Damn Slip, every word you said about yourself fits me to a t. I am in the exact situation with my control freak fiancee. Yes I most definitely am a control freak big time. Im so bad i dont even fly anymore. Its not that i am afraid of flying its two things. The first being Im not flying the plane and its too far out of my control. Secondly, if by some chance someone decides to act a fool on the plane, i WILL be a problem. I live my life in survivor mode at all times and my will to live may kick in a little too early now and things will get way out of control..guess thats another reason i stay away from people.

Yeah im with you on the religion. I definitely believe there is a God but I also believe God lies in you and your heart along with karma. Project good karma to people and the same will come to you. I look at it like this, i dont bother anyone, noone should bother me. All i ask is to be left alone by people. Should you choose to cross the line and pose a threat to me then, well just be prepared to reap the whirlwind.

Ive also noticed that now its like i cant turn my brain off. its constantly going and moving and i have become obsessed with reading and learning new shit about anything and everything. its like somebody opened up a door inside my brain and i cant close it.

Yes i know i am really fucked up and i didnt realize it until i found myself camped out in front of the guys moms house ready to go in and do the same thing he had done to me. I can remember having these flashes of my daughter going through me head and i guess then i took it as a sign from somewhere that I was about to send my daughter through the exact same thing we had just been though and that i just couldnt do. Not to mention i really aint comfortable knowing that my name has flown around in the homocide department as to being a serial murderer.

Anyway i just take it day by day for now and keep my nose clean.
trynagethigh Reviewed by trynagethigh on . Anybody here been through a serious tragedy? Anybody here been through a horrific tragedy that has you fucked up mentally forever? Changed you? Altered your life and lifestyle? How you think? The person you used to be/are now? There has to be someone out there that can relate to me. Rating: 5