need advice on a girl baddly!!!

[potsmokingnome]

background

i dated this girl for maybe 4-5 months, before we dated she pretty much used me for sex, seriously i didn't even want to she would put me in a position where i could not say no. shes kind of crazy like diagnosed with bipolar disorder but i still loved her and liked being with her, rather than just the sex, her not so much at the beginning that is.

well she lied to me A LOT. cheated on me actually, she told me at the end of the relationship i tried getting over it but i couldn't find myself able too. i was really shaken up about it. i tried being the best boyfriend i could even with the lying and usually made fun of me for anything i did. Always said i sucked at music and mind that music is my main goal in life.

I couldn't even say hi to a girl without getting it shoved in my face by her and bitched at her. Everyone gets jealous i understand, but it was what she did that made me mad, she would talk to other guys infront of me, hug every guy she saw before i even got one. Would call ex-boyfriends and be on the phone with them for 30 minutes right in front of me while i just sat there and had to listen.

so i eventually broke up with her maybe 4 weeks ago. this was absolute hell i will say. ( i sit next to her in 4 classes) for a week straight she would cry through out the entire day and plead for me to take her back. i just wouldn't. About a week or two after she started calling me while having sex with other guys and shes really into harder drugs now, opium, acid, shrooms, cocaine, not to much harder but when she goes out everyday to do them than yes.

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this is where i need advice,
she is in the hospital now for depression because of me, thats how broken up she is about it still. I feel awful undescrible never felt soo bad in my life. She called me and told me that i was the reason she was there and i was the reason she no longer goes to school and shes never hated someone so badly.

I dont know what to do like i cant just break away from her... ive tried

Quite frankly this is not your fault at all, and i totally agree with everyone else, you have to break yourself free from her. Cause nothing good will come of you going back to her out of guilt and pity. She needs to improve and better herself, and deal with herself, and she can't do that with you around. or try being just her friend, but that only ussually works if its a mutual break up. which your situation wasn't so break yourself free.

[potsmokingnome]

a few days ago last bell of the day study hall which we use to have together before i switched she called her friend in front of me and was trying to find a bunch of people under 18 to kick my ass and "i want to be there when it happens so i can go up and kick him in the face while hes on the ground" word for word of what she said.
than she lied to me and said she wasnt talking about me... with an evil ass grin on her face....
she eventually came out with the truth and told me that the phone call was about me...

im so sick of her shit!!

fucking crazy ass, i now never leave my house with out my buck.

never leave your hose without your buck???

[slipknotpsycho]

never leave your hose without your buck???

what didn't you understand? lol...

btw, he said house not hose...


http://www.thebladeshop.com/ProductImages/buck/119.jpg

the most basic and widely owned buck... even owned one myself... then my dumbass uncle decided it was a good knife to start throwing around (that shit is FAR from a throwing knife WAY TOO MUCH WEIGHT) broke the fuckin tip off... so i ended up throwing it away....

believe it or not i used to carry that knife on my belt at about... 12? the blade alone is nearly 6 inches... far from legal...

[JeenYuss]

similar situation(s)
ex: "lizzy" whom will now be known as "subject-L"
ex: "aleigha" whom will now be known as "subject-A"
ex: "krystal" now "subject-K"

subject-L and i dated casually or whatever hung out for several months had a decent relationship an shit but i got locked up and when i got out she had another man and i was clownin wit other females etc. so we kind of grew apart that way but to this day shes still one of my closest friends

never gotten over me, tries to get with me every chance possible

i asked subject-a out an we talked on tha phone, texted etc. for like a week an a half, we never had ANYTHING physical i never so much as kissed the girl, so she hears rumors of me cheating on her with subject-k and dumps me, very very very regrettable decision, and to this day she still tells me it was one of her worst decisions of her life

so anyways basically same thing on a worse scale she got depressed and trippin over me, affected really badly emotionally, gave up on men/dating for a few months, etc.

now shes mostly over me and moved on and is also one of my closest female friends

after subject-a and i broke up i got with subject-k and we mainly just drank and fucked a lot for maybe 4-5 months, somehow fell in love but this time it was both ways instead of one-way

broke up with her yesterday because of heavy use of white nasal narcotics

contemplating going back to subject-L

the twist: she's pregnant with that other dudes baby

im 100% sure that as soon as subject-k can get her nose clean(pun intended ) we will get back together (we both are very clear on how much we are in love with each other and want to spend our lives together)

so basically the moral of the story: no matter how much you love them theres a point where you have not much choice but to let them go, and if you dont love them and they love you, it's healthier to just let them go

hope this was helpful:rastasmoke:

[Genuine17]

i think its completely over now... she texted me saying she finally understands that im not going to go back out with her and shes gonna try to make it through...

[Samwhore]

i think its completely over now... she texted me saying she finally understands that im not going to go back out with her and shes gonna try to make it through...

you got her out of your life, now you can start living it:thumbsup:

[Genuine17]

you got her out of your life, now you can start living it:thumbsup:

yeah somewhere between last nights trip :hippy: and having her yell at me today i finally told her to fuck off and never talk to me.

[Jizzle Blizzle420]

shes crazy, it doesnt have nething to do with you, shes trying to hurt you, fuck her dont worry about it.

[slipknotpsycho]

what reason did you have to cary one of those at 12? lol. i'm interested

no reason.... just to do it lol... although... it did come in pretty hand when a couple of bullies would wanna try and start some shit... it's amazing the fear something like that can really put in a person (it is big ass knife lol)

"hey kid, give me your bike"
no?
"i wasn't asking you"

~unbuttons sheath and pulls out knife~

bullies friend: forget it man lets just go..

true story too.. i guess the bike wasn't special enough for them to find out if i was prepared to use that knife... which, i can honestly tell you i would have... lol i wouldn't of just stood around watching some kid ride off on my bike that's for sure.

[mackSwell]

Good.