Quote Originally Posted by RESiNATE
Depression is a state of mind..and if you knew the state of my mind, you'd be depressed....'cos I am...

Yeah, life is.....init

I cling to my responsibilty to my children...it is/they are my life-line...I look forward to the weekends...it's when they are with me..they remind me that there is something worth sticking around for..I love them more than life
yea, i know what you mean...I know that im only 16 and all and you guys probably think im crazy but..i've always wanted a little sister..like my whole life and my mom cant have anymore children..my mom still has a christmas list i made when i was little, i had baby sister on it!(#1) but anyway(long story short), this friend of my family was going through some rough times and had no place to stay so we offered her to live with us, and she did for like a year or two. while she was with us, she discovered that she was pregnant,(she's not the mother type, shes had 5 kids and doesnt have any of them),she didnt want the baby so she was going to abort it, and wqe all said"Fuck no your not, we'll help you, we'll take her if we have to" so in the end we ended up adopting her, me and my family have been with her pretty much since she was conceived, so shes kindof like her own, i was 13 or 14 when she was born, 14. i went in the delivery room and OMG i swore i'd never have kids, but i was the first one to hold her, it was weird it was like the docter knew that the baby was going to be ours, they cleaned her up and handed her straight to me..ever since, I've been nothing but a mother to her(well a sister too) but i feel like she is my own, its so weird. I love that baby more than my life itself, I live for her! She means so much to me! I dont know what i'd do without her!
She has definately changed my mind about children, but i also know that i am going to wait until i know im ready and im with the right person...its not easy raing a child! but i couldnt be happier knowing that i was a big part in it!


sorry, i just thought i would share that!