the funny thing is... if i had a weed connection, i couldn't give a fuck about alcohol... alcohol is just the available alternative to me... i may be weak, but if i don' thave something, i end up thinking about getting fucked up all day... >.< eventually i start asking to borrow money and what not just to get alcohol, which makes me even sicker with myself... cuz i would never ask to borrow money to keep my weed habbit up... but when it comes to nothing... it's like fuck.. i can't take this.. "can i borrow a few bucks" >.< lately, i've been trying to find something i'm banned from talking about here.. (i wish i wasn't, cuz it'd make things alot easier and less paranoid...)