I guess there's a chain of events that will forever change the rest of my life. I'm still going through the changes, but 2006 is a year of great joy, and deep sadness, but this is the year I discovered what it's means to really suffer, and finding gratitude of how life is wonderful and precious.

It all started back with falling back in love with my ex-wife, who has a deep impact on who I am. There is no other woman that knows me better than I know myself, and probably will never find another like that. After about 4 months, we parted ways. The things she said, it foreshadowed things to come, in a way, became true. I headed on a destructive path of partying, and stop looking at anyway to move forward in life, By then lost a clear view on life through doing too many psychedelics. I quit going to school, my work-ethic at work started to deteriorate. I started getting consumed by issues that weren't important.

The 2nd event was getting arrested in another state for poss. of marijuana and cocaine with a couple of friends and my brother. It couldn't come at a worse time since I needed my clearance for my job renewed. About 3 weeks later, the government found out about my charges because I forced to admit them filling out the form, and escorted me out of the building. My company put me on administrative leave without pay, which I thank god everyday or I would've been screwed because of what happens next.

I find out I have cancer a month later. Living through it, chemotherapy, spending all this time recovering gives me a newfound appreciation on life. I discovered peace in myself, and has given me an optimistic outlook on life. I stopped doing other drugs, just sticking to the ganja. It has given me an idea of where I want to go next, when all this is over, I'm going to find a way to help others, to make a difference even if it's a small one. Some way, some how, that's my direction.