yeah hard to read but

i think either you did pcp...super powerful bud...your tol is mad low although in the part where you were passing a ton of bowls around before the angels and demons section...you probably seriously overdid it...

im bipolar and weed fucked me up in a different way ever since i started taking my medications...but alcohol doesnt..alcohol is the same...

if youre a depressive individual, dont overindulge in substances..

take a small small hit and exhale quickly...know the quality of the stuff you are smoking...because something tells me the stuff you had/described is beast..

take a small small hit and wait 10-20 mins...then do more...repeat this until you have a comfortable high...dont smoke to the point you are incoherent having schizophrenic thoughts...overtly paranoid...laughing till crying...watch out for mood swings...some bipolar people are more depressive than manic...

ive been hospitalized 3 times...you may be bipolar and need a mood stabilizer...i remember one occasion i was reading lyrics to the grateful dead and i started crying hard...

be careful and be aware of how you feel...

gl in the future