This is all something were trying to find out. Who am I? In time you'll realize it's all inside of you. There's a light inside of everyone of us that's waiting to shine. To let it shine, you have to get shed some of the mud that gets in the way.

Everyone has a degree of shallowness whether they like to admit it or not. It's only natural. It doesn't make you a bad person. If you feel so bad about it, it's time to extend kindness to others. Showing kindness and compassion will only have it returned ten-fold.

You are struggling to find comfort in your own skin. Be the person you want to be, and shrug of how others perceive you. Be yourself man, even if you are trying to hide some weirdness. Everyone else may not appreciate it, but the ones that love you will adore you more. Don't be afraid to be yourself, you can change aspects of yourself, but you can never change your roots. Break down those barriers and walls, it's a new day.

I wish you the best Nikweiser. U da man.