Am I straaaange?

[herbalmedicine]

Alright people, im into smoking and growing alot myselfe. I used to smoke every day for about a year, and totally loved it.

Now, when I smoke I get deeply deeply contemplative, think about "my flaws" what I should be doing better, Im very unsociable and find it difficult to have a laugh, although when im sober I would say im a pretty fun person to be around..... I used to talk crazy but cool discussions with my friends about all sorts of stuff and we'd just flow and love it. Now 2 years on, I will get high, not speak much at all, think about life, sometimes get depressed or anxious.... especially when REALLY HIGH! The few things that are good is that I generally work out and do weights and stuff when I'm high but thats the only good thing out of it.

I dont know when it changed, but it went from being interested, imaginative and funny when high to being quiet contemplative and unbelievably passive if thats a description of it... I dont know when this change occured.
Especially if I'm on my own in a public place Il get really anxious.

I used to love it, got high at high school all the time and just found it generally fun, but now this

its just really..... has anyone else experience something remotely similar, do you know why this has happned to me..... also, will I ever get into "happy high" again?

Although im so negative, there is just such an urge to get hiiiiiigh whenever theres weed about I love being melted just not the phsycological effect

well any advice, input is appreciated

cheers

[Phyrrus]

I am almost exactly like that, I've smoked weed everyday for about a year, 5 times a day sometimes more. I am usually quiet unless someone starts a conversation then I will start talking.

My advice, take a couple of weeks (or more) off smoking weed, I did when I went to Australia (because I was forced to). Maybe it was because I was having fun over there but I noticed that I had a more clearer head, wasn't worrying so much and was enjoying the holiday even without weed.

Take at least 3 weeks off or longer smoking weed and see if you agree with what I said. The longer you aren't smoking weed the better stone you will get when you do toke. If you don't want to do that then try spacing your sessions out to 3 times a week or something. Best do the first option though because your tolerance to weed goes down if you don't smoke for about a month or something the weed has to get out of your body for your tolerance to start to go down I think and weed needs around 1 month to be out of your system.

[herbalmedicine]

Well yes that does help a bit mate.... But I only smoke once a month or so now, and its still just as bad when I do toke... yeah maybe I need to be satisfied with my life or something, dunno

[herbalmedicine]

That is the most stupid answer, do you think I try not to enjoy it or something?

[herbalmedicine]

Its a good idea and it does help a little bit, but even with my best mate, or when im on my own its still like that

[Buda Bles]

thats normal man, thats what the HERB is for, higher thought process. Master your Mind. Blessed BE

[akwg]

if you think your gonna be like that you will. when you get stoned just chill lay down relax and play some video games you dont have to go into deep thought processes and shit

i get quite anxious myself in public areas and it trips me out lol

just remeber ur toking cuz u like it and it makes u have fun ya kno?

[NowhereMan]

i get a lil bit of anxiety if i aint smoking any,
i dont like crowds ,but a nice jiont before going to some event
helps me deal with the shit
i think most who get paraniod are worried about people THinking your high

stop trying to act like ya aint high
and just be cool and think
even if they think im high
fuck it,they dont Know it and go on like you would
me myself dont really care if they do know
but i understand why others have reason to NOT look high
what im saying is
try not to think about what THEY think,
peace

[gs8778]

plus, it's not illegal to be high, only to get high, so as long as you have nothing on you...

[cherylsyv]

very good point gs8778! I'm not doing anything illigal now, but I was a few moments back, now everythings ok! no more paranoia, just relax, relax, (and think deep thoughts!)

[marquis]

That's pretty much exactly how I am, herbalmedicine. I smoked hash/weed for two years. Then, one day during a hard time in my life, I bought some weed from a new source. I had a horrible time, and I put that down to the weed. Lousy weed, I thought. I didn't smoke for a while, and then bought some hash. I had a lousy time again, I felt horribly anxious and depressed. Before I knew it, every time I got stoned I felt that way.

It's been like that for a year and a half now.

On the plus side, I can tell you that it does get better, or at least it has for me. Eventually the anxiety reduced when on my own, though I was still self critical. The way it is for me now, when I'm on my own I feel pretty good getting stoned, with no negative feelings most of the time. I'm still a little crap to be around when I'm stoned though, as I get social anxiety when I toke. Occasionally when I smoke with people I feel just like I did back in the old days - I laugh at everything and act goofy.

The way I see it, my highs got bad cause I was in a bad condition psychologically, and now that my life has gotten miles better my highs have started to improve too. So if you're having a hard time with your life lately then I'd suggest giving up the weed and doing something to sort out your life/state of mind, and then eventually you can get back to having a fantastic time toking.

One thing to add - alcohol can help to loosen you up when smoking socially and make things easier, but that may not be your style. Good luck with it anyway. I'm sure you'll get your highs back eventually.





















BAM!!

[nancyrenee]

Well I know my boyfriend says he used to be a big pothead. Then all of a sudden one day it started making him really paranoid. So he had to stop. So I guess as your body chemistry changes maybe the effects of marijuana on your body can change as well. Maybe it can be compared to allergies. One day you wake up and mow the lawn which is something you have done once a week for the past 15 years. But this one particular day your eyes swell, your nose runs, and you can't handle it. For the rest of your life you will now have to take meds when mowing the lawn. Maybe it's the same difference. Oh by the way I'm a depressive person. I've been depressed for about three years now. Doctors don't help. Even antidepressants don't help. But weed makes me happy. It makes me a positive person. So even though it's a depressive for my mind and my depression it's not.

[herbalmedicine]

tnx guys

marqais your very right about the better mindset and happy in life, the better getting high is...... oh well i need to change,

thanks for all the replys to me

[danimal]

holly shit dude... that used to happen to me all the time... i used to smoke every day for about a year and a hlaf and then it started to suck. I would usually be bale to get into conversations and shit. But then i just sat there and t hought i couldnt laugh or have a good time and i didnt know why.. it was hard for me to actually talk and when i did i thought i was saying the stupedist shit. Im on probation now and ihavent smoked untill the other night for 4 months.. i smoked and its still the same.. i think that i cannot get high anymore.. its like when i smoked by myslef i was fine i just did whatever but around people it was a different story..fucked up huh

[danimal]

well said marquis!!!

[danimal]

my advice to you herbal./..take a break bro... take a break... it will help i promise...start drinking more.. drinking is way more fun anyway