off my chest

[friendowl]

this weekend changed me forever
life is like a bad dream and i wanna wake up
this saturday i went on a roadtrip with my son
to santa paula canyon for some hiking.
during our hike i had a real vivid vision that my
two year old was shot by a stray bullet at the party
that she was going to.it really scared me to the point
where i turned around and drove home.
i called on the cell phone to check but got no answer

around 9pm a car pulls up to my house.its the homie p-wee
he tells me that the party is good and lets go.
i wanted to see my kid so i went.
she was fine and i felt kind of dumb for tripping
a few minutes later p-wee and another homie want
to blaze a joint so we go to the front.

as we are smoking i hear footsteps running up.
i turn to see a big revolver barrel pointed at my face
i froze.i stared at some guy who i felt was about to shoot me.
i had that moment where i see my life and shit
but he swings the gun to my left and shoots p-wee point blank
in the chest twice.
i am fucking dead is what im thinking.i seen p-wee fall and blood everywhere.
the shooter runs away and im on the floor holding my homie.
he's bleeding bad and breathing weird.he looked peacefull
he took two last lil breaths and thats it.as i lay there holding
my dead homie something inside of me snapped.
i dont know what it was that broke but i am not the same.
i think that i am going insane.when his mom and sister seen him
laid out the cries they made broke my heart.the pain they are feeling is
unimaginable.
i myself am fucked up in the head from this.when i look at my hands
i still see blood on em.smoking weed dont help the only thing that
seems to help me right now is alcohol.ive been drunk for two days.

i just needed to get this off my chest cuz i cant really talk to anyone
about how i feel.i am so grouchy ifeel like destroying something

[BigHomie]

holy shit.
i don't no what else to say...

glad you are ok.
sorry about your homie

[xblackdogx]

i hope you come to peace with
what you are feeling torn with

i am sorry for your loss
and hope those close to him
feel some sort of closure

[dog420]

omfg man

well at least ur child is un harmed, for ur homie, what can i say but hes resting in peace! Why he get shot? do you know? Man thats a sad story i feel for ya man!

Peace, try and get some reat i know its easy for me to say that but do try!

[Wesley Pipes]

Owl sorry to hear that bro, i really dont know what else to say dude cuz i cant imagine how your feelin. Anyway Peace dude and do whatever you feel is right and i know what i'd think was right if i was in your shoes, and it don't involve turnin the other cheek.

[Psycho4Bud]

Sorry to hear of your loss!:(

Hang tough my friend, sounds like you have lil' ones depending on ya.

[MaryJaneintheCloset]

FriendOwl, I'm so sorry. :(

[cannabis campbell]

Im sorry friendowl, its good to talk about it (even if its on the internet or wherever and just get things out and of your chest instead of keeping them in), Do you know why he got shot, or who shot him.

Who knows what would of happend if you didnt turn the car round.

It was just meant to happen if it didnt happen then it would of happened later on.

Just be thankful it wasnt your daughter, once again sorry about your homie

[geonagual]

Just dropped in from work and read this thread.
Holy shit! WTF!
I can only imagine how your feelin'
I am thinking revenge, sadness, confusion and anger
Remember your kids and who needs you around
Ever think it may be time to get the fuck out of East L.A.
Come inland, it is much safer out here.
Take it easy
late

[friendowl]

thanx for the words.
it feels good to tell someone
i dont like telling people nothing
cuz they really dont give a shit
i cant believe he's gone
i inspired him to grow
he lived in a onebedroom apartment
and he turned his restroom into a grow spot
he didnt let no one use the restroom when the
lights were off that shit made me laugh
all family members that had to use the restroom
had to go downstairs to the neighbors

[slipknotpsycho]

this weekend changed me forever
life is like a bad dream and i wanna wake up
this saturday i went on a roadtrip with my son
to santa paula canyon for some hiking.
during our hike i had a real vivid vision that my
two year old was shot by a stray bullet at the party
that she was going to.it really scared me to the point
where i turned around and drove home.
i called on the cell phone to check but got no answer

around 9pm a car pulls up to my house.its the homie p-wee
he tells me that the party is good and lets go.
i wanted to see my kid so i went.
she was fine and i felt kind of dumb for tripping
a few minutes later p-wee and another homie want
to blaze a joint so we go to the front.

as we are smoking i hear footsteps running up.
i turn to see a big revolver barrel pointed at my face
i froze.i stared at some guy who i felt was about to shoot me.
i had that moment where i see my life and shit
but he swings the gun to my left and shoots p-wee point blank
in the chest twice.
i am fucking dead is what im thinking.i seen p-wee fall and blood everywhere.
the shooter runs away and im on the floor holding my homie.
he's bleeding bad and breathing weird.he looked peacefull
he took two last lil breaths and thats it.as i lay there holding
my dead homie something inside of me snapped.
i dont know what it was that broke but i am not the same.
i think that i am going insane.when his mom and sister seen him
laid out the cries they made broke my heart.the pain they are feeling is
unimaginable.
i myself am fucked up in the head from this.when i look at my hands
i still see blood on em.smoking weed dont help the only thing that
seems to help me right now is alcohol.ive been drunk for two days.

i just needed to get this off my chest cuz i cant really talk to anyone
about how i feel.i am so grouchy ifeel like destroying something

dude, that just sucks. my brother was shot point blank with a shotgun in the chest/stomach... i can see him when i close my eyes, laying on the ground, surrounded by blood, and that scared blank look... and i can feel his cold skin, from the day i said my goodbyes at the funeral...

gotta trust me on something tho, don't turn to the bottle, even if it does numb the pain, it's only making things worse in reality. go see a psychiatrist, or someone you can talk to... right now you're a prime candidate for PTSD, and there are two things that can make it go 10x worse, one is drinking heavily, as it only brings out the misery, and doesn't really allow you to 'vent' the next is clamming up and holding everything inside...

do you even know why? or are you as lost as everybody else? (why your homie was shot i mean) i still dont' know why my brother was killed, and after the dude shot him, they (more than just him) split up a bunch of drugs and atleast the shotgun, and run all this shit blocks away to diffrent houses, then they came back to call 911... my brother was still alive and still conscience when the first emergency responders got there, which was a cop.... if they had atleast called 911 first, then ran to hide the shit, he might still be alive.... and that's the part that kills me the most...

[friendowl]

he got shot over a bitch
some guy came up to his girlfriend
and shook her hand and said that she was
fine and should be with him
when p-wee heard this he snapped
he said to that fool thats my hyna get the fuck outta here
or i will fuck you up
the other fool laughed and took off
then came back and killed my homie
just like that.

[Bong30]

Friendowl............wow Sorry for your loss....my pryers are with you.


You dont get shot in a vaccum. what happened? why did he shoot him? Not you? did they get him? What if you had a gun?

Stay strong for the little ones.....

what did your dream mean? vision? you were right..... just not about your 2 year old.

its called the Collective Consciousness.............

[Bong30]

he got shot over a bitch
some guy came up to his girlfriend
and shook her hand and said that she was
fine and should be with him
when p-wee heard this he snapped
he said to that fool thats my hyna get the fuck outta here
or i will fuck you up
the other fool laughed and took off
then came back and killed my homie
just like that.
shit bro

its nice here in arvada

[friendowl]

i did have my strap on me
it just happened to fast
after he went down i gave
my heat to be hidden
cuz pigs on the way
even p-wee had his gun
just got caught slipping
all this happened in like a 5 second time frame
no time to react

[activedenial]

You might have changed history with that dream. Instead of your child dying, your friend took it instead. You are here for a reason I guess? GROW ON in his memory.

[Skink]

All I can say is God meant for this to happen,take the experience and grow...

I stared down the barrel of a magnum once and it was a very humbling experience...

RIP to your Bud,he feels no pain now....

[Bong30]

i did have my strap on me
it just happened to fast
after he went down i gave
my heat to be hidden
cuz pigs on the way
even p-wee had his gun
just got caught slipping
all this happened in like a 5 second time frame
no time to react
damn.........shit.....:(


did you know the guy? had you seen him before? did the cops get him? did you or your boys? (get him?)

just wondering:confused:

[God v2.0]

dude. are you freakin serious?








wow.







take it easy, take a few days off and relax, let it sink in and come to terms with it. its going to be very sad and very painful but it has to happen sooner or later.

[friendowl]

never seen him before
most people need attention
what good is it if you kill someone
and no one knows about it
people talk and when they do we listen
the lil homies are heated right now
and are very dangerous to be around
someone will die but most likely it wont be the shooter
thats the fucked up thing about gang violence
there is no end.
i myself am not involved in any retalliation
if i didnt have kids i would probobly murder
as many of them as i could find but then id be fucking myself
i cant do that

[Bong30]

thinking of the kids..............Good man.

[God v2.0]

dont worry im sure the dude who shot your friend over a BITCH (i still dont fully belive that, its just so crazy), well he will get his just desserts. When hes gettin his dick chewed off by phirana im sure he will reflect on his short sightedness



but who the FUCK kills someone over a girl. its just a cunt, not the purpose of life (i guess that depends on your views about life)

but damn the guy who shot your bro must be seriously mentally ill. that or someone who deserves a punishment so sadistic that even hitler would cringe.

[rhino44]

im sorry friendowl. maybe you should move if thats an option. if your homies retaliate they could think you were involved and shoot your house up or something you know. sorry for your loss.

[Skink]

i did have my strap on me
it just happened to fast
after he went down i gave
my heat to be hidden
cuz pigs on the way
even p-wee had his gun
just got caught slipping
all this happened in like a 5 second time frame
no time to react
Just playing devils advocate here,God knows I like pot...

Do you think you would of had time to react or sense the situation better if you were not high???

[xblackdogx]

Just playing devils advocate here,God knows I like pot...

Do you think you would of had time to react or sense the situation better if you were not high???
this is not a matter of that

when someone is in a confused state of mind
they are in no control

[1234abcd]

Crazy shit...rip P-wee

Lets all smoke a bowl in his memory...and take it easy friendowl, gang violence is horrible..Sorry to hear about your loss.

[Skink]

this is not a matter of that

when someone is in a confused state of mind
they are in no control
I think I understand what you are saying???

[God v2.0]

Billionfold needs to shut up, murder means prison in most cases. No matter how badly you are hurt FO you need to stay calm and dont do something crazy like kill someone. your kids need you and almost EVERYONE on these forums enjoys your company.

[friendowl]

billionfold im with you
but my two year old dont agree
she'd rather watch shrek with me at home
rather that go visit in the pen
i am a crazy nut
once i get started i wont stop till i get stopped
i need some pills today

[God v2.0]

dude you dont tell the father of a two year old child to kill someone, therefor commiting a felony.

if he didnt have a kid i would offer to help him disembowel the cockface.

but when you have a kid, you realize that you no longer come first, your kid does. and if you don't like it then tough shit.

[God v2.0]

yeah FO, if you can get away from gang violence, it will be a huge step forward for you.

[slipknotpsycho]

to those in disbelief - it's not unheard of by far... plenty of more mind blowing shit happens daily, for instance little kids in africa, being forced to fight in a war...

owl - take it easy man, you say you need pills and you've apparently been drinking pretty heavily. be careful, you have a kid to worry about, don't want to go and do something stupid and get sent to the hospital/kid taken from you or worse... if i was in your mental state right now, i would be taking a good long break from all drugs, i'd definately need to clear my head out and get shit straight in my mind after something like that, and i don't think i could honestly continue on with my life after that, without first getting my mind straight (it'd probably take me awhile too, that's something that doesn't just go away in a day or two). i don't think i could even begin to 'come to terms' with everything, as long as i was under the influence of anything.

[friendowl]

slipknot your right man
but right now i feel crazy
im just trying to get thru this hour
if i go sober i will lose it worse
i need to get away from here but i cant

[slipknotpsycho]

slipknot your right man
but right now i feel crazy
im just trying to get thru this hour
if i go sober i will lose it worse
i need to get away from here but i cant
how about you pop in shrek and watch it with your daughter while being thankful she's still alive, until you sober up a bit, then you and her can go out, to do something, go to a movie, grab something to eat, w/e it takes to distract yourself (don't get this confused, you still have to face this at somepoint, don't spend your life running from it, but it's fresh in your mind, it would be understandable if you just wanted to try and 'forget' about it for ahwile, even if you don't forget it... keep your chin up man, ain't nothing down there for us if we decide to mope around and do nothing because of a tragedy.... and if things get you down later on, just look at your daughter and say this to yourself 'i still have her, and as long as i still have her, i'll be ok.' live it, believe in it, don't just say it because someone told you to...

[Bong30]

this is not a matter of that

when someone is in a confused state of mind
they are in no control

no shit, it happens to fast, and that kinda slow motion shit takes over, and buy the time you are back at regular speed the guys gone.

then shock sets in.....

I second slip too........

[friendowl]

i got the devil on one shoulder
and an angel on the other
and the have started a battle in my head

[God v2.0]

its because you get hit with a massive dose of adrenalin which gives you mad energy but is also a kinda neuroitc and distorted high, it can help you fight off an attacker or chase down a thief, but sometimes it leaves you a little out of it and you fail to make a normal, rational decision.

there is nothing you could've done, save throwing yourself infront of the bullets. But then your little girl wouldn't have a father and that would be even more sad.

i know it may not be time for this but eventually you're going to have to be really strong and swallow all of the pain and suffering and live your life like you have to. Take pride in the fact that you are a survivor, and thats all that ever matters, you will see your homie again when you die, but for now you'll have to get on with life.

i'll shed a tear and dedicate this bowl in front of me entirely to your friend.

[slipknotpsycho]

i got the devil on one shoulder
and an angel on the other
and the have started a battle in my head
i don't believe in angels, devil or christianity or anything but, your daughter is your angel, are you going to let her be defeated by the devil?

i know it's hard, trust me i speak from experience... but you're going to make it through this.. i'm one of the most psychologically unstable people out of all of my family, and i also loved my brother more than anyone else in my family (except maybe my other brother) if i could make it through that, you can make it through this...

turn into a rock, love your daughter and let no one or nothing drag you down, let nothing take your daughter away from you...

[Its a Plant]

what a compassionate lord we have.
my heart goes out to you friendowl.
just don't make any rash decisions
until you sleep off your current state.
and shrek is a good movie.
your kid has good taste already.

[rhino44]

fortify your house with bars and shit on the windows. change the locks get stronger doors all that shit. security moniters. tis is the shotgun im gonna get you can get a magazine extension to hold 8 rounds. fuckit i dont know what kinda budget you got but id be getting ready to protect my family from another mother fucker like that.

http://www.floridagunworks.com/Merchant2/merchant.mv?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=FG&Product_Code=921&Category_Code=FIREARMS+S+B

[LIP]

Im sorry man, i've seen that kinda thing and i know exacly how you feel, but are you phycic?

[friendowl]

again thank you guys
today is a struggle
no one around me knows
about what happened
the thing thats hardest for me
is to do nothing
i am a doer not a sayer
if it wasnt for my kids
id be out hunting right now
im naturally born
so its hard for me to do nothing

[da haze meister]

damn dude
i cant even imagine how you are feeling right now
dude
im soooo sorry
from the bottom of my heart
im sorry for your loss dude

[friendowl]

its gonna be another long night
thank you everybody for just
letting me get this shit out

i feel better than i did this morning

[Maui Wowie]

R.I.P P-Wee

[VoidLivesOn]

I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!

[Jeff Spicoli]

Void, seriously, just this once, shut the fuck up

[da haze meister]

I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!
yeah dude
i agree with spicoli
this is no time
for you to be spewing bullshit
out of your mouth
fuckin asshole
please shut the fuck up

[slipknotpsycho]

its gonna be another long night
thank you everybody for just
letting me get this shit out

i feel better than i did this morning
ever need to talk privately tell me your sn for aol/aim i have all people blocked not on it, but dude i've been through something very similar, if you ain't got noone else to relate to, to know what you feel, to know those thoughts that go through your head of 'what if' which are the worst, becuase when they're gone, all you can do is think of all the diffrent ways of how you could of saved them, how things could have been diffrent. and that's not a good train of thought, trust me, as long as you blame yourself (not saying you are, but i did, and mom still does) nothing will go away, and it will only get worse... if you plan on going to the funeral do what i did, look him in his 'eyes' or directly at this face, and say everything you wanted to say, after i did all that with my bro i touched his hand, and simply said 'goodbye bro, i hope your better off' and after that it kinda sucked in finally, that he's gone, and ther'es nothing i can, but straighten out me and my other brother (which is impssoble, but someday when i have the means i will) so that my mom (even tho ihate her) doesn't have to go through this all over again. i'm what gives her her strenght, i'm the shoulder she cries on, for hours.. i'm the oldest, so i feel i'ts my responsiblity to try and keep everyone together, try to keep everyone stable.. i don't know how old you are, but i'm 20 and i've gone through in my life more then most average 40 year olds.. i'm very insightful (tho ihave problems putting it in words) and maybe if you feel you need it let me know... send me an email to [email protected] with the name you can be contacted wtih through aim/aol.... and i'm on ALL the time, but i'm not always on aol...

[slipknotpsycho]

I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!
dude you're just a plain out dickhead. even if he's lying, death isn't something you play around with, you give sympathy to the person, and try to help them cope with their loss, you don't just assume they're lying. friendowl sent bud to people, and they actually got it, he earned much respect from me... look if he's lying (i really don't think you are, i believe you, cuz this world is just fucked, and i know how street life is, i'm not stupid... that type of shit happens daily, it's just mindblowing when it happens to someone you know, and even more so when you're the one holding him afterwards.) then oh well, you don't accuse him of lying, especially on something like this, sure the kid saying he can get an oz of chron. for 20 you can call him a liar .. but just think how shitty you'd feel, if you found it it was true... think before you speak(type)

and all macho bullshit aside, if you lived near me, and i had posted about what happened to my brother, and you said i was lying, i'd beat your head in with a pipe, just for disgracing my brothers death with an insult of it being a lie. and trust me, i have the balls to carry it out... if you wanna find a way out here, then come, otherwise i'm done with the internet fueding for the night

friendowl, i really feel a connection to you, cuz i can almost know exactl what you're going through, the only diffrence is i didn't see it happen, but i can still see it in my mind, they said his organs were all over the place... got my mom into 100's of thousands of dollars of debt it just fucking makes me so angry when i think about it.... personally, if i had the means, i'd find him, and i'd make him suffer, (talking about me and my brother, not you and your hommie) ij'm not talking about hour-two hour beatings.. i'd make him feel the pain my brother had to feel witha gaping whole in his chest, seeing his blood everywhere, the fear of never seeing anyone he loves anymore, for taking one of the only family members that even cared about me, away from me. i won't go into details, but lets just say, i'd kidnap him and start the torture immedieatly, and he'd be found just barely alive in a hosptial parking lot, i also know alot about what the human body can take, and what's fatal and what's not... if i didn't have a wife and kid i loved with all my heart... that mother fucker would have wished he was never born, i'd make his last blood curdling screams 'i'm sorry'... i'd make him suffer for 14 days, starting off with just slight pain, and working my way up to near mortal wounds.... but i kept a clear head... man you can too.. i have faith... just relax, don't watch tv or anyting, don't use any mind altering chemicals, sit in a chair for hours, and just think... not about just anything, just think... if you do it right, you'll know why...

[slipknotpsycho]

i'd make him feel the pain my brother had to feel witha gaping whole in his chest, seeing his blood everywhere, the fear of never seeing anyone he loves anymore, for taking one of the only family members that even cared about me, away from me. i won't go into details, but lets just say, i'd kidnap him and start the torture immedieatly, and he'd be found just barely alive in a hosptial parking lot
hours and hours later^^

[Swizzy89304]

Friendowl...

Two wrongs dont make a right - but its a damn good start...
Do what the IRA used to do, take him to someplace where no-one will hear a thing... then get the Black & Decker out and have some fun with his kneecaps.

[minnesota man]

Friendowl, dude. Sorry about your friend. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I will think about them.

[Reefer Rogue]

I'm speechless. Rip P-wee :( I hope you pull through ok Owl.

[LittLeWinG]

sometimes i think i have it bad. man that is so sad. i cant even imagine the pain you must be going through. Take care of yourself man, things will get better. One day....it could be today...or tomorrow...or even in a year...something will change...something will snap and everything will feel peaceful again, just hang in there man
peace


R.I.P P-wee

[LittLeWinG]

I love how you guys lap this shit up like dogs.The best part about it all is it could be fake.Like some big reality TV show...AMERICA IS WAITING!

i can't beleive you just said that. I can tell from your attitude you are an ignorant, selfish cunt with no compassion. These boards would be alot more friendly with out such dickface comments like yours. Learn from your mistakes

[Swizzy89304]

Friendowl, whenever youre missing yer homie, just look up at the clouds and know that hes sitting up there, toking a J and jammin on his harp with all the other homies.

[JunkYard]

Trauma from death experiences work a little funny. It hits extremely hard at first, but can ultimately be supressed for a time. You 'will' have to deal with this Sober, and it won't be easy. But after do, you will be able to live with it, and maybe even find a little peace. It will probably be a slow process, but it 'will' pass in time.

Not to change the subject, but my 30 year old brother died not too long ago, but I've been able to work it out. Granted, he wasn't shot point blank in front of me, but the death of someone you love (No matter how they go) is hard. Truama, and saddness (Maybe anger) is was you have to face right now, and I know a little about that.

I don't talk about this, (At all) but I killed an 80 year old man when I was 19, and the truama nearly killed 'Me'. It was an accident, but a man died because of me. I still think about it from time to time, but I've mostly let it go, and dealt with the truama from that experience. It wasn't easy, though.

After it happened, my entire family came over to comfort me, but I didn't want to talk about it, or be around them; I ended up going to my girlfriends house (Who knew nothing) and spent the night with her. (She only found out the next day.) It was nice to remove myself from it all for a while, because it certainly helped; my nerves benefited the most, as this gave me a chance to supress it for a while, and it allowed me to get myself together.

Don't keep boozing it up, bro...it will only make it worse when you come down. This is exactly what I did when my brother died, and it scared the hell out of my mother. I ended up writing about a night I had after he died, and it helped. (A little) I know you like to rhyme, so perhaps puting it all on paper may help you?

Can I share something with you, man? I think I can relate to your condition,(In a way) and want to share what I wrote about my brother, and a whiskey night in pain.

'I Loved Him Too'

The bottle beside my bed
taunts my anguish.

The gun pressed firmly against my temple
longs to reunite.

The race is not yet over,
but it could be with a twitch of my finger.
Then, I could join my brother,
and together we could face the other side.

Is it fair for any to go alone?
The great unknown intrigues my curiosity...

Does he need me by his side?

In a fit of drunken rage,
I pull the trigger!
The gun now pointed at the bottle
beside my bed.

Mother runs in screaming.
She seeâ??s me on my knees...
howling at the absent moon.

I look in her eyes...
I break down crying.
Terrified and shaking,
she says to me:

â??Jamie, I loved him, tooâ?�

Alcohol makes you do stupid things, and it sometimes makes you focus on what's hurting the most. I nearly took my life that night (Drunk) and I scared the absolute piss out of my mother. You're probably angry as well, and you should know that "anger and alcohol DON'T MIX!"

What I did after I 'accidentaly' killed that old man works much better, bro. Spend your time with someone you love! Then deal with it slowly (daily) until the pain is nearly gone... It does go away, (Mostly)

You just have to give it some time.

Much Love, bro!

[Az.]

dude!! that is fucked!!:(
I'm truly sorry to hear of your loss
You'll be in my thoughts and prayers...

All the best dude!!

[d00d989]

friendowl, you know everyone here is your friend.

we all love u homie

[SixesUp]

i know how that is its hard to see...i seen my best friend shot in the head by a drive by right as i was about to cross the street and talk to him he was alot of a better guy than i am and it wasnt right when i think about it all the stuff ive done and been through it should have been me but all i can tell you is that nothing is going to help drugs/alchohol anything i chose a different path to cure it but thats in the past...stay strong man

[Shelbay]

friendowl, you know everyone here is your friend.

we all love u homie
speak for yourself.

[Ruthless2oo6]

waddup big owl. im sorry 2 hear about ur homies death. rip peewee. I hope u keep your head on your shoulders and keep ur head up high dogg. im sure everyday your lil girl wakes up and puts a smile on her face that your there in her presense.

[Psycho4Bud]

I guess this thread is closed! DON'T carry it to others!

[BobBong]

Good call Psycho, this exactly the kinda stuff we discourage.. "Speak For Yourself" is in no way negative. It may have not be terribly sympathetic, no...but it shouldn't instigate and certainly doesn't excuse insanely derogitory language like I've seen tonight. So everyone relax. What happened (If true) is a sad thing...but it doesn't mean everyone is required show their condolences.

My mother once told me...If ya have nothing nice to say...then you probably shouldn't be saying it.

[Psycho4Bud]

One last try..........if this progresses like last time I'll just delete the damn thing. There are about the same amount of deleted posts in this as their are published ones.


DAMN, is it a full moon tonight?

Chill down people and enjoy the board....were all stoners, lets get along!:thumbsup:

[HiddenBeauty]

im sorry friendowl. maybe you should move if thats an option. if your homies retaliate they could think you were involved and shoot your house up or something you know. sorry for your loss.

If I had kids and I could move I would be off like a shot.(maybe wrong choice of words but just an expression)

My heart goes out to you friendowl and all others that live in places where guns are so commonly used.I couldnt live in an area like that and stay sane I mean its like something out of a film.

[FindingTim]

You know in the movies where something tragic will happen to something to some guy, and instead of retaliating, he sucks it all up and becomes a stronger person on the inside. This token movie character can be you if you resist the urge to get revenge.

[HiddenBeauty]

What doesnt kill you only makes you stronger ~ not exactly sure where it came from but its true.

[xblackdogx]

what happened to my post?

[friendowl]

thanks all you cool stoner people
life is crazy sometimes
here i dont talk to people about shit
its good to atleast write about it on here
all your words got mr thru some hard times
ive been thinking and smoking alot more than normal these days