I know it's probably really hard because you just want that high-that escape.
You have to think about the big picture. One day you will look back and remember this-your parents love you. Look at how many parents out there dont even spend time talking to their children. You are so loved and they want the very best life for you. Be strong-you aren't giving yourself enough credit. Prove to them that they CAN trust you again. Also-I keep telling everyone this but its just an awesome book. Go to www.themoodcure.com
and pull up the book. It has so much valuable information. Supplements you can buy in the nutrition center of any store that are "natural" valium or natural "euphoria" for our brain. She swears by them. A lot has to do with amino acids (eating enough protein). I would look at it, you might find some things that can help you cope through the hard part. It will get better. I was on vicodin for so long and when I went off I did it cold turkey. I took off a month at work and I went through the worst feelings I have had in my entire life. Not only could I not relax but I was shaky, my vision blurred for like 3 weeks. I kept thinking "I'm gonna feel like this forever-and I did it all to myself" You are gonna do just fine. Spend your extra time on the computer playing around. You can research a lot of info regarding the withdrawl symptoms, what can help, etc.

Take care!