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daZenfmeister
12-27-2004, 10:03 PM
Just because life sucks so much ass? Like for example today:

1. I wake up at a friends house and drive home at 7:00 am this morn. EDIT: I went to sleep at 4:00 am because of my stupid friends watching all 3 exstended versions of LotR with the volume truned up and surroundsound BTW I hate LotR!
2. Get home and find a package filled with the pieces of a hard drive that I ordered online but some dumbfuck packed in a package 2 time as big as it and left the bloody fucking HD LOOSE in it. $65 down the shitter...
3. Get out of shower and dry myself off with a towel that smells worse than I did when I got IN the shower and leaves me smelling likewise.
4. Try to go to McDonalds for lunch omw to work and theres a line about 8 cars long.
5. Finally get to work and get to listen to my dad bitch about everything for two hours, then step in some raw sewage that flooded the backroom of our bookstore
6. Three families enter the store each of them consist of little hyperactive boys/girls between the ages of 3 and 10.
7. After they leave I have to clean up the mess that they made of the store and find that someone ripped several pages out of a $90 book and left it on the floor.
8. Find out that I have a physical therapy apt for my shoulder at 4:00 pm (one hour away) and I'm fucking exausted and spent.
9. I'll probably stumble into a number nine within the next hour......


:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

Rahein
12-27-2004, 10:07 PM
And this makes you want to kill yourself. If you don't like you life packup and move far far away and start over. There is no need to even think about wanted to kill yourself over petty crap like that.

RESiNATE
12-27-2004, 10:09 PM
...still, it could be worse...imagine if you lived in Flagstaff!! :eek:

D'OH!

;)

Look at it like this...when you spark up your joint later, it'll be the sweetest joint you ever had, dude :D

daZenfmeister
12-27-2004, 10:26 PM
Oh yeah did I mention my parents are getting a messy divorce, my dads on the border of killing my mom and I extremly depressed......hehe but I would never kill myself I just like all the attention from saying that I will :P j/k about that too....




Anyways I can't spark a j if I wanted to im goin to a hola 2 party tonight will all my nerd friends and if they find out im high i don't think they'll like me anymore....

daZenfmeister
12-27-2004, 10:27 PM
lolo i meants to say halo 2

daZenfmeister
12-27-2004, 10:28 PM
fuck its getting busy in the store now i hate this job! my last paycheck was $60.75 AND THA^T WAS MY XMAS PAYCHECK!!!!

Rahein
12-27-2004, 10:33 PM
How many hours where on that check? I would look for a new job.

RESiNATE
12-27-2004, 11:15 PM
Ah, DaZen...you have no sense of adventure...lol...

I can't spark a j if I wanted to im goin to a hola 2 party tonight will all my nerd friends and if they find out im high i don't think they'll like me anymore....

All the more reason to get blazed, dude...the paranioa would be funny as fuck :D
I love doing that kinda stuff...lol...the things I've done whilst stoned, when it really wasn't a good idea to be stoned...
Like, my wedding (absolutely bolloxed lol)...job interviews...court appearances...shopping lol

Trying not to giggle uncontrollably, for no apparent reason, is the best fun :D

But hey, maybe it's because I'm twisted, eh? :rolleyes:

reallybaked
12-27-2004, 11:22 PM
Anyways I can't spark a j if I wanted to im goin to a hola 2 party tonight will all my nerd friends and if they find out im high i don't think they'll like me anymore....


Dude.......find new friends! :eek: Seriously, if they are really friends, they should accept you for whoever you are and whatever you do. Within reason of course. ;)

Anyway, look at it this way, tomorrow can't get any worse! Right??

Encatuse
12-27-2004, 11:25 PM
I went to a court appearance stoned once. I've never been that scared in my life. ;)

But seriously, those are all lame as fuck reasons to be depressed. Except for your parents getting divorced. I mean imagine if you did kill yourself and your parents said
"WHY!?! WHY WOULD HE/SHE DO THIS DO US?" -reads suicide note-

"He/she killed himself because of a long line at mcdonalds and because he/she smelled bad after a shower? I don't even feel bad anymore."

NowhereMan
12-28-2004, 12:05 AM
I went to a court appearance stoned once. I've never been that scared in my life. ;)

But seriously, those are all lame as fuck reasons to be depressed. Except for your parents getting divorced. I mean imagine if you did kill yourself and your parents said
"WHY!?! WHY WOULD HE/SHE DO THIS DO US?" -reads suicide note-

"He/she killed himself because of a long line at mcdonalds and because he/she smelled bad after a shower? I don't even feel bad anymore."

ive wanted to kill a few stinky people in line at mcd's
but then agian they laws agianst that.
so i just told them to read directions on soap.

to off ones self over lack of fresh towels is a bit extreme
try doing luandry and pass some time
smoke a fat jiont while they go round and round the dryer
add dryer sheets
take shower
then bath
then shower
agian if ya really funky
and nevr put a damp towel up.it will get funky all on its own
make sure they are dry

peace

chrace
12-28-2004, 12:23 AM
Winter and Fall are the toughest seasons. The suicide rates are higher in countries where it is dark alot, like Northen Europe, Denmark for example. Suicide seems very attractive sometimes, I know, but those feelings eventually go away after a bad spell of unpleasent experiences. Like depression and happiness, when your happy, you dont remember what it was like to be depressed and vice versa. When you arent suicidal you dont remember what its like when you were. Its another of those twisted games the human mind plays on you, its completely unavoidable, I just do my best to let these feelings flow while I stand back and let it happen. Commit suicide if you want, as long as you know its just not a rare impulse, if you have these feelings constantly then maybe its a good idea.

Hektik
12-28-2004, 12:45 AM
I've never wanted to kill myself but i have wanted to kill a lot of people.. and how i feel on suicide is if someone says they wanna kill them selfs then they better do it, after all it's there life

NowhereMan
12-28-2004, 01:53 AM
I've never wanted to kill myself but i have wanted to kill a lot of people.. and how i feel on suicide is if someone says they wanna kill them selfs then they better do it, after all it's there life


ok all jokes aside
suicide is some serious shit

its a permanent solution to a temporary problem
its not gonna fix anything
your family your friends or lack there of
nothing but end any chance of it getting better
please
just smoke one and chill and think about better things that will happen later in life
peace

BOgart.bitch
12-28-2004, 04:12 AM
theres never a reason to kill yourself.

what doesnt kill us will only make us stronger.
life is a game and you can only play it once - you can live it fast and dangerously or you can live it at a cautious pace - just dont end it and waste all of the possibilities.

daZenfmeister
12-28-2004, 05:34 AM
Hehe you guys are great, sorry about this post BTW but I actaully have a symptom that my doc refered to as "Suicidal depression" anyways I couldn't reply for so long because of all the damn people coming in to buy books. And well my suicidal feeling subsided into an urge to kill small children........as it usually does..............j/k



Anyways BOgart, I think that death is just another experiance and I too hope to partake in it someday. But hopefully not before I smoke myself stupid...........

RESiNATE
12-28-2004, 09:09 AM
its a permanent solution to a temporary problem
its not gonna fix anything

I'd never thought of it like that, NM...:)

Yup...if I had a penny for everytime that I felt suicidal, then I wouldn't be suicidal - know what I mean?
Life is a game, like BOgart said, and most people play to win.
As a result, some people will be affected by another's 'end-game', and will thus feel hard-done-by.
I would describe myself as 'manic depressive', and as such I face a constant daily battle between suicidal tendancies and a will to suceed :confused:
I use things to help remind me of my triumphs (ie, my kids) and things that make me happy (ie, music and play) - they help to balance out the negativity I feel (ie, human psyche, the way of the world, etc).

Suicide doesn't solve anything - all it does is bring massive heart-ache to those that care about you (of which there are many...believe me).
Whenever my mood gets so dark, I envision the pain that my loved ones would have to endure...I would not want to cause them so much pain :o

There's always tomorrow...or the next day..or the next...
Sometimes, it's just a case of being patient - mostly, it's a case of trying (even) harder to make it work.

I think about my problems, then put them into perspective against other peoples' problems - ie, those poor souls in Asia right now! - and suddenly, my problems are petty indeed.
Sure, I can get extremely depressed and sad about stuff - and I wouldn't want to 'devalue' anybodys issues - but, in the grand scheme of things......

I watched the news last night, and saw a baby boy, wrapped in blankets, being carried by his father. The father was crying as he approached his wife with the body of his only child...the boy had died in the tsunami of Asia.
I thought about the absolute grief that those parents must be going through.
I thought about how I would feel if I were in their situation.

It takes alot to make me cry...but I sobbed as I watched this vision of despair.

I sometimes wonder if we have a right to be depressed...

Res...

DrGonzo
12-28-2004, 09:24 AM
do you have confirmation that there is Halo 2 in the afterlife? because I don't think I'm ready to die if there's no video games waiting for me...or maybe tequila, that'd be OK too.

as to your friends, don't tell them that you're stoned as hell. If they figure it out, and ask you aboot it, act like you don't know what they're talking aboot. Or, simply say "Five dollars? Get outta here!" and walk away mumbling aboot the apocalypse.

Death is boring anyways. The last couple times I've had suicidal thoughts I just wondered, 'is it anything like being unconcious? cause that sucks, you don't even dream' and then I get over it. and usually smoke a joint.

juggalo420
12-28-2004, 12:13 PM
i think most people think about suicide at least once in their lives. i was there i just hated everything, i hated waking up, and hearing how other people have it worse than me that is bullshit even though it may be true it doesnt make a person feel better. what helped me is actually a few things first is dxm(i love it). also finding a hobby helps, as well as evaluating what the pro's and con's of suicide are(even though people may not believe it you do have people in the world who love you) and i wouldnt want to put others through pain becuase i decided to take the easy way out and die.

dog420
12-28-2004, 12:34 PM
i cant underdstand why ppl would do or even think of such a thing.
Life is to short and wonderful to give up and go kill your self for any reason. My kids and wife mean so much to me i could never take my own life, for what eva reason. I think most ppl try to do this to get attention, isay find a diff way to make ur self happy lol.

peace

sawleaf
12-28-2004, 03:10 PM
i cant underdstand why ppl would do or even think of such a thing.
Life is to short and wonderful to give up and go kill your self for any reason. My kids and wife mean so much to me i could never take my own life, for what eva reason. I think most ppl try to do this to get attention, isay find a diff way to make ur self happy lol.

peace

True Dog420, life is way too precious a thing. Just think about all the people who die by accidents and have their lives ended. Their chances and dreams suddenly stopped. And yet we have people who do not see or understand the full value of the life they have and choose to end it. I'm sure anyone of these dead people would love the chance to be alive again, even if they had a shitty life that someone thinks isn't worth living.

robert42
12-28-2004, 03:43 PM
LIFES TO SHORT MAN,

SOMETIMES PEOPLE FEEL THAT YOUR LIFE IS A WARNING TO OTHERS

Ammie
12-29-2004, 05:04 PM
Life is what u make it ur choices and paths u decied whats goin to happen. there are always choices even if u dont think so. And there is always another way if the one ur on aint workin. The hard part is movin on to make the changes.

Lulu
12-29-2004, 05:14 PM
Turn on the news, any news channel any country and you'll realise you're not doing so bad. Things could be worse, everyone's life has some steaming piles of shit ~ wotcha gonna do? Your best to get on with stuff and hope that tomorrow brings a better day. What a difference a day makes..........no one knows. But incase there is no reincarnation and we only get to do this once, it kinda makes sense to give it our best shot. Chin up :)

jones2much
01-14-2005, 11:50 PM
suicide is the UNFORGIVEN SIN.

LilRedDevil
01-14-2005, 11:58 PM
Hey! There is nothing worth killing yourself over! I would urge you to talk to someone! Not just here but in real life. I hope things get better, and if you are feeling really bad about things in your life (we all do) make some changes.

Here is a link to a little girls web site, read this and tell me if you can find anything that makes you realize how wonderfull this world really can be.

Hang in there, you can only go up from here :) http://www.luvforlou.com/ you might have to copy and paste this link to your addy bar.

duppy man
01-15-2005, 12:38 AM
if you have one true freind then you have a reason to live.. and you have a few friends on this site da... we all have times that are low.....I'll project good vibes to you and have another fat one

robert42
01-15-2005, 12:43 AM
dam rite duppyman,

u gta keep ya head up man

if every1 killed them selves when they felt low the world wouldnt exsist.

AFTER THE DARKENSS COMES SUNSHINE!

crystal clear pepsi
01-15-2005, 12:51 AM
" If your really havin doubts of waht you life is all about , Lift you Head up HIGH and Blow your Brains out "

- The Blood Hound Gang -


Just think bout all those little boys gettin theere pecker's played with by michael jackson !!!!!!!!!!!!!! if they can suck it up then u can ..... quit whinin a bitchin ..... suicide is a cowards way out !!!!!!!!

The C
01-15-2005, 01:27 AM
Yeah just live. Continue condoning a world of hate and imorality, down down, feed the machine thats starves your children.. Like it's been for all time, "don't make the sacrifice, i wouldnt" b.s that has caused this shit world. It's YOU, not the corperation who instigated this. The general peoples lack of standards. My lack of standards. That let it get this far.

Yeah these guys. They got the right idea.
Just listen to the people trying to guilt trip you because they don't want to be involved in something so real. Because it makes them feel like shit.

"Sucide is a sin, blah blah", "What about your family". Let the guy do what he wants with his life. If he actually doesnt want to condone immorality and protest all the bullshit people allow to happen to others, then let him. Don't try to coerce him.
Live for yourself or die for yourself. Though you may want them to understand what your doing... Putting a standard in this world. Your standard, and don't let anyone try to belittle your standards.

A perminant solution to a temporary problem? These are the people, martrys in there own way. Saying this life isnt good enough for me. The so called mornours, if they truely knew you they'd understand. If they didnt, they obviosly didnt know enough about you to understand what you did was the most moral thing a person can do. Then what kind of family are they?
Say this is enough.

The ignorence everywhere:
Push push push, fight fight fight, there can always be worse. Hey we'll goudge out yoru eyes out, brain wash ya. GUILT GUILT GUILT. Shame one you, what about your family, what about your friends. What about us? We not killing ourselves. Ohh ohh we cant think this way, lets shame the guy. Shame this ultimatum.

No, if life not good enough for you to live, by all means, threaten the "machine" from within.
Mabe even convince some of the hypocrites around, that life isnt about "Fighting to preserve life at all costs". It can be about morality and standards. All these coaxing people are the reason the world has fell into place the way it is, the poeple to complacent do do anything about anything. You cany have slave labour if all the slaves had commited the ultimate sacrifice, for morality, or whatever. You cant take advantage of whats not there.

It's about how you feel. People don't like hearing about suicide.

Though im not suggesting you kill yourself, in my opinion it is a waste of potential. Which will most likely be wasted by this socitey anyhow.

But what i can say on a non- suicide note is, if you care abotu standards, and you think killing yoruself isnt the asnwer. Fight the machine in you own way. Even if it's just educating a buddy on another perspective. The more real educateion gets around, the more powerful a people we are. My advice, fight.
It's what im doing. But im ftrying ta fight for myself. Not for you, not for the government, i'll fight for those i hold close, and what i hold close. Thats a reflection of me. And after all who shoul i be living for?

Just a thought.

Will I be banned for this? I hope not. But if so, be it as it may, this is me, my perspective, and i do feel insulted by everyoen shameing this guy. Because in what littel we knew, i can parallel his way of thinking.

Mello.as.Hello
01-16-2005, 12:01 AM
...still, it could be worse...imagine if you lived in Flagstaff!! :eek:

D'OH!

;)



ouch.

psychocat
01-16-2005, 02:07 AM
Just because life sucks so much ass? Like for example today:

1. I wake up at a friends house and drive home at 7:00 am this morn. EDIT: I went to sleep at 4:00 am because of my stupid friends watching all 3 exstended versions of LotR with the volume truned up and surroundsound BTW I hate LotR!
2. Get home and find a package filled with the pieces of a hard drive that I ordered online but some dumbfuck packed in a package 2 time as big as it and left the bloody fucking HD LOOSE in it. $65 down the shitter...
3. Get out of shower and dry myself off with a towel that smells worse than I did when I got IN the shower and leaves me smelling likewise.
4. Try to go to McDonalds for lunch omw to work and theres a line about 8 cars long.
5. Finally get to work and get to listen to my dad bitch about everything for two hours, then step in some raw sewage that flooded the backroom of our bookstore
6. Three families enter the store each of them consist of little hyperactive boys/girls between the ages of 3 and 10.
7. After they leave I have to clean up the mess that they made of the store and find that someone ripped several pages out of a $90 book and left it on the floor.
8. Find out that I have a physical therapy apt for my shoulder at 4:00 pm (one hour away) and I'm fucking exausted and spent.
9. I'll probably stumble into a number nine within the next hour......


:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

Is that all ???
Jeeezzz you fucking wimp.
I have a sis with Rhuematoid Arthritis doesn't bitch like you and she's lived with it for 30 years, get a fucking grip dude.
WTF would you do if you had some real friggin problems ??
Mommy obviously wiped your ass for far too long.


PS I never ever think of topping myself but I could easily kill a whinging cunt like you!!

Hope I wasn't too hard on you , LMAO.

The C
01-16-2005, 05:26 AM
Wow big man pshcyho cat. Hope your proud of yourself. Pick at the guy at a weak moment, big man you are.

poorman3
01-16-2005, 05:45 AM
hope your not as old as this thread. git er dun!!!

psychocat
01-16-2005, 07:59 PM
Wow big man pshcyho cat. Hope your proud of yourself. Pick at the guy at a weak moment, big man you are.

6'2" but how my height influences anything I fail to see ?
Picking on him at a weak moment ?? Nah just amazed at how little it takes to upset some folk.
Proud for speaking my mind ?? Nope it comes naturaly.
My opinion that's all.
Did my honesty upset your delicate balance??

TOUGH !!

juggalo420
01-16-2005, 11:42 PM
suicide is the UNFORGIVEN SIN.
i thought it was masterbation