Hey Cheech I do not want to stop on any toes, but I have read your past posts on this board, but I think you really need to take a look at yourself in the mirror and stop fucking up your life. Every other posts seems like your getting in deeper and deeper trouble. You seem like a nice girl, but you keep making dumb decisions. And you say this is a "growing" experience. Your growing experience might end you up in jail in some kind of harm eventually. Try to make new friends talk to someone your really trust, hell if you need to talk to a counseler if you really need to......