Just want to say another thing... there are many things I want to control,,,if your like me you are a control freak to... We can't really control everything and I lose it at that point because now my neat orderly plan won't work... I learned to throw this shit to my higher power...

I know you don't believe in God but,,, believe in something,,,energy,,,mr smiley face,,, anything and lay some shit in thier hands... there is something throwing shit at you ,,,Why not throw it back...