Dude I don't know if i can. I know its one of the things you gut up and do.

But, there have been so many contributing factors that have made this harder both personal and the girl problems mentioned above.

I left out that my dog died last month, my aunt is terminally ill, I had a friend commit suicide two months ago.


Theres more. But I don't feel its neccessary to list here. Just know from the stem of those theres far worse atrocities in my life.

The reason I said those, because I really don't know if I can tell her. after all this shit (the girl honestly was1/14 of whats going on) i threw up blood from stress for the first time in my life. My physical health started to go once I couldn't fight anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I am not some depressed recluse now. I am still living.

I am just broken and too jaded when it comes to girls now.

peace and love~

thank you for your time. I really aprreciate you guys taking time to read my story (lenghthy) and too post your thoughts.

Much love~