ya, ive thought about it, but ive also thought maybe im just really fucked up in the head.. i was a pretty popular guy in high school, pretty good looking i'd say. then i started smokin weed hardcore sophmore year. my grades already sucked so i started failing everything. junior year i got 1.5 credits all year(only passed 3 courses all year)

idk when i became so obsessed about how i look, but now when i look in the mirror im ashamed. my teeth look bad in my opinion, and my left eye is a little lower than my right, never used to be-- cuz the amount of weed ive smoked and just sitting around..

in the last couple months its gotten so bad that ill just sit at my house by myself... all day.. and smoke by myself--- like today

my friends will call me but ill blow them off becuase i get the feeling they are using me to smoke at my house, but then i let them over cuz im depressed and they make me feel like shit.. but its in my head because i think im picking up on vibes.. like- 'he looks like a crackhead' and shit like that
UMrocksmysocks Reviewed by UMrocksmysocks on . i have no clue why im posting this, i gotta get it off my chest tho- even if its to people i will never meet.. my dads got ups and downs with depression, i was said to get it maybe... well right now i could start crying for no reason... i cant stop thinking about the future, i dont know what to do or how im even going to do it, or get out of my parents place for that matter.. i didnt graduate high school, im almost 20 and im fuckin scared, scared of going insane cuz i can feel myself slipping.. thoughts of Rating: 5