i woke up, and i am dying

[xblackdogx]

i am dying
why can i not remember this?
i feel like somedays i waste life doing things to perpetuate myself into this system called society
why am i trying?
i'm DYING, why can i not remember this?
but if i left what i know, where would i go? where would home be?
right on the sea, the stars and me





do you think that if you told yourself every morning that you were dying, that you/me wouldn't take life for granted?

xblackdogx Reviewed by xblackdogx on 03-13-2007. i woke up, and i am dying i am dying why can i not remember this? i feel like somedays i waste life doing things to perpetuate myself into this system called society why am i trying? i'm DYING, why can i not remember this? but if i left what i know, where would i go? where would home be? right on the sea, the stars and me Rating: 5

[BobBong]

You're dying before you're even born.

Without death, there is no life.

[Plastic Jesus]

I think there is a name for that... oh yeah... depression. Nah, it's not really something I dwell on. Enjoy LIFE, don't focus on death. If today, and tomorrow aren't the "best" times of your life, then change, don't dwell on the fact you're just gonna die, that's weak.

[iwantFUEGO]

Do the math... we only have somewhere around 20,000 days of precious life...

Why waste one of those days by not being TOTALLY happy...?

[xblackdogx]

I think there is a name for that... oh yeah... depression. Nah, it's not really something I dwell on. Enjoy LIFE, don't focus on death. If today, and tomorrow aren't the "best" times of your life, then change, don't dwell on the fact you're just gonna die, that's weak.

i want to change my life, but it's not simple when you have college loans, and 2 more years of college left. i feel like i'm not progressing to where i want to be, and all this time i am spending NOW seem like a distraction to some of my main goals to happiness.
and i'm not dwelling on death. i am using its concept (we are progressively dying) as a realization

[Skrappie]

i feel like i'm not progressing to where i want to be, and all this time i am spending NOW seem like a distraction to some of my main goals to happiness.
and i'm not dwelling on death. i am using its concept (we are progressively dying) as a realization

I read this post because thats what i felt like when i woke up this morning. Death, I got a stomach virus, and feel like shit.


anyway, I understand what you are saying, but everyday is progress to another, if you decide to take it as such. Otherwise you are just living one of those 20,000 days in idle.

Pay attention and absorb the information in every class. You never know when a silly bit of class with help you in the future. I've been suprised by how much 'useless information' i have used on jobs and in conversation. learn learn learn.

Take every interaction with anyone you meet as serious as you can. This is just like class, except this class will allow you to learn how other people work and think. This class doent give you any credits, but will allow you to navagate in any social enviorment better then ever(work, school, bars, whatever) plus you never know what someone could say to you that can spark a total change in direction for your life.
Remember you have the power to change your life at anysecond. You are who you are because of your enviorment, you are who you are tomorrow because you can decide to be. When you have an idea, lets say working out daily, you can acomplish that idea if you really decide to. Society and culture are both prisions. Although you may be trapped in a rat race, your mind is still free as long as you allow it to be.

blackdog, in what ways do you want to change your life?

[Weedhound]

The world is absolutely STUFFED with different things to learn and do. We are so lucky these days to have internet access and mountains of information at our fingertips. Use it. There's ALOT more out there than you think.!!

[xblackdogx]

I read this post because thats what i felt like when i woke up this morning. Death, I got a stomach virus, and feel like shit.

that sucks, i hope you feel better soon. are you cleaning out your system?

anyway, I understand what you are saying, but everyday is progress to another, if you decide to take it as such. Otherwise you are just living one of those 20,000 days in idle.

yeah, this is exactly how i view it. but what if you had only 14,000 days. Either way, some days i feel that the things i am doing that day in order to secure the future, is not progressing to where i want to be at the end of my life. AND what if it is as soon as 14,000 days

Pay attention and absorb the information in every class. You never know when a silly bit of class with help you in the future. I've been suprised by how much 'useless information' i have used on jobs and in conversation. learn learn learn.

i take this comment, toungue in cheek. i feel the education system deletes alot of knowledge from discussion intentionally. i am forced to memorize and regurgitate cherrypicked history while struggling to finding my own truth about this world through self-education.

Take every interaction with anyone you meet as serious as you can. This is just like class, except this class will allow you to learn how other people work and think. This class doent give you any credits, but will allow you to navagate in any social enviorment better then ever(work, school, bars, whatever) plus you never know what someone could say to you that can spark a total change in direction for your life.
Remember you have the power to change your life at anysecond. You are who you are because of your enviorment, you are who you are tomorrow because you can decide to be. When you have an idea, lets say working out daily, you can acomplish that idea if you really decide to. Society and culture are both prisions. Although you may be trapped in a rat race, your mind is still free as long as you allow it to be.

blackdog, in what ways do you want to change your life?

1. take a break from college
2. move to another country (south america, maybe europe)
3. work and/or invest money in real estate
4. throughout this time^^ work for social issues in the country i am living in
5. hopefully in 1-3 years i will have saved enough money.. and will be generating income from the real estate to purchase either more land/housing
6. if i cannot purchase more housing, the rent money from the real estate along w/ a part time job and savings will be able to support me while i finish my last 2 years of business school
7. after business school, i want to work for gov't institutions and/or grassroots organizations to achieve social justice in the part of the world i am living in and upon that

basically, i just feel like i need a break from school to learn about myself and the world. but i get loans from the government and if i get outta school for 6 months or more, I have to start paying them, holding back my funds for investing. not to mention the idea of me taking a break from college would be very unpleasing to my parents and my mom, who helps me w/ some of my school bills would not help me out if i did this.... i have things to look forward to with the road i'm headed but i don't know if this is the best decision for how i could be spending my DAYs

[Coelho]

well... i think is a common mistake to think as some poeple said "you have some 20000 days"... who knows? Death is stalking everybody. Graveyards have not only old people, you know. Every one of us can drop dead any moment. I have nothing to ensure me i will ever finish to write this post. Any thing we do can be our last act on this earth. Remember it, and act accordingly.
When youre in a bad day, think "this day may be my last one. would i like to waste it feeling bad?" or, in the words of Don Juan:

"Death is the only wise adviser that we have. Whenever you feel, as you always do, that everything is going wrong and you're about to be annihilated, turn to your death and ask if that is so. Your death will tell you that you're wrong. That nothing really matters outside its touch. Your death will tell you, 'I haven't touched you yet'." (Journey to Ixtlan, by Carlos Castaneda)

[Weedhound]

I have to agree that slogging through day to day crap can be pretty harsh sometimes.