i have no clue

[Skink]

Dude relax... just work on it slow and go see the Doc... sometimes life can look like shit to me but,,, luckily I got a good sense of humor...

[thCA livin]

You seem to lack interpersonal skills/Social life.
Why not give it a shot? You have nothing to lose. We live once and you cant let yourself live it the lazy way.
Let me guess... You smoke all day everyday and sometimes it seems the day just goes by too fast..?

[JeenYuss]

i know how you feel it happened to me when i was on adderall for like a week didnt eat anything, didnt sleep, didnt even go out or anything just sat around thinking

the main thing i realized is:

THERE IS NO POINT TO LIFE

after i ate, slept, and smoked me a bowl i realized another important thing:

I DONT GIVE A FUCK:rastasmoke:

[Mean Green Charlene]

Start with getting your GED..then maybe some type of job? That could lead to co-workers becoming friends, and meeting some of their friends..
it'll all start rolling once you give it a push.

[dusto2k3]

Yeah UMrockmysocks, for sure, get you gED, that will make you feel a hell of a lot better. You feel the best when you accomplish something for yourself. Start by setting small goals, like im not smoking for a week, or something smaller. Anyone can start things, but few will finish. Where do you want to be?

[Bong30]

Start with getting your GED..then maybe some type of job? That could lead to co-workers becoming friends, and meeting some of their friends..
it'll all start rolling once you give it a push.

One step at a time like MGC says, Get your ged, Get a job you like, go work out....get some exercise, get a hobby..... youll be allright.

[geonagual]

Please...Before you conquer the world...Go to the bathroom and brush those fangs. You NEED to take care of your teeth. Good luck man, just pull up your pants, put your head down (for now) and get some stuff done.

[affasd]

I'm in kind of a similar situation, dropped out of high school two yrs ago but im actually almost done gettin my GED now(im 18 btw). I also hav bad social anxiety to, and right now i pretty much sit at home playing computer games smoking weed. I have no idea what im gonna do either casue i have done nothing for 2 years, and i cant hold a job anywhere cause of the anxiety and also im lazy as shit. O well, at least I have weed

[Nochowderforyou]

Go see a doctor.

I didn't graduate HS until I was 22. At that time, I couldn't even go to a public school anymore as I was too old, but for years, I had the same thoughts. Will I be able to support myself, will I end up alone, will I be happy or sad working this job? You know. You get the same pattern of thoughts that run through your mind non-stop, and after awhile, those thoughts lead to depression.

You could have gotten your dads depression. I got mine from my mom as it runs in the family, so I would suggest go seeing a doctor.

If he prescribes you any kind of medication after only 1 or 2 visits, go see a different doctor. It takes time and lots of talking to determine what kind of meds. you should be on. Too many doctors hand out these pills like candy after 1 or visits, and that is not near enough time to do a full diagnoses.

Some people have the opposite reaction when put on some meds. and that can lead to harming themselves. So find a doctor, a real doctor, that is willing to take some time to find out what kind of meds. you should be on.

It sounds like you have some mild depression though. Make some lifestyle changes to help yourself as well. A pill alone won't do the job. It takes change from yourself along with medication to feel better.

Consider finishing school. That's a first step.

[Storm Crow]

Ok I'll try it again- I lost the first post, but here we go again!

(1) No one's face is symetrical! Cut any photo in half and hold it up to a mirror. Looks like 2 different people. Usually it is girls who have this problem, but seeing your physical faults as being hugely magnified is not that uncommon. Lighten up! Anyone who judges you on just physical appearance is likely not worth having as a friend!

(2) Mom is hitting menopause (sorry if it grosses you out). She is feeling insecure and less of a woman. Dad is depressed and that isn't helping her at all. Their sex life is likely ziltch (again sorry, but parents do have sex or you wouldn't be here). She is keeping a "brave face" during the day, but slips at night when she is tried. Try doing little nice things for her and she may do a bit better. (Make dinner for her, wash dishes, buy her a single rose for no reason, compliment her on something, tell her you love her- just little stuff) You might tell her that Granny says that hot flashes are made way worse by drinking (I'm 59 and know!) And smoking gives you facial lines.

(3) GET THAT GED! You don't have a chance without one! My eldest son has a GED and works with computers at a school. You CAN make it with just a GED, but it won't be easy! Go back and get your diploma if possible.

(4) GET SOME HELP! A good buddy, a school counselor, the mental health clinic or a doctor is needed here. Talk it out.

(5) Get stoned and make a list of "to do's". I have a touch of bipolar (my Mom was really bipolar, as well as suicidal and alcoholic- so I know how your home life must be- been there, survived that!). Having a list helps keep you on track. Have both big and small things on the list. Try to get at least 1 big and 2 smalls done each day. I think your first "biggie" should be "how and where do I get that GED"? Mine for yesterday was "do income tax" (something I hate doing) plus I did the wash and the dishes. 3 things off my list and I reward myself with a toke. It also gives you a visible way to keep track progress in your daily life. When you are depressed, even if you are doing things, you tend to "lose" the fact that you are getting things done. A marked off list validates that things are getting done.

(6) Take care of yourself! Depression is linked to a lack of exercise, poor nutrition (especially lack of "B" vitamins), boredom, and not enough sunlight. Turn off the TV and video games and go for a walk in the park. Get some "B" vitamins (a month's worth will run you less than $3 at Walmart)and take them daily. Volunteer at the humane society, a food bank, Meals-on-Wheels, anywhere folks need help. Helping others really beats depression. If you can't handle people, then just grab a trash bag and clean up the park on your walk. The thing is to DO something.

(7) What music are you listening to? Regae is a good mood lifter. Yesterday, I "belly-danced" my way through the housework.

(8) Get a kitten or puppy. They are love and joy wrapped in fur. It's dang hard to be depressed while watching their antics.

Remember, depression is a temporary state of mind. Joy is out there waiting to be found. You will get through this. Love ya- Granny:hippy: