Pretty Girl,

No matter how good or worthy a person you are, you'll be able to find plenty of those who will want to tell you otherwise and make you feel less than acceptable. Remember that guy they nailed to a cross? You have but one obligation; to develop your potential. We're dealing with opinions here, and like assholes, everybody has one. If you have too low a self esteem, you're at the mercy of anyone who wants to hurt you with unkind words & deeds. If your self esteem is too high, then you'll probably come across as a boorish ass who nobody can stand to be around. The secret to life is balance.

I've got a hunch you've been told way too much that you're inadequate; too fat, too thin, too blonde, or whatever. Understand that the world is a hostile place, in reality, and that your best hope of a rewarding life is through strength, understanding, and self discipline. Do you know the principle behind martial arts such as judo? It's simple; your strength against your opponents weakness. Another guess is that you're leading with your face; stop it.

I'm new here, but I've already picked up that you're a creative person. Do you realize that in the entertainment business image and egocentricity are the main factors, with talent a distant 3rd place, in this society? A thick skin is an essential requirement.

Diatribe is almost over. I'm also advising that you actually listen. Amid all the insults there's often a clue to how you can improve yourself, even if it's only to shut someone up sometimes. Just don't take people too seriously, they're as insecure as you are, they just don't want to admit it.

Get out of the attic and experience life. I think you'll find that the more you accomplish and experience, the more confident you'll be.

Good luck.

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