az666...the answers are within you.

If you feel that religion will give you the answers that you seek, then that is the answer.

No one else can tell you what is best for you.

Death is nothing to be afraid of...but it's not your time.
You have things that are yet undone, experiences that are still to be discovered.
I have met with the Grim Reaper, and the experience was unlike anything that I have felt before..not fear, not happiness..just...I dunno - it's hard to describe...a sense of overwhelming calm and acceptence...but it wasn't my time....

This might interest you...but remain openminded - the truth you seek, can only come from within - http://www.humantruth.org/basebook.htm

Find yourself, before you begin to look for anyone/anything else
Res...