shes an amazing mom because she is always there for me. but as a person she is shit. utter complete shit. she is absolutely closed off to any and all of my thoughts, im sure because she doesnt like what i have to say. what i have to say to her is constructive criticism, but she is to blinded by anger and delusions of respect and age to see that. she takes humongous offense to anything i have to say that is negative about her and she should try to change. she becomes shut off to me and her anger builds up and up and up until she explodes in a screaming rage (which doent take very long, a few minutes at the most)
i try to explain she has my unconditional respect as a mother, for always being there to care for me. and i tried to explain how she doesnt yet have my full, conditional respect until shes willing to make some changes. i even pointed out to her that if she was willing to make some changes for me, i could make some for her. she raged when she heard that and slammed doors in my face and stuff. of course i couldnt give up on her though, shes my mom! and i know she needs my help, i can see it as clear as day that she has alot of issues going on that she is in total denial of. i just want her to be happy and she wont let me!
like i said, all of my advice is just insults from me trying to bring her down. i tried so many ways, every way i could think of at the time to explain to her how i felt and how we would both be so much happier if she relieved herself of these constrictions of her mind and allowed herself to be open with me and me with her. of course, she just took offence..

i dont know what the point of this is except that i desperately need to vent
what the hell can i do??

by the way i just adore how my dad comes in and tells me "you should be absolutely ashamed of yourself, thats all i have to say"

i just cant see from her perspective, i understand it though and i see how she works clearly i think. but her view is totally alien to me, she believes in control..
what the fuck is up with them? all i can do is wrong, my mom even told me she hated me and that she doesnt deserve to have such a fuckup son.\
what the HELL can i do?
MagicalHerb Reviewed by MagicalHerb on . Having a hard time with my mom shes an amazing mom because she is always there for me. but as a person she is shit. utter complete shit. she is absolutely closed off to any and all of my thoughts, im sure because she doesnt like what i have to say. what i have to say to her is constructive criticism, but she is to blinded by anger and delusions of respect and age to see that. she takes humongous offense to anything i have to say that is negative about her and she should try to change. she becomes shut off to me and her anger Rating: 5