and its like, when i dont smoke i cant eat very well.

and that leads to my stomache hurting, then when i go out(rarely) my social anxiety has led me to puke on some occasions, never in front of people but in the bathroom--- i remember being normal, and i honestly miss it--idk what the fuck happened

sometimes i link my unhappyness to my mom, who is sooo nice during the day, then a raging drunken bitch at night smoking cig after cig, and shes 53--im very worried about her health
UMrocksmysocks Reviewed by UMrocksmysocks on . i have no clue why im posting this, i gotta get it off my chest tho- even if its to people i will never meet.. my dads got ups and downs with depression, i was said to get it maybe... well right now i could start crying for no reason... i cant stop thinking about the future, i dont know what to do or how im even going to do it, or get out of my parents place for that matter.. i didnt graduate high school, im almost 20 and im fuckin scared, scared of going insane cuz i can feel myself slipping.. thoughts of Rating: 5