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horror business
06-27-2007, 07:37 AM
Well, one of my friends decided that he no longer enjoys smoking weed. That's no problem in itself, but it seems like he no longer wants to be my friend, since cannabis is such a large part of my life.

The unfortunate thing is that he was a member of this site, and helped me with my previous grows. In fact, I had plans to give him seedlings which he was anticipating to grow outdoors.

The past few weeks, he has smoked a lot less at my house. He's the one friend that I had that never took advantage of my weed. In the past, people would show up to smoke. But, he was a friend that didn't care if I didn't smoke with him or anything. He just enjoyed it free of charge every weekend since last winter courtesy of me.

Well, anyway, I think it all started about a half hour ago, when I talked about how I could get a Micro Korg (it's a synth). He wanted me to get it instead of getting weed tomorrow. I'm a daily smoker and have been for over a year. I believe if I hadn't discovered marijuana I would have been dead by now due to suicide. Anyway, on with my story, I'm not quitting smoking, and if I'm out of weed, that's my first priority, is to replenish. It's been like that for a long time, and it's not going to change.

Anyway, on with my story. He then told me, he doesn't support me spending all my money on weed, which I can respect, because that's his opinion. He then told me, he's not going to smoke any more of my weed because it just contributes to me getting more. I told him I don't mind him smoking, because it doesn't take much to get him high, etc... He then told me he didn't want the two plants I was going to give him. He then gave me back the 20 dollars I gave him for gas money to go get weed tomorrow.

He then told me I smoke way too much, which I don't, compared to how I used to be. I used to (when I was smoking seedless high-mids) smoke an ounce every 3 days. I would constantly be smoking. I'd always be in a good mood too. Well anyway, now I only have contacts for shitty weed which I never use, or extremely high quality marijuana, which is what I smoke.

For 160 I usually get 10 grams, and this lasts me 2-3 days, until it's time to get more. So, as you can see, I don't smoke as much as I used to. If I had the money, 10 grams would only last me a few hours, like it used to when I had connects for good mids.

Anyway, now I have no smoking friends. He was my music friend as well, but some people can't accept other people for their differences.

All my other friends who were older all left for college last year. My other smoking friends all live in different towns. So, now this means, more weed for me. But no friends. He was also going to help me get a job, but that probably failed to. Well, I'm glad I'm not friends with people that change so quickly.

Maybe some day I'll find friends that can accept me for who I am. Someone who does daily activities but just smokes every day. Not someone that hates that, all of a sudden, and then doesn't want to be your friend.

Unfortunately, I'm going through hydrocodone withdrawal since I was abusing them and got addicted. I quit, because, it wasn't good, and weed isn't a bad drug, and it saved me from my cocaine addiction in the past.

But, now that I've lost a friend, I feel somewhat inclined to continue down the path of self destruction.

But luckily, I'll have more weed tomorrow and all will be well. I'll be able to smoke it in peace, and listen to my favorite songs. I'll also be able to wait for my lowryder seeds to arrive. Then, I'll be happy again. In the meantime maybe I'll meet some cool like minded people at some concerts this summer. Last year, I met a bunch of cool people at warped tour.

Sorry for the rant, I just needed somewhere to type it. I wish I could hang out with some of you guys on here, well at least that's what the internet's for.

Peace,
horror business :rasta:

Spoken Word
06-27-2007, 07:45 AM
I have to smoke another one now.
Your story made me sad.
i relate to a LOT of things you said.
i don't really smoke with anyone now...

im sorry man.

just keep walkin and pushin....

horror business
06-27-2007, 07:56 AM
Thanks.

Oh, by the way, I forgot to mention. During his explanation that I smoke way too much, he also told me that it's pathetic to smoke that much. Well, during my calculations, I now smoke around 3.3 grams a day of the highest grade marijuana. I used to smoke around 9.3 grams a day, so I cut down considerably. Besides, lots of people smoke daily, to help them live and deal with life. It's not some unnatural thing.

Well, like the KMK song, "I'm gonna smoke weed for the rest of my life. You can find me posted on my porch tokin' on a pipe. I'm gonna smoke weed for the rest of my life. See some people gave in, but I ain't giving up this fight. I'm gonna smoke weed for the rest of my life. You'll find me old posted on my porch tokin' on a pipe. I'm gonna smoke weed for the rest of my life. See I'm in love with Mary Jane I'm gonna make her my wife."

Spoken Word
06-27-2007, 08:02 AM
Nice song, kmk? what song? i hope it isn't obvious......

and don't sweat it.. he shouldn't be judging you anyways.
You aren't your weed use.
I'm sure there is a lot more to you than your 1/8 of smoke a day, which IMO is leaning towards heavy use. But as long as you smoke and maintain. Have priorities and responsibilities........fuck him lol

horror business
06-27-2007, 08:10 AM
"Rest of my Life"

And yeah, like I said, I used to smoke a lot heavier. So, I don't really care about any one's negative opinions. It's a shame that I had to lose a friend, but they must not have been a real friend in the first place.

Polymirize
06-27-2007, 08:35 AM
I'll admit, I don't see what your friend did other than stop for himself, give you back your money, and then observe that an eighth a day might be a little on the high side of things.

I'd tend to agree. I'm not saying I couldn't smoke an eighth in a day, I just don't think I'd get noticably higher for about 14 hours of it or so. You could shoot pure thc into your bloodstream but your body is only capable of reacting to so much of it at a time. Meanwhile you can't make a quarter last more than three days? If that...

anyway, if your first priority in life is to always have weed on hand... Well, maybe you should question your priorities. Just a thought.

psteve
06-27-2007, 08:50 AM
Your friend is seriously depressed and needs your support.
Tell him that his mood swings are freaking you out, and that he should get some help.

Reefer Rogue
06-27-2007, 11:03 AM
Keep on tokin :stoned:

It's time for me to replenish my system with another bowl :)

horror business
06-27-2007, 11:05 AM
My priority in life is cultivating cannabis, enjoying music, and enjoying my life. Smoking daily is part of enjoying my life. I don't find a point in life, so I make my own point, which is to enjoy it as I'm just going to die like every one else.

I guess you could say I lead a simple life, and that's the way I like it.

And, as I've said before, I don't smoke a large amount. Sure, maybe a large amount to the new and/or occasional smoker, but a small to average amount for the daily medicinal user, which the only thing separating me from being a medicinal user, is the fact that I don't live in a state that allows me to get a card (which I have several qualifications for).

And, the purpose for the rant, is that, it was a complete change of my friend to suddenly turn against marijuana. He had been my friend long before I even started using marijuana, and used it with me many times. He also would participate in the experimentation of other mind altering substances. He would laugh at the hypocrisy of the anti-weed commercials and messages.

By the way, I don't see how it's such a big deal that a quarter of the highest quality marijuana only lasts me 3 days. I have a Zig Zag 78mm rolling machine. It takes the Zig Zag 1 1/4 papers. To create a full size joint that burns evenly, it takes anywhere from .9 to 1.2 grams.

When I wake up, I'll enjoy a joint while listening to some music to inspire my day. I'll then do my daily activities. If a friend comes over to hang out, we'll smoke a joint or two. In the evening, I'll usually smoke two joints. So, my calculations weren't lying. I smoke around 3 joints a day. Each joint being about a gram. So, by making a $160 10 gram bag last 3 days is average for me.

Why am I explaining myself to novices or people that simply can not understand?

As I said in the past, when I was getting good seedless mids, I was smoking at least 10 grams a day, and was high practically all day every day. The weeds potency wasn't that different either. The only main difference, between the ultra high quality weed I get now, is the appearance and flavor. As well as smell and other enjoyable things.

I'm not complaining about the situation I'm in either, as I enjoy smoking quality weed. I'm just saying, I'm getting high significantly less than I usually did. Because of the cost of the weed I now buy. I need to conserve it, so I can make it last 3 days instead of one.

horror business
06-27-2007, 11:13 AM
I really don't need to defend my weed usage, since this is a cannabis site, but just for the fun of it, I'd rather be smoking 3 joints spread throughout the day, than be taking a countless number of hydrocodones a day. Well, actually, that's a lie, but I don't want to ruin my liver, or life, so I need to get away from that bad habit of mine. Besides, it was starting to ruin cannabis for me, because the high is so much more intense when mixed with opiates, that a regular high just wasn't doing it for me.

horror business
06-27-2007, 11:18 AM
By the way, it also pissed me off, as my "friend" OFFERED and wanted to take me to the town where I get my high-quality cannabis, but now, he obviously changed his mind. I mean, luckily I now have 20 extra dollars that I had initially given him for gas money, but now I have no transportation at the moment to get to the town I need to be in.

If worse comes to worse, I'll probably have to settle for 2 ounces of "regular" weed, rather than a half ounce of amazingness.

That pisses me off, as it won't be enjoyable, the whole experience. I won't have a near-orgasm by looking inside of the bag. I won't be overwhelmed with this amazing smell as I open up my grinder after grinding up the weed. It won't feel all sticky and fluffy when ground up. It won't taste amazing when I smoke joints. I won't be able to listen to songs about high-quality cannabis, because I won't be able to relate. Hopefully it will get me high, if I have to settle for something less than amazing.

horror business
06-27-2007, 11:24 AM
By the way, I would have no problem buying high-mids. Something with minimal to no seeds, that smells good, tastes decent, and a joint gets me nicely high. If I had a connection for it, I could get an ounce and a half, and I'd be pretty satisfied. But no.

The weed I'll probably find if I can't get high quality weed will probably be compressed, with broken seeds, and immature seeds, that make grinding up my weed hell, as I'd have to pick out the seeds. On top of that, I will have to pick out all of the stems that are all stuck together due to it being compressed. On top of that, it will probably taste unpleasant.

So, luckily my Lowryder seeds will arrive today, that will put me in somewhat of a good mood. On top of that, hopefully I can find a ride to the town I need to be in to get my amazing weed. Then, my day will be a success. I live day to day. As long as I complete a day I'm happy. Some people, can't imagine a life like that, and are always looking in the future, but missing out on their actual lives, which are happening now.

one-deep
06-27-2007, 12:12 PM
well i want to say something. you said you dont have to explain yourself on here why would you make this thread. i mean you would have to know that somebody would come a long and say something you didn't want to here. and it sound's to me like you've based your whole life on weed i mean shit thats not even a life. you got to smoke good shit to listen to a song because there smokin good shit. what type of shit is that. say's on your profile your 17 and your fuckin with hydrocodone's you've had a cocaine addiction your abusing the shit out of drug's man. you know life is fucked up yea but do you think your the only one who think's that way. me as a black man from the projects who was a gang member and did all types of shit. i happen to know life is fucked up. but im not gonna sit and laydown ima keep movin and try to change it and do what i have to do to make it better by any means . and im not here to talk down on you man im here to tell it's time for a change brother. and it doesn't matter what color you are we all need to come together as one and change this shit and make this world a better place


anyways sorry for such a long post but this is shit that needed to be said holla


od

savagepossum
06-27-2007, 12:46 PM
i think its sad that you need weed to enjoy life and i think its sad that your in such a bad state of denial that you'll never stop

Jah420
06-27-2007, 01:02 PM
It seems your friend was acting out of concern for you..
possibly concern for himself..

Even though he overreacted about the weed.. and perhaps failed to acknowledge the progress you have made moving away from dangerous paths.. I think maybe being so dismissive about him.. the whole "one less friend" thing... just puts you on a similar level to him..

I think the starting point for overcoming his shortmindedness is keeping an open mind yourself.. maybe through that you can reconnect with him and at least talk.

Naturally you'll know the situation much better than me.. but try to not close off completely..

Peace man

TheFatKid
06-27-2007, 04:41 PM
160 dollars every 2-3 days? I really hope you can support yourself and you aren't buying weed before other necessities.

S.W.I.M. 504
06-27-2007, 05:13 PM
man life is like a fast moving river we are all going down it and eventually we will drown. weed is like the river bank, its cool to lie down on it sometimes and take a break and just look at the river and the people going down it and getting perspective on it. but if we spend our whole life on the river bank how are we gonna help the drowning people?

TheFatKid
06-27-2007, 05:34 PM
Isn't 160 every 2-3 days as bad as a coke addiction but healthier for you?

GonzoForever
06-27-2007, 06:34 PM
Isn't 160 every 2-3 days as bad as a coke addiction but healthier for you?

Yeah no offense to the dude who started this thread...but that's fucked up. Unless ofcourse you have the money and are able to live a decent life otherwise.

But that sucks that your friend left you. What a friend?! Damn he sucks. Stoner or not.

Melkane
06-27-2007, 07:56 PM
I think that's quite a bit to go through, you must have a damn good income to afford that along with life needs. Not trying to insult you or anything, but it does seem like you are the type to have a very strong "addictive personality" in the sense you seem to latch on to and get addicted to drugs...you've mentioned coke and those pills you are/were taking.

I think you might be overdoing the weed a bit to cope for not doing the other drugs. Which is fine I guess. Doing that much though..I wonder if you should try a more healthy way of intaking your weed. Cooking it or a vaporizer.

Being that weed isn't really harmful to you I can't really bring myself to tell you to stop, if you can afford it and it doesn't impede on the rest of your life needs (food, bills, entertainment) then more power to you I guess.

It seems to me though that you've let weed take over your life and while it's not even close to the worse thing, it can turn people off. Your friend may only be shunning you in hopes that you will cut down.

I like to get high every day too, after work I come home and once I feel like my parents or my brother won't come bugging me, I'll light up a couple bowls and bake before I go to sleep, while I watch TV and play my video games. But it's always the addition to the evening, not the evening itself. I'll still have fun watching tv and playing my games regardless. Once I'm back out on my own I plan to see how much of a green thumb I have. My mother likes to garden veggies, I wonder if any of that ability is passed on to me :)

You ever thought about giving yourself a break from it for awhile, to lower your tolerance back down?

Ifrit369
06-27-2007, 10:20 PM
Sounds like you're better off without him.

BwiseLegalize
06-27-2007, 10:28 PM
Hey man times change, some come and go

You'll be fine man, :pimp:

horror business
06-27-2007, 10:56 PM
I'm able to afford it, due to inheritance from my fathers death a few years ago. I'm not in denial about the fact that I find no point in life, and was miserable without the herb to brighten my life.

What I'm saying is, I find it absurd that a friend could turn their back on you, so quickly, when you smoke dramatically less than you used to.

But, like I also said, they must not have been a true friend to begin with.

Yes, I do have an addicting personality, and I have my whole life. I never asked to be put on this earth, and don't enjoy the way the world is. I don't see it changing any time soon, which is why I prefer to enjoy MY life, day by day.

As far as 160 every 2-3 days, yes it's expensive, but it's not my fault, that the world charges so much for something that is free to grow. Which I find absurd. But, oh well.

JeKo
06-28-2007, 12:01 AM
Just because you cut back doesn't mean that you still dont smoke alot. 1/8th a day is a pretty good amount, if you smoke less you will treasure it oh so much more

halo
06-28-2007, 02:03 AM
Dude no offense but I kind of agree with your friend and can understand where he is coming from. I mean, i pretty much smoke daily since its summer now. I usually smoke once or twice a day usually by myself and I am able to make 7 grams last at least 4 weeks if not more. Maybe you should like take a 2 week break from weed and come back to it. That way you won't need as much to get high. I'm sorry if it sounds like i'm raggin on you, i understand your side too. I mean, he shouldn't stop being your friend just cause you smoke a lot. Try and talk to him sometime. Maybe you can work out your differences.

chronicnhash
06-28-2007, 02:27 AM
yeah if i was ur friend id do the same thing u sound like u r fucked in the head:thumbsup:

Nerthus~upinsmoke
06-28-2007, 02:57 AM
Suffering from sever depression, I understand your outlook on life very well. I sometimes wonder if the only reason I never started smoking as much as you do is because of limited availibility. But in the nights I spend sober, laying awake in bed thinking about the horrible state of existance, I am thankful for the few loyal friends I have. This isnt to say that I never doubt thier loyalty, but in the grand scheme of things, it is great to have them there. There will come times when you will, for multiple reasons, not be able to smoke. You just need to learn how to deal with life in those times. Plus, you really will cherish smoking so much more. TALK TO YOUR FRIEND.
On the second hand, get yourself into college and you'll make plenty of new ones with similar mind sets. Dont worry too much, im sure things will straighten themself out some way. Peace.

TheAtomicPunk
06-28-2007, 03:10 AM
Don't worry about the haters on the forums. If you're posting for advice, or possibly hoping that your friend will see your thread since he was once an active member on here, than why listen to these people who live thousands of miles away.

You sound like you're living you life fine for the time being, some friends come and go and the only thing you can do is adapt accordingly. I don't know anything about your friend so I can't really give any advice other than just talk to him and find out what made him change his mind so suddenly. As far as smoking weed in these amounts, what's there to stop you from doing so? If there's no negative resulting from your actions, then their is no reason to cease from doing what you want to do, eh?

horror business
06-28-2007, 04:09 AM
lol, if anything i'm completely sane, not fucked in the head. i see that there is no point in life. it's what we make of it, and if i'm happy with my day to day life, i'm happy in the end.

by the way, that friend came over today unexpectedly to show me his new tattoo, and to say hes just going to slow down on weed and only smoke it once a month. So as you can see, he probably realized he was being psychotic and dillusional after a good nights rest, and came to his senses, because he decided to smoke today, when my two ounces arrived.

I had to settle for two ounces of what turned out to be a piece off of a brick that was full of seeds. At least I have more weed than I would have if I got my amazing weed which I would have only had a half ounce of.

I'll just wait until next week to get that, since I now have two ounces of this stuff to smoke. It gets you high, it's just a pain in the ass to get all of the stems and sticks out.

systemofadown
06-28-2007, 04:28 AM
I'd like to make it clear, that though I left without saying bye or anything, I never once said I would stop being your friend. In fact, you're sitting behind me at my house right now. All I said was I thought it was sad to spend so much on weed, so often, when you COULD be spending it on things that would last forever, 200 for something that will last you a few days is ridiculous when you could spend 200 on something that would last forever. And it sucks that we used to play music and everything but now we can't as a result of you not having any instruments.

horror business
06-28-2007, 04:47 AM
lol, i have a guitar.

systemofadown
06-28-2007, 07:03 AM
lol... that uses my amp, and cord.

Pudge
06-28-2007, 07:21 AM
You are addicted to weed. Congratulations.

I love smoking, but it adds to the joy in my life rather than defining it. I hope you can find happiness and realize that some things are more fulfilling than being high all the time. And when you start finding your own joy without the use of drugs, using them becomes that much more special.

Sounds like your friend feels you're going down a path he doesn't want a part of. Best wishes.