Ammie, Hey babe,dont let that shit get you down ,it s the way we all may feel at some point in our life,I rely on my faith and my strong will to get me through and at some point ,everything in your life will start to seem much clearerand you will understand that lifes just a carnival,enjoy the ride,and when you get to scared rely on your faith,and take a break ,do something for someone you dont know someone that could really use a hand,and you will feel better after you do,but just remember you are very important in this equation,and to flourish you must move foward and not stay idle.well,im not all knowing,i just feel a deep concern for you.Stay focused,everything will get better.Im sure.