yourself, then nothing else matters.
People will think what they want to - changing who you are to suit other people's ideas, will not sit well with you, and you will end up being unhappy...because you are not being yourself, understand? :)

Sure, you can ask people if the things that you do/say/etc upsets them...but if those things reflect your TRUE spirit, then it is their problem, not yours.

I know who I am, and I know that there are certain aspects about me that are annoying...but you will find that nobody will thank you for pretending to be something other than that which you are not :)

[Lulu]

I recommend you read a book called;

'Women Who Run with the Wolves' by Clarissa Pinkola Estes phd

If you try to mould your personality to suit and please all people you'll just end up being a declawed version of yourself, a Lady-woman, devoid of selfworth and too unsure of your own feelings to ever be truly at ease in your own skin. Based on this, however happy or successful you are, you'll be running the risk of that all coming tumbling down with the first caustic or critical remark directed at you. Be yourself - warts and all. Oh and read that book, it really helped me;)

Lulu xx

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0345409876/104-7119846-5657558?v=glance

[Cheeched Chick HiGh]

Yeah...Im not really thinking of changing myself, I just feel really annoying -- like, I dont fit. I dont really fit anywhere except with the "burned-out" cause they seem to accept me...I dont know...it feels weird. I dont try to be what others may assume to be as "moronic" I do things not because I think itll be stupid or because I think its the smartest thing to do...I do it for the experience, to find out the outcome instead of always wondering. I may make some annoying topics, but thats just me babbling on about useless things to help me pass the time by during my 1st hour. I think you all are great people, but its almost like I am a shadow....gone...like Mcbeths "Out out breif candle, life is but a walking shadow..." I feel like that candle, and so I feel that I should experience everything atleast once. I get a thrill from dangerous stuff, I love adventure -- at all costs and at all risks.

So...I might do stupid things to alot of you...but, I find them an adventure, a learning experience to find my own mind...I dont learn from others mistakes...I have to make my own before Ill recognize how wrong it is. I like the hard way.

So, I just apologize for any thing I may of said that could had offended anyone, and Im sorry to those who find my mind feeble (though, it is...but it is still growing) and hope for peoples understanding...because thats all that can be given or done...

So, everyone take care...

[crystal clear pepsi]

its not jsut women LuLu .... that goes for every one , live for yourself , not for the ppl who u are around

[RESiNATE]

I hear what you're saying, Cheeched - to view life through someone else's eyes, is not to see life...but, sometimes lessons are learnt by others, as a warning to others.

:)

[robert42]

fuck wt people think

[poorman3]

i don`t know you so, how could i like you more?

[zarathustra]

No matter what people act like, they always want to do stupid shit that they'd be embarassed to. It's a beautiful thing when somebody is confident enough to experience life with their own hands.

At one point, people were afraid to fly.

[IntrepidS]

well you could start out by getting a life..............................





nah just kidding. But honestly you're stressing yourself over nothing. With all respect for Cannabis.com board members, it really doesn't matter what people here think of you...this is an internet message board, nobody knows you, no matter what you say or do. They can't judge you, and if they choose to, you just have to tell yourself that they're not in the position to critisize you, and just ignore them.

[4252]

Pretty Girl,

No matter how good or worthy a person you are, you'll be able to find plenty of those who will want to tell you otherwise and make you feel less than acceptable. Remember that guy they nailed to a cross? You have but one obligation; to develop your potential. We're dealing with opinions here, and like assholes, everybody has one. If you have too low a self esteem, you're at the mercy of anyone who wants to hurt you with unkind words & deeds. If your self esteem is too high, then you'll probably come across as a boorish ass who nobody can stand to be around. The secret to life is balance.

I've got a hunch you've been told way too much that you're inadequate; too fat, too thin, too blonde, or whatever. Understand that the world is a hostile place, in reality, and that your best hope of a rewarding life is through strength, understanding, and self discipline. Do you know the principle behind martial arts such as judo? It's simple; your strength against your opponents weakness. Another guess is that you're leading with your face; stop it.

I'm new here, but I've already picked up that you're a creative person. Do you realize that in the entertainment business image and egocentricity are the main factors, with talent a distant 3rd place, in this society? A thick skin is an essential requirement.

Diatribe is almost over. I'm also advising that you actually listen. Amid all the insults there's often a clue to how you can improve yourself, even if it's only to shut someone up sometimes. Just don't take people too seriously, they're as insecure as you are, they just don't want to admit it.

Get out of the attic and experience life. I think you'll find that the more you accomplish and experience, the more confident you'll be.

Good luck.

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[Ammie]

take it from me caring what people think about u is just to much stress. I did it for to long, and it almost killed me. I dont want to see the same thing happen to u. U have a very wild and crazy life for sumone that is so young. U need to just slow down and start being ur age. Stop tryin to grow up so fast and start living life honestly without the stealing and all the craziness. U have a good heart i can see that in some of the post u write to people. U need to get away from that loser boyfriend also. He is no good for u and he is just goin to drag u down. So maybe its a good thing u might be moving away. U will have a freash start and u will be able to get on with ur life. Try not to make the same mistakes that ur tryin to get over now. I was almost exactly like u when was ur age and ur lifestyle scares me. It didnt turn out to well for me and i really dont want to see u go thru it. Just wake up babe get ur head on stright and be who u are. If u need anything u can look for me. Im always in chat and my email is [email protected] good luck sweety with whatever u decided and dont worry u fit here and we all love u :D!!





exspecially the boys ;)

[GooseBear]

cheeched ammie nailed it on the head!!!! I think you maybe are lashing out (I know you had that post about fighting with your mom) Just remember you have whole life ahead of you (jeez I can't give to much advice I'm only 19 but I have alittle?) I mean just think where you music could go? You have college to go too. You can make a nice home for yourself in SD I mean everything will fall into place. Slow down crazy gurl!!! I know I haven't really introduced myself to you yet but HI I'm from Iowa but live in Minnesota!! MN people are special!! I got to college and am just realizing that I actually don't like fitting in with the mainstream. I have my friends and they know what is important and other people are just judgemental stupid lemon heads
I like what Zarathustra said!
oka I'm rambling

[4252]

Wow, I stepped away for a cup of tea and a quick think, and Ammie & the Goosebear beat me to the punch here.

I came back to clarify what I said about experiencing life; I didn't mean robbing banks or getting wild or anything like that. Sorry, I realized too late that if it was misunderstood it could do more harm than good.

Another point I wanted to make regarding losers, but again, Ammie got there ahead of me.

Best,
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[The C]

Hey your a hottie, you got that gogin for you, everything esle is a growing experience, don't be so hard on yourself, nobody's perfect. You don't have to own a lambourghi and own a big house to be the shit! It's all about whats going on in your head, all esle is a distraction. Somtimes a naggin painful one. But you gotta say hey, I'm gonna really experieince life and try to just be the best you can be, not perfect, but aim for the happiest to start off.
For whatever my tidbit is worth



Women Who Run with the Wolves' by Clarissa Pinkola Estes phd

If you try to mould your personality to suit and please all people you'll just end up being a declawed version of yourself, a Lady-woman, devoid of selfworth and too unsure of your own feelings to ever be truly at ease in your own skin.


Mabe i should buy this book... looks like i can learn form it.
Shit i have problems.........
So im not buying this book because i don't want to admit i have them.
Cause im just soooo coool! :cool:

... I want Claws.

[koshea]

to be honest and quite outspoken with no regards for you feelings (which is very unlike me)....i think you are annoying and i think you are an over-exaggerating liar. but this dosent mean i dont like you. you sometimes have very knowlageable posts and what not.

the end.

[The C]

What? Are you serious?
A liar?

Fine we'll i guess thats your porogative and i hope your wrong. But fuck that, i'm not going to feel bad over what somone over there, especailly if thier wrong.

What have a lied or exaggerated about?
To be fair it would be nice if i had a chance to defend myself.

[koshea]

not you c, i was referring to cheeched chick

[XTC]

Hey Cheech I do not want to stop on any toes, but I have read your past posts on this board, but I think you really need to take a look at yourself in the mirror and stop fucking up your life. Every other posts seems like your getting in deeper and deeper trouble. You seem like a nice girl, but you keep making dumb decisions. And you say this is a "growing" experience. Your growing experience might end you up in jail in some kind of harm eventually. Try to make new friends talk to someone your really trust, hell if you need to talk to a counseler if you really need to......

[koshea]

see xtc, honestly, i think she dosent get in as much trouble as she says. its like she names all of these insane situations and they all end up having absolutley no repurcussions. i believe she does hard drugs and gets in trouble, but not to the extent in which she wants us to believe

[The C]

Hey wow.

If this is a fake things and it's just you guyes telling me this through her I understand what your doing, and it's appreciated.

Hey im turning corners and i think you should give this girl a break, she's obviously trying to understand herself.

If anbody has something to say i would appreciate it, just being said flat out so at least i can know whats going on.

[XTC]

Ya u have a point Koshea... I mean come on.. who steals over 500 dollars in change.....???? and they had to break through a safe... come on....

[koshea]

an who gets drug tested in school, fails about every drug possible, and has yet no repurcussions...

i have an urge to listen to the indiana jones theme song..

[The C]

Ohh i don't knwo the sitations as we'll as i had though.

[The C]

opps... a double post. :rolleyes:

[maryjanemama]

I liked you up until you asked me if I like you. Now I feel suffocated and nervous...I'm afraid we're going to have to start seeing other ppl, Cheeched, you're getting clingy. :D





Kidding. But, I think you need to feel validated for every little thing, and, yes, that's annoying as hell. You should be asking youself if you like you. :)

[Ammie]

Kidding. But, I think you need to feel validated for every little thing, and, yes, that's annoying as hell. You should be asking youself if you like you. :)



EXACTLY!!!

[RESiNATE]

MJM..I love your sig...so true...so true :)

[Cheeched Chick HiGh]

Okay...I did have a drug test...and fail at almost all drugs possible? Is that so? Meth and Weed...wow, I sure did...your a prick...and stealing 500 dollars? Not that hard to do. I watched the guy sleep and my boyfriend opened the safe...the previous night we were at that house at a party and my boyfriend and the guy went into the back to get some quarters so he could buy a bag...the guy opened the safe and my boyfriend saw the rolls of quarters in there. He leaves, then while the guy is restlessly drunk my boyfriend finds the combination in the guys wallet and obliviously writes the number on a dollar bill. It wasnt hard to take the 500$ in change...we took majority of the quarters and unrolled them into one of those huger pickle jars and we took some of the loose change in my purse and dumped that into the jar. Then, we only had a couple of rolls left over and we went to the American Bank and cashed it all. 4 nights later his parents come back and realize all the money thats gone and reported it NOT to the police but to the banks. My man and I figure that they didnt check the American Bank because its part of Cub Foods and not many people go to that one. We didnt get into trouble for that.

Failing on Met and Weed? The school merely said they were more concerned about my health then anything other -- what have I been doing every monday and friday? I go to the courthouse for JAAC classes. I didnt get suspended nor expelled they said they felt I was depressed because my grades just recently began to slip too and they wanted me to seek help.

So shove it up your ass

[Imotep]

sure, id like u better if u listened to ac/dc and lived next door.
but why would u care what i think?

[XTC]

Okay so you have done these things, You act like your proud that you steal someone else's hard earned money. Do you think its right to steal from people who make a living and work their ass' off everyday, just to have some punk kids steal from them? There is nothing worse than a theif. Thats just my two cents, Seriously Cheech you need to get the hell away from your boyfriend make some new friends and attempt to start life over. The things you do in life end up owning you. But do what you like. Its not my life

[GHoSToKeR]

i think people need to chill the fuck out, stop worrying about who, or whom likes who, or whom, and who, or whom, doesnt like who, or whom, :p or if Cheeched is lying or not.. I dont care. You shouldnt either. lets all just get high :)

Cheeched, I dont know you so I cant say if youre annoying or not, but you're young, smart and beautiful.. why should you care what we think? :)

[Cheeched Chick HiGh]

There hard earned money? Both of the guys parents dont work...theyre about 600 lbs each with no teeth...You know, Im not proud of things Ive done...but, Im not ashamed either...Im not going to regret past thing Ive done -- if I do that I dwell on it too much and itll make me go crazy. Wow, so I stole once from someone that makes me a horrible person - obviously.

I agree with Ghost...I want to get high right now...

[GHoSToKeR]

Im not proud of things Ive done...but, Im not ashamed either...Im not going to regret past thing Ive done -- if I do that I dwell on it too much and itll make me go crazy.

Ditto. I'm not proud of some of the things i've done, but i'm not ashamed either. The only person that can judge me is me, fuck everybody else (I mean that in the nicest way possible, guys lol)

Cheeched, take this joint, keep your head up, and fuggedaboudit :)

[Cheeched Chick HiGh]

lol, I love you :)

[GHoSToKeR]

lol, I love you :)
hehe, I get that all the time :rolleyes: :cool:

**flicks his hair back in a Im-hot-and-I-know-it kind of way** :p

[RESiNATE]

lol GHoST

[IntrepidS]

Ditto. I'm not proud of some of the things i've done, but i'm not ashamed either. The only person that can judge me is me, fuck everybody else (I mean that in the nicest way possible, guys lol)

Cheeched, take this joint, keep your head up, and fuggedaboudit :)

Wow....how about your stop playing Mr. nice guy for a bit and make her realize that what she's doing is bad? I don't get why you're trying to hit on a someone from a message board...

She needs to streighten her life the fuck out, not smoke meth and weed. Ascention is not the answer to depression my friend.

Honsetly, as much as I like you Ghost, you're really not helping anything right now. You're showing her that she can be well liked despite all the shit that she does. I know I could never like her for what she does, no matter how she might look. And I'm not talking about not liking her from a personality standpoint, she really seems like an intelligent girl, but that intelligence is being wasted doing the stupid crap that she does.

And Cheeched I'm sorry for talking about you and not to you, but I'm lecturing Ghost a bit more than you here.

But yea, you need to set things straight ASAP. LAy off the meth, don't get high when you shouldn't. Go to schol, don't steal shit, don't do stupid crap. While you think that you're growing up you are simply degrading yourself more and more. These things you do aren't a "part of the teenage experience". They are simply dumb, and not doing them in the first place will prove a whole lot more worthwhile in the long run.

[GHoSToKeR]

Hit on her? lmao

Anyway, I know that she's doing some fucked up shit, stuff she definately shouldn't be doing - on that, I agree with you.

BUT, the reason I wasn't gonna start lecturing Cheeched is because it's not really any of my business. It's not my place to tell her how to live her life because a) i've done some stupid shit, too.. b) i'm the same age as her and not in a position to 'lecture' her.. and c) it's her business.. and frankly, if she doesnt give a shit then nothing we say is gonna make a difference..