To Slipknotpsycho: Try and see the bigger picture. If you live in a developed country, regardless of how poor you are or how hard your life has been, you have it better than 75% of the people in the world (probably more). You're never going to be happy if you feel sorry for yourself. Happiness is learning to appreciate the little good things that happen every day, instead of blaming some being who doesn't control what anyone does, or the universe, or whatever, for all the bad things that have happened. Try feeling sorry for kids in Africa who have no parents, no food, no shelter, and are slowly dying of AIDS. Try feeling sorry for the women who are forced into prostitution and beaten and raped on a daily basis. Try feeling sorry for child soldiers. Try feeling sorry for parents in South America who are so starved and poor and desperate that they have to leave their children and get beaten, raped, and risk death or injury just to come to America, work 3 jobs, live in a studio with 3 other people and send money back to their children. The world can be a nasty place, and you haven't even scratched the surface. Get over yourself.

And no, I'm not a Christian, I don't believe in an all-knowing, all-loving, all-wise God who's supposed to hold our hands through every step we take in life. I'm a Pagan, and I believe God is found in nature and that the divine is so far beyond us, when we try and describe God, or say "this is what God wants" we humanize and limit God.

Anyway, to the question, I would ask God, "What's the meaning of my existance?"