do cheer up ammie you seem like a very nice person with a strong brain. now all you have to do is put it to use and make your surroundings fit your needs as best you can.
im not promising perfection life is always full of troubles and grief. and a bit of advice
ive been diagnosed clinically depressed since i way 6 and the only thing that makes it better are dank weed and my best friends and some good tunes but unfortunately we cant all just stay fucked up all the time so i have found the if you keep yourself doing something all the time you feel much better about everything. so if your not in school or are unemployed just go do something about it . i promise that you will feel better.
given that you are already not in school or working
im kind of fucked up right now so im having trouble getting my point across i hope you can make sense of all this and i hope you feel better