Yeps, Ammie....
Like Koshea said, I think you just described 99% of this board, my love

I was driving to work the other day, I had this feeling in me that I wanted to just pull over, and absolutely break down into a fit of tears...but, I knew that I couldn't cry.
A feeling of complete and utter despair...hopelessness and self-pity.
Then, when I got to work, I was cracking jokes and stuff...

..the masks we wear, init

Ditto to everything you said...

*Res hugs Ammie*