CRACKED.

[TallulahGreen]

I cracked.

My overwhelming life is quickly taking me down the..."fuck it" road.

It's too much......and I have no one to blame but myself.:(

[napolitana869]

take a nap and things will seem better when you wake up

[TallulahGreen]

take a nap and things will seem better when you wake up

Thats the problem, I don't have time for things like a nice little nap.

:( Working 5 days a week and going to school 4 days a week...all the while having people trying to just make it harder for you..

blah..it's too much.

[higher4hockey]

.......to turn to drugs!

[Its a Plant]

What do you mean you "cracked"? Did you go off on someone at a bar and now there's a warrent out for your arrest?

I do admit, I feel like tossing aside my term papers and lighting one up...

Hang in there. ~

[benagain]

That sucks. Hang in there! If you're in school, shouldn't you be getting a spring break here soon? Take a week off of work and get out of town. Thats my advice :thumbsup:

[Ganj]

Whoa! That is intense! *Pats Tallulah on the back*

[CanaDanKs Inc.]

I cracked.

My overwhelming life is quickly taking me down the..."fuck it" road.

It's too much......and I have no one to blame but myself.:(

No no no...Do not let yourself fall in that hole my dear.

You are a strong person Tallulah, may I not know you, that matters not.

I have seen your ways on this forum, and can easily tell that you will come out of this a winner, as always.


Things tend to get out of control at times, but that is for you to grasp as a challenge and evolve from it. Look within for strength and love and you will find it. I understand that your schedule is tight, but do find as much time as possible to sleep and to take a few breaks. A 20 minute session of sitting on the couch with soothing music while thinking about your problems, and lifting away from them for that moment, will greatly improve the well being of your inner self.


You have been through similar and worse situations before, and you remember looking back at them from a happy perspective and thinking that all the negativity was worthless. Cannabis is a wonderful substance, but as with anything else, it doesn't like to be exploited. Perhaps some clear minded times are nescessary as well?


All in all, I send much of my strength to you young woman. These harsh times will soon be over and you shall behold, once again, the ultimate power of balance.


Love,

and much more, love.

[Nochowderforyou]

Just think how good life will be when you get out of school and into a feild of work that you enjoy. :) It's hard now, but it will pay off in the end.

Good luck. :)

[JaggedEdge]

I'm sorry to hear you are having such a tough time right now. Please hang in there though, things usually end up working out in the end. If you have a day off from work soon, turn your cell phone off and go somewhere you can be alone. I think the time to yourself with out people bothering you will be very benificial.

I hope you start feeling better soon.

Much love.

[CanaDanKs Inc.]

turn your cell phone off and go somewhere you can be alone. I think the time to yourself with out people bothering you will be very benificial.

I hope you start feeling better soon.

Much love.

Excellent suggestion. A quiet and peaceful walk in the woods, mountains, or at the beach is one way to quiet unwanted thoughts as your attention is focused on the beauties of nature..

I feel a lot of support in this thread, and it WILL pay off.

[MaryJaneScott]

it's time...

to make Lemonade


LoVE! for YOU
LoVE! for ME

[Ganj]

Lemonade is cool and all, but something more hearty is in order. Something that fills you up right. A soup? Brownies? Love to you too, MaryJaneScott.

[stinkyattic]

Never forget to schedule time for YOURSELF!!!
Boss: "hey Tallulah, can you come in and cover a shift this weekend?"
You: "No, sorry, Sunday mornings are for MEEEEEEE!"
Boss: "Oh I didn't know you went to church."
You: "I don't. See you on Monday."
*click*

[TheGreenFog]

No no no...Do not let yourself fall in that hole my dear.

You are a strong person Tallulah, may I not know you, that matters not.

I have seen your ways on this forum, and can easily tell that you will come out of this a winner, as always.


Things tend to get out of control at times, but that is for you to grasp as a challenge and evolve from it. Look within for strength and love and you will find it. I understand that your schedule is tight, but do find as much time as possible to sleep and to take a few breaks. A 20 minute session of sitting on the couch with soothing music while thinking about your problems, and lifting away from them for that moment, will greatly improve the well being of your inner self.


You have been through similar and worse situations before, and you remember looking back at them from a happy perspective and thinking that all the negativity was worthless. Cannabis is a wonderful substance, but as with anything else, it doesn't like to be exploited. Perhaps some clear minded times are nescessary as well?


All in all, I send much of my strength to you young woman. These harsh times will soon be over and you shall behold, once again, the ultimate power of balance.


Love,

and much more, love.


Damn, CanaDanks, first you gave me the Dynamite Surfing, and now this...? Irie, mon. Rep for you.

MY response to you, Tallulah, is DITTO what he said ^ ;)

I hope you feel better soon. :D


RastafarI. One Love.


The Fog :rastasmoke:

[delusionsofNORMALity]

i've had several over the years and i find them most relaxing. between bouts of uncontrollable screaming, hysterical crying and running head first into walls, there is ample time for contemplation as you spend the mandatory 72 hour in observation.

of course you could always relax a bit now, treat yourself like royalty on occasion, but then you would miss out on all the fun. electro-shock is a blast, but the choice is yours.

[Samwhore]

I know how you feel, the pain is too much and the pressure is overbearing. You want to either die right now or kill everyone. Unleash the pain in a healthy way and relieve the pressure when you can. If you dont have time. Try the easy way, in the shower, use a lavendar soap (relaxing) in the car, listen to calming music, drink some tea, know that you are loved

even if you rip all your hair out, theres always rogaine to grow it back

[Skink]

Hang in there Tal,,,We love you...

[TallulahGreen]

A customer was mean to me at work yesterday(which isn't uncommon)...and I just broke down crying and ended up non stop crying for like an hour with my boss trying to make me feel better-which by the way he had no clue HOW-and made it much worse.

Today in class(before work)...my teacher tells me im not doing so good...and I have another freakin' break down and leave class and go home...

...THEN I go to work, and I am not supposed to take my breaks unless I have a manager to cover my breaks..
...WELLLLLL all the managers left early today, before I had a SINGLE break...and I waited around for hours wondering where the hell they were(because they didn't tell me they left!) and why the hell haven't I gotten my break.

SO I said fuck it and I am now taking a break getting stoned.

The funny thing about making lemonade is that I am a freakin' juicer hahhaha...that is my JOB....

Also, as far as the having work as me if I can cover a shift and me saying no...that is really freakin' hard to do. Because chances are no one will be able to cover it and I am the only option, so that is why I am always working.

Not to mention in the juice bar we have just enough staff for the schedule we have and I cannot ever call in sick because that would be a tremendous disaster.

AHHH.

I think I am going to drop out of one of my classes.

Before I go craazy...oh wait...too late.


Thanks guys so much, it is so great to have so many people support me! Unlike my work...

[Skink]

Hey,,,it will get better... The sqeeky wheel gets the grease,,,go to your boss composed and looking Hawt like you are and ask for one less day a week... explain that you need more time for school and working for school will not matter if you fail because of stress...

[benagain]

Yea, work allways sucks. Just get through school, and say F the juicing in the A hole and move on. Till then good luck.

[JaggedEdge]

Hey,,,it will get better... The sqeeky wheel gets the grease,,,go to your boss composed and looking Hawt like you are and ask for one less day a week... explain that you need more time for school and working for school will not matter if you fail because of stress...

Also keep in mind, this place obviously NEEDS you. I take advantage of this situation now. Be polite and respectful, but don't be afraid to work one less day. I have noticed, my work going out of there way to make me happy sometimes. Bust your ass when you are there and will be afraid to lose you so long as you aren't costing them money in some way.

I think if they realize how bad it would be for them if you quit, they wilbe nicer.

This may only work for me. This may be the worst advise ever, I'm not sure... I'm stoned.

[Cooler Then Jesus]

welcome to the fuck it club, theres crackers in the freezer.

[thcbongman]

I wish you all the best! Don't let school and work make you crazy. :) You'll make it.

[Skink]

welcome to the fuck it club, theres crackers in the freezer.

Why would there be crackers in the freezer???

[TallulahGreen]

haha thanks guys, I <3 you all.

[geonagual]

Hey Tal, you have to always have something on schedule for your days off. Even if you don't, if you get what I mean. So, when they call you, you say sorry I got shit going on today and there is no way I can cover.
You would be better off cutting down on work then cutting down on school. Think about what the real priority is. If it is money, then you cut down on the extras.
You got it,:) just take things as they come and don't fret yourself worrying about things you can't control.
As for your boss, he was trying. Probably not too good at consoling and says a lot of the wrong shit. All I can say is, he was trying.

[dark0ne]

I always try and shedual at least one day for myself. No work, no worries, just some CHILL friends and a half ounce of cheeba. :stoned: It's snowing here now, so i'm trapped inside with people who i hate. were making the best of it..... I got to play, who's washing the dishes! and the ever popular who's going to the store?