Well, reading what you guys had to say, thank you BG, Dave, and Weedhound for your perspectives and advice. I guess you knocked a little sense into me. Somehow Lance Armstrong won 7 Tour de France, which is pretty amazing, so life afterwards can't all that bad. I'm leaning towards surgery, although something I don't want to fantom.

I guess what moved me most was reading Xcrispi's post about his explosion. We each suffer in our ways, and my life could be much worse, but it's pretty damn good, despite all this. Thank you guys.