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[koshea]

over compultian and teenage ignorance lead to this...why the fuck did it ever have to happen...a 16 year old...now on his likley death bed in a alcahol induced coma....completley helpless...laying there...the kid i uesd to run around and play with...a damn drinking binge set this up...i should have been there to help him when it happend...i knew he had a problem with limits...ive known it since we were 3 and he keped eating candy even after he threw up..its my fucking fault that he is in this state of being. but then i suppose him being in the state he is in is my punnishment as well...

god...he is too young to die...his life cant end before it even begins...


the doctors say chances of survival are low....and chances of death within 24 hours are probable because his alcahol level was around 2.5-2.7...a day later they havent gone down much...still over lethal limit....






i just want to tear a hole in the side of reality and hide in there forever...

[GHoSToKeR]

sorry koshea.. good luck to you, him and his family :(

[GooseBear]

my thoughts are with you

[Ammie]

You cant blaim urself for the actions of ur friends, Although It is very hard not to. The only thing u can do right now is be there. Stop thinkin about the worst that can happen and start thinkin the best. Sometimes the encouragement of another can help bring someone back from the brink of death. So stay with him, keep talkin to him, and remind him of how things were when u were young. Keep everything hopeful when u talk to him even if he is unconcious. Good Luck sweety and my thoughts are with u. ;)

[koshea]

this is so fucked up..it isnt suppost to happen like this....i dont like being in the ICU with my best friend in a coma infront of me...i hope he can hear me because ive been talking to him when i was there....i got home at about 4:30 this morning from the hospital becuase his parents were nice enough to say im family...

THINGS ARENT SUPPOST TO BE THIS WAY

[koshea]

his mom just called...my best friend... died... at 6:17 PM today
im so numb i dont even know what life is anymore...i have to go see his body


bye

[GHoSToKeR]

his mom just called...my best friend... died... at 6:17 PM today
im so numb i dont even know what life is anymore...i have to go see his body


bye
oh man, im so sorry.. :(

[Day Dreamin Faze]

Reading this put's chills threw my body.Everyone has had there share of loss's its life noone can change it, everyone moves on to better days its just the way it is. My thoughts are with you and your freinds family. God Bless.

R.I.P Megan Clark. (freind that died in a car accident this past summer)

[koshea]

they wont let me go see him....god...i just hope he could here me when he was in his coma.....

o god...i cant stop thinking about all of it...id known him my whole life...we went on vacations togeather...we had so much and now hes dead and we are both cold...i just want to scream and go insane and inside i KNOW its my fault he died...i should ahve been there to watch out for him...i always have been before...but this once....i slipped up....

[sToNeDpEnGuIn420]

wow im really sry, lucky for me i really havent had to experience any close deaths other than my grandpa but that happened when i was 9 so i didnt really understand i have no idea what i would do if someone close to me died right now but man its not ur fault you dont need to take the blame just cuz something happened IT WASNT UR FAULT from your posts you seem cool so, dont think it was ur fault

[geoffrowley19]

Reading this put's chills threw my body.Everyone has had there share of loss's its life noone can change it, everyone moves on to better days its just the way it is. My thoughts are with you and your freinds family. God Bless.

R.I.P Megan Clark. (freind that died in a car accident this past summer)

shit same here, right after i read the post kosh made about him being dead i got like goosebumps and shit...sorry to hear about that kosh, but just keep on truckin' :)

[Ammie]

his mom just called...my best friend... died... at 6:17 PM today
im so numb i dont even know what life is anymore...i have to go see his body


bye



Im so sry sweety,If u need to vent on someone come find me ill be here to listen :(

[F L E S H]

Hey Koshea, I'm so sorry abut your friend, 16 is waaay to young to go.... Keep your chin up, you'll pull through. Our feelings go out to you man!

[RESiNATE]

I know that there is nothing that I can say to make your loss easier to bear, but would offer that sometimes things happen that defy logic and reason - we are, unfortunatley, left behind to deal with the aftermath of such events.
My philosophy on such things, is that they DO happen for a reason - even though we may never know what that reason is. And that, from every bad thing that happens, something good will eventually come from it.

Your friend's spirit will live on within your heart and soul, and everytime you remember him. Although this great tradegy has brought you much grief and guilt, you must accept that no matter how much you would wish it otherwise, there was nothing that you could have done to change it.
That you spent time being with him, and talking to him, shows how much you cared and loved him - and I am certain, beyond any doubt, that your being there helped his spirit to find peace.

The ones we love, never die,
It's just the vessel that has gone,
For in the hearts of those who care,
Their spirit lingers ever on.

Peace to you, Koshea

Res...

[Supportradicalhabits]

i don't know you, but i definatly feel for you man.

a few years ago my sister died(at 5 yrs old) of a heart failure, it almost pushed me over the edge. im 18 now so i was there to help change her diapers...

but things get better, just don't forget your buddy and he will live on with you as long as the memories remain. it's hard now i know, it must be.

once again i am deeply sorry for the loss :(

PEACE

[Encatuse]

My heart goes out to you man. I know thats prolly not makin it feel better... but we're here for you man. You need to vent, fuckin vent. We WILL listen. I know how it is to lose those that are close to us. I think most of us do. It's never a good feeling. Make sure you talk though man. Bottling it up isn't ever good.

Best of luck to you and his family.

- Encatuse

[Encatuse]

Sorry to double post in your thread, but I GUARANTEE he heard you while he was in a coma. 100% dude. My grandma was in a coma once and we talked to her, and evnetually she was lucky enough to come out of it. She remembered almost everything we told her. So know your words were with him when he passed man. I know he was happy to have you by his side. He may not have been able to show it, but he was.

[Mrs PotatoHead]

It's ok to be sad and angry, but let the people that love you take care of you because your friend would want that. Eventually the stormclouds in your heart will part and the beautiful moments you have spent with your friend will shine like diamonds in your heart. Love and friendship is eternal.

Peace to you and your friend.

[Torog]

Howdy Koshea,

My prayers are with you and the young man's family. This was not your fault,your friend,chose to drink and made a bad choice in doing so. Let his death count for something good-as an example of the consequences of binge drinking. Hopefully,you and your friends,will learn to moderate your drinking because of this sad tradgedy.

I too,lost a good and close friend in this way,a young man of 19,the son of a woman that I was very close to..he and his mom,lived far away from family and friends,when he died of alcohol poisoning..I wish that I had been there for her. I don't know how she survived her loss all alone,but she was a very tough,military vet..and I have faith,that she somehow survived. I'm certain that you will survive too,and that you will be stronger .

May God give you strength and comfort....Torog

[Lulu]

I would rather live and love where death is king than have eternal life where love is not --Robert G. Ingersoll

I'm so sorry for your loss Koshea, you're in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time.

Lulu xx

[Junkdogg88]

hey koshea, just rember tomarrows a new day, life goes on. I'm very sorry for the death of your friend. and you may think its your fault but it isnt. I have seen first hand on what alchoal does. My friend died when he was hit by a drunk driver. That is why I chose not to drink anymore. He will live on in your memmories.

[ScarlettCrush]

I say a little pagan prayer for you. Your in my thoughts.